i crave for those nights. those nights that you know won't happen ever again.

when you have to dress up.

when you look at the moon and it's as big as a five-peso coin.

when the planet mars was nearest to us.

when you know, the morning after, you have to come back to reality.

when for one night, you can be not yourself.

when you dig your feet in perfect white bora sand.

when for one night, you can truly be a princess.

when you can dance the night away.

when you stargaze and you see a falling star, and your wish made it.


haay.

sometimes i wish i fall asleep under a blanket of stars. but i can't; i'll just catch a cold. and it would be too weird in the morning.

o well.

jumping around by princess yves at 9:27 PM | Permalink | Comments

How You Life Your Life

You tend to deprive yourself of things you crave, for your own good. You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

shet. ang pagconfirm ng aking alindog ;p

Your Personality Profile

You are sexy, powerful, and bold. You're full of passion and energy... Sometimes this passion has a dark side. You feel most alive when you're seducing someone. You never fail to get someone's attention. Quick minded, you're also quick to lose your temper!

i'm a believer.

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

tama ito.

You Aren't Scary, You're Scared

Probably even scared to see how this quiz came out!

senyales ba ito ng....? waaaa.=s

Your Blog Should Be Green

Your blog is smart and thoughtful - not a lot of fluff. You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas. However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.

hermaphrodite, istatute? noooo!!!

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

oh no. here goes the "dreamer" stereotype again.

Your Mood Ring is Yellow

Imaginative Wondering Thoughts Peaceful

awww. fafajo. where are you.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 66% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

shet. akong ako.

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

heefhaff.

Your Element is Metal

Your power colors: white, gold, and silver Your energy: contracting Your season: fall You are persistent (and maybe even a little bit stubborn). If you see something you want, you go for it. You have a lot of strength, and it's difficult to get you down. Very logical, you tend to analyze everything going on in your life.

sandia. apir.

It's 90% Love and 10% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

yonoh.

Your Vibe Is Secretly Sexy

Sexy isn't exactly a word you'd use to describe yourself But you have a quite allure that certain men feel appealing You don't need to flaunt your stuff to be sexier A little more confidence in yourself, and you'll really light up a room!

naks. pero iba ang gusto ko.

You Are a Rose

You are a total alpha female who tends to be a leader. Your friends depend on you to hold things together and make decisions. Men are drawn to your feminine powers and strength. While you are the center of attention, you are secretly introverted and a bit shy.

jumping around by princess yves at 6:30 PM | Permalink | Comments

and ironically, the maid just brought it.

hmmm.

a friend surprised me earlier today while watching the sisterhood of the travelling pants. she texted a survey of whether or not she should dispose of remembrances from past relationships, to help her move on.

unintentionally i got into a survey of my own, this time a survey about people's answers to that question. the answers surprised me. maybe i'm really weird.

i remember i once watched a movie wherein a girl who had her heart broken decided to make a friend of hers keep everything that reminded her of him and of the relationship. for whatever reason i can't remember anymore.

that's what i suggested. make someone else do the keeping for her.

now, the question of why is a different story.

i've kept everything. blame it on the sentimental me, but i kept everything that was given to me by past, hmmm. i couldn't call them boyfriends because they weren't. they were past lovelives. i'd rather call them eras. anyway. the only thing that i know i made a friend of mine keep was a cd a suitor when i was a sophomore gave me, and it was because the songs were plain cheesy and that i didn't like the guy. a few years later, i got the cd back. i found no more reason to keep it away from me. didn't and don't matter anyway.

ngayon. i was surprised with the answers. most of them wanted her to dispose of it. the only answer that i heard that was near to mine was from fafajo, which pretty much suggests a compromise.

bakit ganun? was it really the sentimental me who made that decision? my reason for that suggestion was, for her to have memories to come back to when she's ready. but most of the answers i've heard were being practical: she wants to move on, but she can't because of lingering reminders. what to do? dispose of the reminders.

bakit ganun? was i being romantic when i suggested that option? that one day, when everything is fine, she will look at them and feel nothing, remember nothing except for the good memories that once tugged her heart?

bakit ganun? was i being naive when i offered that suggestion? that everything will be perfectly fine. that one can decide to move on. that there's such a thing as completely moving on.

kahit hindi ko kinailangang itapon ang mga reminders, nakatago sila. may choice at way para kunin ko sila pero pinili kong huwag kunin. ako ang reyna ng sulking. wala pa ang blogger pero madami nakong nagawang literature just to ease the pain. i just let it pass by, because i kept on believing that it will, and it did. i just let myself feel the pain, the love, the rejection, and everything else.

my dear temperamental friend, hope you find the method of letting go that perfectly suits you. we're all here to back you up.

jumping around by princess yves at 4:38 PM | Permalink | Comments

chad michael murray.

you're so dreamy.

*sighs*

why didn't you wait for me?

i knew from the first time i saw you in gilmore girls, you'll break my heart.

but i'm ok with it.

you were born to melt hearts in the first place.

hayy.

chad michael murray.

you're so dreamy.

jumping around by princess yves at 10:36 PM | Permalink | Comments

1. mami
~mami came back from cebu yesterday. she had to wait for half an hour for us because i left the fort an hour before her plane arrived from cebu. and take note, had to fetch ivy pa.

and dammit, it took us thirty freaking minutes to cross the intersection in jollibee taft. nakatulog na ako at lahat, hindi pa rin siya umuusad.

she got a bit fat, which she attributes to the everyday meriendas both in the morn and the afternoon. parang paris ang dating ng cebu ha. pleasurable living ba ito.

buti naman she brought home pasalubong. when we were talking kasi she said all that she's bringing home for me are plastics of chocolate crinkles that she made. mahal kita madir, pero crinkles ain't enough.

anyway. she brought home a box full of pasalubongs. talk about calories: chicharon, dried mangoes, turones, otap, and some others i dunno yet because they're deeply placed in the box. and the ironic part is that i've recently started going back to gym.

in the evening while thinking in the washroom i saw things differently. she was gone for only a week yet it was hard to emotionally welcome her back. maybe it's because for the past week sa sobrang kalayasan ko, a lotta things changed. but this feeling of coziness is fine. it's all good.

she's going back there i think a week from now. hay. sadyang wala na talaga kaming pamilya. sisirain ng negosyo ang aming pagsasamahan.


2. fafajo
~it's our mwahnsari today! yeee. =) once in a blue moon lang kami magkita pag monthsarries, so this one is special. amidst everything, it went well.

ginutom mo ako, pero ok lang. nacompensate ng iyong yumminess at hmm. hospitality.

he is the cutest, ever. nakakaadik. nung lunch nga lang, nalost. sa tingin ko, masyadong namystify sa aking beauty. or sa fact na isa akong baboy lumamon, tapos ang daldal-daldal pa. you tell me.

he just didn't initiate holding my hand. or at least as far as i can remember. hay. he really is the girlfriend here.

how ironic can things get. he made me read fhm. talagang gusto mo nang mangchicks tayo bebe ha. don't get me started about the magazine, lalabas ang aking pagkapeminista.

he made me realize something tonight. when he called earlier this evening, he heard me sing ala cameron from my bestfriend's wedding. take note, i might sing loudly but the door where the phone is was closed at that time. and he heard me. and when i returned, he said he heard me sing, and it's when i'm happy that i sing my heart out. hmmm. there really are some people who come to your life who would know you better than yourself.

and sandia's one of them.

and he still hugs me tight. sobrang tight para na akong mauubusan ng hininga. my type of hug, actually.

hay. still remains. lucky me.

awww. i have a hangover. penge hug.=/


3. chichi
~haha. cici. where do i begin.

i've recently developed another weird habit. pinapagalitan ko siya. at may emosyon na pagalit ha. ivy even jokes that i do it as if the person i'm talking to is that malditang ex-maid of ours who had contributed to an entry of mine before.

the funny thing is, he buys it. he actually thinks i'm mad at him. you should see his eyes whenever i do this. he intently looks at me like a child of mine na pinapagalitan at walang kalaban-laban. hay. i really love that fairy princess.

weird habit number two: i threaten his life. literally. i grab his neck and push him to the bed and angrily yells that i'll kill him. of course he freaks out. of course i don't mean it. it's just fulfilling to see him freaked out.

mami told me this kwento earlier today. so, she and dad were sleeping, and chito's sleeping sa may paanan nila. she woke up, but wasn't moving yet. then, she was surprised, because the sleeping chito woke up gulat. and then slept again.

chito. having nightmares.

hahaha. wonder what he'd have nightmares about. not being able to kiss dad in the lips? eeew.

but then, when asked about it, chito relentlessly denies having had nightmares last night.

right, cici. deny all you can.


4. kalayasan
~nakakadiri ang aking sched after finals. never in my life have i been this layas. seryoso. i actually think that my parents may not get angry with that fact but they resort to a different way to discourage me from continuing being a non-homebody: cut off my allowance.

sa tingin ko ang tanging araw na hindi ako umalis was monday this week. so that i can say that i'm not layas. but after that i was out everyday, pretty much all day. hay.

why do they allow me constantly? i know the one hirit that would make me stop going out, and i'd keep it to myself. it still haunts me. and besides. i've a week to keep runnning away from it.

next week, medyo relaxed na ang sched. just gym on thurs and probably pagbibigyan na ang hiling ni ms bungisngis. baka pumunta kami sa la mesa dam. tama ba yun. hmmm. at baka magfield trip sa ls.

ang kulang na lang ay ang magdala ako ng sarili kong car, if only i can park, at ang pagluwag ng aking cinderella curfew. but you know what? i don't mind. i'm ok with those restrictions; getting allowed each and every day to go place is weird in itself.


5. lola
~winning moment si lola. she is the reason why i left wednesday. because apparently, nanghihina siya. take note, that's one of her complaints that's why she went here ha. and apparently she already complained that to the doctor when she went for her check up monday this week.

o shit. o i left din pala monday. ganda mo yves. official layas ka na. no wonder you now start not feeling well. hindi ka sanay na maging hindi taong tabon.

anyway. we went to the emergency. she was given a room to rest in. when the doctor came in, all he said was something like this:

"oh, ok na yun. wala na yun. pwede ka nang umuwi."

salamat, doc. we had to pay 800+ just for that.

she then left yesterday to sleep in my tita's house in calamba. parang walang nangyaring emegency. the show must go on, sabi nga ni ate vi na i think fave ni lola. panalo.

and then, to top it off, kanina when she and my tita were waiting for a ship in batangas, apparently they were interviewed by someone from gma7. ano ka. sadyang artistahin ata lola ko e.


6. on being officially poor
~i don't like this situation. ivy is actually nandidiri of me because now i save up the coins that she gives up. i only replied with, "beng, when you're done with school and you're officially poor, you'll understand."

ayoko nito. super humiliating. one thing you're buying on sale purses at mango and then now you rejoice when you get to complete a P30 pangbayad for load with just coins. i hate it. i don't want to be poor.

wow. bratinella, istatute.

i dunno what happened to my savings. they're all gone. i believe most of them just went to my tummy. i'm not the type who buys trendy clothes eh; as a testi for me says, i go overboard with simplicity. but don't get me wrong. i DO have my shopaholic tendencies, i just win over them most of the time.

don't worry, i know who to blame.

damn you babaeng ganid!!! you made life worse for everybody but yourself. as if you can take all that you stole from the people to wherever you'll go when you die. asar ka. because of you i now have no savings.

oh. i know what i'll do if i don't get what i wish for. i shall be an npa.


7. struggle
~atlas shrugged. a philosophical book that is ayn rand's masterpiece. it is in this book wherein she discussed her philosophy of objectivism.

when tatay pepay lent me this book i was intrigued; nahawa ako sa passion nya for this book and what it's all about. but it's been a week now; and i'm still in page 33.

nakakafrustrate. pwede mo ring sabihing it's because i was layas this week that's why i haven't really accomplished anything when it comes to reading it.

sana nga. ayokong maggive up e, just like what i did sa goblet of fire ba yon? basta yun.

interesting pov: nes said that if she can finish atlas, she will be ashamed of herself. she was able to finish reading a novel yet, she just can't finish reading the Bible.

grabe ka talaga Nes. kakaiba ka mag-isip. point though.

i want to read it, medyo nahuhook na ako kay dagny e. i hope i was like her.

8. craving
~this has been a sakit of mine ever since. i have the tendency to crave as if i was pregnant. nakakadiri. but i consider it as one of the rare means where i relieve myself of spoiled brattiness.

nakakatawa lang. yesterday when i drove myself to the gym to attend a latin class with the lovely people, all that i thought of was gonuts na may ice cream. and then when we were in the class na, seryoso, fettuccine ang aking naiisip. nakakadiri.

why do people crave? well, at least, why do I crave for certain food? labo. and i won't get over it until i get it. sometimes talaga my friends have a point when they call me a bratinella.

now, i still crave for fettuccine. at goto. and nilagang itlog. and hot noodles. asar. i'm not even hungry.



oh. btw, a few of my recent conceited realizations:
masyado akong maganda para icremate.
isa akong maladyosang messenger.
mayroon akong alindog.

hmmmmm.


~~~~~~~~~~~~
happy mwahnsari bebi. thanks for constantly making me happy.

jumping around by princess yves at 10:23 PM | Permalink | Comments

sabi ko naman sayo eh, mahahanap din kita.

well it wasn't really me who found it.

kaya salamat dear Choritz. salamat at binigyan mo ako ng closure.

HAHAHAHAHA. [tawa ni ms. bungisngis]

Dyslexic Heart
paul westerberg

Na nanana na nanana na na
na na na na nana etc.
Ah ah ah...
You shoot me glances and they're so hard to read
I misconstrue what you mean
Slip me a napkin and now that you start
Is this your name or a doctor's eye chart?
I try and comprehend you but I got a dyslexic heart
I ain't dying to offend you, I got a dyslexic heart
Thanks for the book, now my table is ready
Is this a library or bar?
Between the covers I thought you were ready
A half-angel, half-tart
Do I read you correctly, lead me directly
Help me with this part
Do I hate you? Do I date you?
Do I got a dyslexic Heart?
You keep swayin'... what are you sayin'?
Thinking 'bout stayin'?
Or are you just playing, making passes
Well, my heart could use some glasses
Try and comprehend you
I got a dyslexic heart
Do I read you correctly,
I need you directly
I only went this far
Do I love you do I hate you
I got a dyslexic heart
Na na na na na, etc.

jumping around by princess yves at 8:48 PM | Permalink | Comments

hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit parati kong nakakasalamuha ang kantang ito. anyway.

Who Put the Weight of the World On My Shoulders
oasis

Who put the weight of the world on my shoulders?
Who put the lies in the truth that you sold us?

Lost behind a silver screen
are all the things you could've been to us

So don't try to fuck up my head with your problems
I'm just tryin' to fix up my bed in the doldrums

Lost behind a silver screen
are all the things you could've been in Love and Life soooooo

(Chorus)x2
Help me out my friend
My head just started to hurt
I won't pretend
I've got all of the time in the world so
So now she's gone
all alone in her own universe
I still walk on
'Til I hold you within my world

Who put the weight of the world on my shoulders?
Who put the lies in the truth that you sold us?

isa pa, isa pa.

Vienna
billy joel

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight,...
Too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong, you know
You can't always see when you're right. you're right

You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you?
And you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

tagalog naman.

Tulog Na
sugarfree

Tulog na mahal ko
Hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito
Lika na, tulog na tayo.
Tulog na mahal ko
Wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama
Saka na mamroblema

Chorus
Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
Mamaya, hndi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
Kung matulog, matulog ka na...

Tulog na mahal ko
Nandito lang akong bahala sa iyo
Sige na, tulog na muna
Tulog na, mahal ko
At baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas
At sabay nating harapin ang mundo

Repeat chorus hanggang makatulog ka

last one. btw,one of my current faves.

Heaven Knows (This Angel Has Flown)
orange and lemons

There are times when I'm lying in my bed
Hug my pillow and cry from this tip again
And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day
Almost rubbed down, swelling, as I keep on
Dipping my face in these cold hands of mine
Heaven knows how bitter I am

Chorus
Cause this angel has flown away from me
Leaving me in drunken misery
I should have clipped her wings and made her mine
For all eternity
Now this angel has flown away from me
Thought I had the strength to set her free
Did what I did because I love her so
Will she ever find her way back home to me
Aah...

I'm so tired, I feel like catching forty winks
Being up all night in this elbow room
That puts me in a trance
Where hopes and dreams come true
Now my lips are burning and my eyes are hurting
From this fuse I mixed till I light another
Cigarette just to pass my time, oh
Heaven knows how bitter I am

(Repeat chorus)

jumping around by princess yves at 9:02 PM | Permalink | Comments

panalo ka zorro.

pero wala ka pa ring panama kay pepe. (wink, wink. sisig pamalit don boy)

astig ang movie. was worth every penny. well, could've gone to capone's and redeem my free entrance and drink, but there. watching the movie was worth it.

fave lines as of now:

sandali have to consult the movie spoiler first para verbatim, nyenye

pero talagang kelangang wala pa siyang spoiler. hay. anyway.

"i have to see if i lost my wife to a better man."

"a definite maybe."

hmmm. yun palang.

i was also given the chance to release my frustrations by shouting whenever there's a fight scene. as expected, numerous yon. pero beautifully executed, intricately choreographed. i'm glad the scriptwriters or whoever is tasked to think of such scenes acknowledged the fact that now moviegoers aren't that easy to please.

ang hindi lang namin naintindihan, other than the fact that despite the obvious signs kung sino si zorro, hindi pa rin siya makilala ng madla, ay kung bakit kung maghalikan sila ay parang kontest ng paunahan maubusan ng hininga. sobrang "get-a-room" moments. it was us who got ashamed for them.

koko, you deceived us. well, at least, me. you said there'll be nothing in the movie that would remind us of law school. but no. we ended up citing the justifying circumstance of unlawful aggression, the mitigating circumstance of intoxication, alleged in the earliest opportunity, and the aggravating circumstance of ignominy, had that killing got consummated.

masaya siya. kewl. i thought the sequel would be a bore; that it would try so hard to get as much of a following as the original did. but well, this one need not worry. sa kid palang nila alejandro and elena, ok na.

kid. child. not a goat.

oh, i'll miss dean roy.


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thanks dear bebe. u almost made me cry with that unexpected text. u really know me. thanks for always believing in me. u touch my heart too, u know.

jumping around by princess yves at 1:09 AM | Permalink | Comments

lately my friends from ateneo saw one of my worst traits: i am a mess.
they may probably see me dancing around acting as if everything is perfect, yet if one hears what i'm really trying to say, one can say that even the eyes can keep lies.

i've never learned to keep it all together. one aspect of my life just has to be falling apart for me to continue living my so-called life. i've only had a few rare moments when i truly believed the forces of the universe connived so that i could finally be contentedly happy.

to the perm, my heart will always remember you. if this kind of friendship is inherent in law school then i guess a lot of people are missing out on this kind of blessedness. thanks for being such dependable fairy godmas; thanks for reminding me how fun it is to be spontaneously human; thank you for being strong for me when i was falling apart; thanks for constantly assuring me that one way or another, you've got my back. i realized i don't need to belong in an official organized group to feel this sense of belongingness. ym conference me, anytime.

to nes and to nanaiers, thanks. we're living different lives now and yet you managed to meet me halfway just to listen to my woes. sa susunod na crossroads ulit.

later in the eve i'm going to watch the premiere of zorro with the girls. bittersweet. this might be the last time i'll see them.

and it breaks my heart into pieces.

jumping around by princess yves at 12:02 PM | Permalink | Comments

just like nanaiers, and also because of the fact of the non-existence of any interesting shows in television, i decided to see for myself what the hype about pinoy big brother is all about. in fact, kakatapos lang nya ngayon.

i've been watching it for only a couple of minutes, and guess what. i got bored. all i saw were a bunch of people who i don't know or care about doing ordinary boring things.

i thought, buti sana if they were goodlooking, or something. maiintindihan ko pa why people are addicted to the show.

it's semi-stagnant, if not for the i think challenges that big brother aka the director dyogi gives. it tries its best but fails to be a real reality show, because it is manipulated boredom.

in the first place, are people that discontented that now they even seek for the feeling of being a god who looks over all?

if that's why big brother was created, then well. i pity its creators.

i thought about it. the show in a way clarified to me that i'm not a god, or at least, a real goddess. tao ako. i get bored whenever i watch people whom i don't really give a damn about.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

maybe i have to rethink my "i'm no spoiled brat" attitude.

last night, well actually earlier this morning the senior partners of the perm were having a conference in ym. of all the days, ngayon pa naisip maubos ng aking internet prepaid. good thing fafajo has, pero isp nga lang. same configuration as the one i'm using now, different number nga lang.

it being busy is an understatement. kagimbalan. i guess i'm just not used to not getting connected immediately.

when i complained to him, he even said, that's how it really is. patience is a virtue.

right. thanks.

i was that impatient, i swore i was willing to displace my anger to joseph. if he didn't find a go account, naging pretty little monster na ako.

ehem, ehem. =p

kasi naman. my rationalization for that was, well, i pay good money to get an internet connection. and then this is what i get. a stupid busy tone pretty much all the time. not fair, not worth it. i ain't gonna waste my time and money with anything that doesn't really make things better for me.

bratinella.

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random questions, coming up.

how come hidden love never fades away? is it because it wasn't given the chance to be consummated, hanggang magpatayan na ang dalawang parties?

can you like someone without being concerned about that person?

what's the essence of mashochism? do they think that one day, somehow, they will get what they are asking for?

what's so disturbing about quitting to be a good girl? it's not even quitting. it's taking the time off from being such.

and, i don't get the logic of fishing. sorry, i'm no pishergurl.

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btw, thanks to euns and pepe. naappreciate ko ang inyong testi. penge sisig.
nes, nabibilib ako sa iyo. tama ang iyong viewpoint pagdating sa satisfaction sa Kanya. pero gaya mo, na hindi piniling maging shadow ko, pinipili ko ring umalis sa shadow mo. salamat pa rin, dahil kahit magkaiba tayo ngayon sa maraming bagay, ikaw pa rin ang aking partner in crime.

jumping around by princess yves at 11:55 AM | Permalink | Comments

You Are 20 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

jumping around by princess yves at 1:40 AM | Permalink | Comments

i'm yet to decide on what to write about tagaytay. but don't worry, i assure you [people who dare read my blog] it'll be all good.

it even is an inspiration for this entry. when we were eating our breakfast [i made my own pansit canton, yeba, independence, here i come =p] and most of us were still delusional or sleepy, i realized the way i deal whenever i'm in the midst of a lot of things.

anyway. that morning when i was asked if i was okay because i was plain tulala, i just said that i just wanna float in the water. so there.

i connected kanina to the net for the sole reason of me wanting to know what Ana Bananarama said in german. while waiting for the laptop to be done setting itself up, i realized, that's a perfect death.

i was already asked of this question before. what i said then partly stands still parin. i said, that although there are times when i wished i'd die the way brad pitt did in meet joe black [si brad talaga ha, not death--heck, panu mamamatay si death? =_=] of course i want a peaceful death. a natural one because of old age. i'll be in my death bed surrounded by my closest friends whom i love the most. my loverboy who i wish to be also my husband by then would hold my hand until... that time.

i just modified it a bit. i don't want no death bed. i wanna float in the sea. i wanna float with my long white nightgown and tousled hair. mamatay na gorgeous pa rin. i wanna be held by everyone i hold dear. ayokong makita nila ang mukha kong unti-unting nawawalan ng buhay. gusto ko maalala nila akong madaldal kahit namumutla na at natutuwa dahil nagflofloat ang kanyang nightgown.

at may nalalaman pang patili-tili.

ironically though, i ain't depressed while doing this. i'm even bangag, late na kami natapos sa conference ng the perm.

or. maybe i'm also capable of being in denial.

all i know is that, when one talks to me about law school, i feel like dawn zulueta in hihintayin kita sa langit, when she cut her wrist in her white nightgown, and then it was too late for richard gomez to pigil her.

i know i've done a lot of wrong things. i didn't give my all. but that's it; wala na sa akin ang kakayahang baguhin pa yun.

jumping around by princess yves at 9:48 AM | Permalink | Comments

Your Birthdate: September 22

While sometimes employing unorthodox approaches, you are capable of handling large scale undertakings. You assume great responsibility and work long and hard toward completion. Often, especially in the early part of life, there is rigidity or stubbornness, and a tendency to repress feelings. Idealistic, you work for the greater good with a good deal of inner strength and charisma. An extremely capable organizer, but likely to paint with broad strokes rather than detail. You are very aware and intuitive. You are subject to a good deal of nervous tension.

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

jumping around by princess yves at 3:33 AM | Permalink | Comments

habang hinihintay ko si kuya nash na bumalik dito para pumunta kami sa town at bigyan ng closure ang lahat ng ito, eto ay para sa kanila. more than an lss; breaks my heart at the same time as it gives me a weird feeling of peace. kanina habang nagkakagulo ang lahat nakikita ko in slow motion ang beauty ng pagsasamahang ito; almost made me cry to realize i have to wake up from this dream. sana magkita-kita pa tayong muli.

I Will Remember You
Sarah Mclachlan

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

jumping around by princess yves at 12:09 PM | Permalink | Comments

wowow!!!

siguro hinintay lang talaga nilang magbente uno na ko.

o siguro dahil nakatapos na ko ng kolehiyo.

o dahil nasa law school na ako.

hmmm.

o dahil finally, sinabi ko na ang takilyalistik na linya sa mga "i'm-not-a-girl-not-yet-a-woman" na sitwasyon:

"e kasi, masyado na akong conservative. masyado na kong manang. nakakadiri na."

hmmmmm.

i don't care, i'm going to tagaytay tomorrow.




woohoooo!!!!

jumping around by princess yves at 12:00 AM | Permalink | Comments

if ever i will be able to overcome this misery, i will buy that fabulous sex and the city trivia game.

and as adorable carrie always segways, i wonder, exactly how many poeple will cry if i die after the finals?

and for what reasons.

hmmm.

jumping around by princess yves at 6:24 PM | Permalink | Comments

imagine. alas tres ng madaling araw at biglang nagtext si mumiel. na last year 19 daw sa 2c ang bumagsak kay cande. at si ramirez ay nangmiminus kung hindi niya gusto ang sentence construction.

mas lalo ata akong naoffend.

1unit lang hindi ko na mapasa, at ngayon posibleng dahil hindi niya gusto ang sentence construction ko. hmmm.

para kasing parating may mali, parang kahit anong seryoso o gago mo sa pagsagot, parang may barrier. sabi nga ni nicole kidman sa bewitched, i feel like im pressed on a glass wall and i can see everything on the other side, if i could just go there.

kagimbalan. o well.

aim for 75 tomorrow.

jumping around by princess yves at 10:08 AM | Permalink | Comments

katabi ko ngayon sina david at arman, habang tinutulungan ni arman si david sa paglalagay ng footnotes.

malapit nang matapos ang finals sa legres. nagtawag na si patty na ipass na ang papers.

ang saya.

kahit late dumating ang prof, kahit ang batch namin ang guinea pig, nakakatuwa. hindi ko inaasahang ganun ang support ng blockmates na hindi pa nakasalang.

eternally lost na naman ako pero sila euns, mel, koko at jv ang walang humpay na nagchecheck up sa akin.

super touched dear people.

si mumiel, kiboy, at ana birthday girl ay biglang nawala. ang mga kakontsaba kong katulong sa pagsagot ay nagkanya-kanya.

o well.

nakakatuwa si paopao. adorable talaga. sulit ang pagiging cheerleaders slash legal researchers namin ni eunice.

kaya tuloy ngayon, ilang minuto na lang bago matapos, chillax na kami. ewan, recycled kasi ang mga questions. perfected na yan.

saya.

jumping around by princess yves at 7:58 PM | Permalink | Comments

hindi na ko magpapaliboy-liboy pa.

kumikirot ang puso ko.

siyempre hindi literally.

nakakalungkot.

dahil sa friendster nalalaman mo kung anu-ano na ang nangyayari sa lahat ng mga kakilala mo. minsan ok, minsan masaya, minsan regrettable.

nakakalungkot lang ang mga realities ng buhay: may maagang nagpapakasal, may nagpapakasal para lang sa bata, may nagbibreak at hindi tinatanggal sa profile ang mga testimonials ng ex nyang may pamalit na ngayon.

mayroon din namang nakakataba ng puso, yung mga hanep sa paggawa ng testi. hindi sa akin binigay ito, pero nakakatuwa:
Why write a whole damn page on a testimonial, when I can all sum up what I want to say in three?

I love you baby!

(okay, that was four... So sue me!)


huhuhu.

fafa jo, asan na sa akin? =s


at syempre ayaw ko pang aminin, pero masakit tanggapin ang katotohanang tanggap na ng iba ang pagkatalo sa persons. masakit, dahil alam kong ganun din naman ang sitwasyon ko pero wala akong ginagawa. pinipisil lang ang puso ko, pero umaarte akong as if hindi pa sira ang buhay ko.

hah. ni hindi na ako makangiti ha.

jumping around by princess yves at 12:44 AM | Permalink | Comments

yan ay isang linyang sa tingin ko ay hindi maintindihan ni maria carmen. porke tumatawa ako kanina, porke sinabi kong nadalian ako, sa tingin niya ay kaya ko.

e hindi.

panu yon.

hindi parating katuwaan o galak ang ibig ipahiwatig ng isang ngiti. minsan yon na lang ang magagawa mo. alam mong tapos na, alam mong huli na ang lahat. wala ka nang hahabulin pa. minsan yon na lang ang mabibigay mo, dahil wala nang magagawa pa ang pag-iiyak, wala nang magagawa pa ang pagsisisi. minsan yon na lang ang magagawa mo dahil naubusan ka na ng boses, ng lakas ng loob isigaw ang lahat ng saloobin mo. minsan yon na lang ang mabibigay mo, dahil pagod ka na. pagod ka nang gumalaw. pagod ka nang lumaban. pagod ka na sa lahat, at wala kahit ano o sino ang makakapagpabuhay pa sa iyo muli.

background music, the scientist, coldplay.

hindi ba bagay sa akin ang melodramatic.

si mel ay isang nakakatuwang bata. parang nagdadalaga ulit. kinikilig, nakakapandiri ika nga ni kiboy ang ngiti. kagimbalan, akala ko ba sa isang linggo pa ang pag-ibig.

buti naman at mukang hindi ko naman talaga kakambal si chorizo. kahit kailan kasi, hinding-hindi mo ako mapapakain ng fries na sinawsaw sa barbecue sauce ng chicken nuggets.

sa pamamagitan ni pepe, nalaman kong mayroon naman pala akong talentong maipagmamalaki, hindi lang ang aking kagandahan [beh.]. marunong pala akong magkarate chop. simula ngayon siya na ang aking pagdidiskitahang pagsanayan non. mukha yatang pinanganak para manira ng pagkakaibigan ng ibang tao e.

isa pang nakakatuwang bata si ms bungisngis. kanina nung kaming tatlo lang nila mumiel ang magkakasama, at biglang kinausap ni mumiel ang taong pinag-aalayan niya ng kantang nasa baba ng lahat ng kadramahan kong ito, hindi namin pinag-usapan, hindi pinlano, pero sabay kami ni ms bungisngis na tumalikod at lumihis ng direksyon. nakakailang na nakakatawa. dati ko pang hindi maintindihan kung bakit ganon ang reaksyon ko kapag kausap ni mumiel ang taong yon.

si kiboy ang tanging taong nagchicheer kaninang bago magtest. panu, hasang-hasa na. sori ha, tao lang kami. isa pa, siya lang ang nagsabing ako ay may sariling lengwahe, dahil hindi niya naintindihan ang ginawa kong digest para sa persons. sori ha.

si mumiel. ngayong gabi ko lang naalala na may salita na palang naimbento na tumutukoy sa mga ginagalaw ni mumiel kapag yung taong yon na ang usapan: paranoia. siya ay parang asawa kung magtanong. lahat ay kailangang malaman, lahat dapat ay may koneksyon. nakakatuwa, para kasing pagdating sa "kanya", halos mawala sa ulirat habang namumula si mumiel. kung si mumiel ay may kakilalang ako ang weakness, kilala ko naman ang sa kanya. kay saya.

gaya ng naipangako ko, eto ay para kay mumiel.

Nearness of You
Norah Jones


It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

When you're in my arms and I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams come true

I need no soft lights to enchant me
If you'll only grant me the right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night the nearness of you



OO NGA PALA. salamat kay Nyssa, nakita ko na naman ang aking words of wisdom.

jumping around by princess yves at 11:18 PM | Permalink | Comments

hay nku. 11 na. nakastart nk ng civil code pero andito ulit ako.

bummer.

kasi yang lecheng mymedialist na yan e. forbidden code daw.

anyway, since andito na ako, dito ko na lang muna ililista ang aking lss materials. pramis after this bakbakan na talga.

happy squareheads. cant believe i forgot this

never gona give you up, rick astley

together forever, salamat kay mumiel, hindi ko gustong malss sa dalawang roderick paulate-ish songs na ito pero yun

cry for help. sabi ni mumiel, gusto daw ito ni jv. hmm. may kailangan bang tamaan?

extraordinary liz phair. ang aking "i-am-pretty-i-am-perfect-unlike-you" theme song

dont know what to say, o do? ewan. ric segretto. sa tingin ko dahil nalaman ni cande sa pamamagitan ng kantang ito ang aming tunay na damdamin, mas lalo niya kaming minahal. medyo malaki pala ang iniwan naming challenge sa susunod na 1c huh.

what i like about you, lillix

bye bye bye, nsync

i'll be over you. forgot who sung it, bsta yung 80s song na as soon as my heart stops breaking

1 thing, amerie

shake it off, mariah carey


eto ay para kay kiboy, celebrity ka pala e.
pero bakit ganun, alam ko talga siya kumanta nito, sino si rodel naval? hmmm. anyway. this reminds me of kiboy. hihi.

Lumayo Kaman Sa Akin
Rodel Naval

Lumayo ka man sa akin
At ako'y iyong limutin
Masakit man sa damdamin
Pilit pa rin titiisin.

Mga lumipas na ligaya
Ang kahapong may pag-asa
Mga pangarap na walang hanggan
Ay naglaho paglisan mo, mahal ko.


* Pagkat saan ka man naroroon
Pintig ng puso ko'y para sa iyo
Naghihirap man
Ang aking damdamin
Nagmamahal pa rin sa iyo giliw
Limutin man kita'y di ko magawa
Hindi pa rin ako nagbabago
Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y
Lagi mong kasama.

Mga sandaling ligaya
Kung ikaw ang siyang kasama
Sana ay di na natapos pa
Wala ng nais pang iba.
Sa gabi'y naaalala
Nalulumbay pagkat wala ka
Ang yakap mo'y aking inaasam
Sana'y maulit pang muli
Mahal ko. (REPEAT *)

Tuluyan man tayong di magkita
Umaasa pa rin ako sinta
Pagkat mahal kita manalig ka
Walang katulad mo sa buhay ko
Ikaw lamang ngayon,
Bukas, kaylan man
Naririto ako asahan mo
Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y
Lagi mong kasama.

Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y
Lagi mong kasama.

jumping around by princess yves at 11:07 AM | Permalink | Comments

huling hirits bago ang huling bakbakan.

napakabitter sweet ng week na ito. well last week pa naman nagstart, kay mighty vanni. hehe. mahal ko talaga siya, sana siya na lang ang aming adviser. pero huli na ang lahat para sa pagreregret. kelangan ko ng 75 para makita ko pa siyang muli.

yuckers parang seryoso yun ha.

statcon, hmmm. average lang ang aking recits, could've done better para naman mas maganahan pa kong mag-aral pero noooh. talagang kelangang bawiin ng kanyang midterm results. ngayon ko lang naranasan sa tanang buhay ko ang napakalaking difference na mabibigay sa buhay mo ng dalawang points.

persons. sayang hindi spectacular ang aking huling recit. masyado akong kinabahan. kinarma ata ako; bwisit na kasi ako dahil mga 1 and a half hours lang naman niya ako pinakaba. minsan sadyang mali ang masyadong aral e.

tapos yung booboo ng class. as expected, nakwento na agad ni ms bungisngis. gusto ko lang idagdag na pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng prayer, may hirit pa ang aming prof:

"oh-kaay."

hindi ko narinig yung "mukang sabog kayo ha" comment pero there.

legprof, hmmm. kala ko blessed na ako dahil allegedly nakalimutan niya ang class cards pero biglang marunong pala siyang magmagic at nakita nya bigla. ok lang i guess ang aking recits. natouch lang ako sa comment daw niya after the class: "hope to see you next sem, this is a good class". after everything that we have said about her, unexpected talaga.

ngayon. ang consti. sa tanang buhay ko ngayon lang ako nakaattend ng ganung class. 4hours straight na halos non-stop na kabigatan sa loob. but if you think about it, sobrang bait niya kanina. niline up ang may defiencies. game. voluntary recit na kinatamaran niya. at ako pa ang huli. at ok naman pala siya maggrade ng recit. o sige, kahit poker face siya magdeliver ng joke mahal ko na rin siya.

sumakit na naman ang aking panga sa mga lovely people. wala talagang humpay sa tawanan. sana walang iiyak, sana hindi ako iiyak sa regret o heartbreak dahil tapos na ito. hay.



bakbakan na.

jumping around by princess yves at 11:34 PM | Permalink | Comments

im so freaking tired. not really physically. mentally, duh. emotionally, well, im currently manhid. but it hurts man. it hurts to know it doesn't hurt.

i really feel like im so constricted te breathe. that a pair of hands are constantly squeezing my lungs. that any second now, the heart will stop beating.

im so tired. that tired i dont wanna move anymore. ive lost all there is to hold on to. i dunno why; i know i could take on the burden if only i just focus a little more. maybe i just cant deal with the environment, the kaswapangan; the dog-eat-dog world according to mel. turns out im still the naive person that i thought ive moved on from being.

i wanna take a breather before everything begins, and actually that's what im doing. im scared though; that either i might not come back altogether from this breather im taking or worse, everything is but too late to save.

i need someone to talk to; someone to untog my head to the wall. someone to give me genuine hope; i honestly lost everything of that. but time is running out.

jumping around by princess yves at 12:00 AM | Permalink | Comments

to the lovely people, who think that everything i do inside the washroom is more than enough eccentricity, this is for you.

told you, that new feature of friendster sucks. i've been viewed 9 times now and yet i can only see four yata or five.

damn you stalkers. stalking the master stalker. =p

at, si ms. bungisngis ay hindi nagblog kagabi. isang kagimbalan.

jumping around by princess yves at 9:50 AM | Permalink | Comments

1. takte yang legres na yan. isa sa mga rare moments na seryosong natempt akong magcheat. magcheat, as in buksan at ilagay sa floor ang handouts. ganun siya ka-walang sense: yung hindi inaasahan, yung hindi pinagtuunan ng masyadong pansin ay ang siyang lumabas. nasayang lang ang pagbabasa ko sa halos buong libro.

siyempre, ibang usapan na yun whether or not i understood what i read.

pero i applaud the proctor, sa kanyang moral stand. kapag bumagsak ako sa midterms na yun hahuntingin kita.

2. buti naman, hindi ako natawag sa Consti today. hindi ito rare, pero dahil sa hindi pagiging rare ng desisyong ito wala na rin sa kin: ang mag-pass na naman.

eto si mumiel sayang yung mga pinapass eh. mga sablay: hindi nya makita ang digest, o nasa harap na niya ang digest pero hindi pa nababasa. hay.

3. i almost snapped at shem come break time. ayoko lang kasi sa phrase na yun eh. nakakapagod. siguro dahil lang din sa fact na hindi ako katulad nilang fight till the end ang motto. well, if you think about it, ganun naman ang gagawin ko eh, ganun na lang ang magagawa ko. pero siguro rin, minsan, kahit anong kaya mo, sadyang hindi sapat ang kakayanan mong kayanin ang bagay na yun. didnt get it? beh.

4. natuwa ako in a way sa mom nung ex-maid namin, turns out may kahihiyan at utak pala siya. siguro ampon niya yung ex-maid namin. hmmm.

5. sadyang bakla si chito. siya ang malandi e. pinipigilan na ni rav ayaw pa rin patinag. hay naku. lulublob ko nga sa dram ng tubig.

btw sa lahat ng mga nasungitan ko, o napakitaan ko ng aking kabaliwan, binabawi ko naman agad e db. nagsstart na kasi akong maapektuhan ng lahat. bear with me.

jumping around by princess yves at 11:43 PM | Permalink | Comments

so. woke up at around 830 this morning, and when i went out of my room, i realized, the house is a mess.

so i went downstairs, ready to deliver another sermon. suddenly shiela, the maid slash crew in the store who has her day off today, was all that i could displace my frustratioins to.


"shiela, bakit wala akong nakikitang change dito?"

"huh? ayun, sinundo na kanina [insert other maid's name here] ng nanay niya."

woohoo.

apparently the maid's mom went to the house in the middle of the night to get her daughter. my mom just had to talk to the mom first then of course she let her leave. siguro the mom was expecting something of a takilyalistik "hindi-mo-siya-pwedeng-kunin-sa-amin-we'll-be-a-mess-without-her" scene. but no. halos isuka na po namin siya dito.

yehey.

liberation!!!!

freedom!!!!


now i've to go for legres.

jumping around by princess yves at 10:01 AM | Permalink | Comments

tama na ang addiction. ayoko na po.

tapos ngayong araw na to nadiscover kong gumagana pala ang cd rom nito. sooo. adik na naman sa games na binigay ni fafa jo.

loser yung isang bagong feature ng friendster. dapat tanggalin yung invisible status. ganun din e. tuloy pa rin sa pagsstalk sila mumiel at zuleika.

binati namin kayo, shem! pramis. mga around 415. hi to shem and her special someone. siyempre alam mo na kung sino.

dahil tapos na ang crim [sob], wala nang lasalle day, ay sasabihin ko na ito: go lasalle! wag tatanga-tanga! wag ibigay kay joseph yeo ang bola!

one big fight! =p




tama na. mag-aaral na ko.

jumping around by princess yves at 4:34 PM | Permalink | Comments

She's so lucky. This is the first time I've ever done something like this. I know, she isn't worthy of my time, or an entry in my blog. But because of a.) this is my blog, I've the prerogative of choosing what I wanna write about; and b.) I really have to have an outlet for this, I feel I'm near to killing somebody, that's why this has to have a place here.

See, she's not the first one to be like that. In fact, if you think about it, we've encountered worse people than her. Ever since I was a little beautiful [hehe. Ehem.] girl I've always been branded as either a supladita or worse, maarte. The latter description I have yet to ponder upon; I know I sometimes speak like a cono "can-I-make-tusok-tusok-the-balls" pero I know deep inside I'm just a sometimes kikay but most of the times barubal person. But there. Anyway. The former, I attribute to two factors: first, genetically, specifically from my Dad's side [you should see my titas from Dad's side: mistisahing akala mataray on the outside pero pusong mamon pala], and the second, from my environment, ever since I was a kid. Pagpapakafreud, childhood experiences especially with maids, contributed largely to who I am now.

So you now know it's about the infamous maid.

Well, she's young. I believe sixteen. Hehe, don't sumbong us to SSS or DSWD, I've to maintain my good moral character. =p Back to where I was. She's young, I know. She has yet to learn about stuff. But the sad thing with her is, she acts and thinks as if she's already a grown-up, who just can't change anymore. Ika nga sa kawayan, sobrang tanda na hindi na pwedeng matuwid.

You can deal kasi with naive people e; people can learn di ba. Pero siya yung typical useless waster of money type of maid: inefficient, tamad, tanga [seriously], proud, kirengkeng, bastos, at talandi. As in, the only reason why she's still here is because of the fact that there would be no one in the house sa buong maghapon. Yun lang. As in.

Just like what I have already said she isn't the worst we've had; we've encountered the really bitching type, o yung walang hiya, o yung inherently stupid at lost. Pero oo, sa tingin ko ngayon lang naming naencounter ang pinagsama-samang ugaling yon: at honestly, I can live my life without that.

Saan ka nakakita ng maid na mas sumasagot pa sa Dad mo compared sa iyo? Saan ka nakakita ng maid na ang nagagawa pa lang, kapag tinanong mo ng banding alas tres ng hapon, kung ano na ang naaccomplish niya, ay ang bumili ng load para sa celfone nya? Saan ka nakakita ng maid na nagpapadeliver para sa sarili niya ng dalawang pizza, tapos she won't eat it din naman? Saan ka nakakita ng maid na a day after ordering for pizza, nag-order ulit ng sandwich ata at dalawang coke, all amounting to 400 bucks? Saan ka nakakita ng maid na, actually ng TAO na, sa sobrang katamaran ay hindi naliligo either up to four freaking days, or until may pumansin na sa fact na apat na araw na yung damit niya?

Takte hindi ko na nga iniintindi yung fact na nung pumunta dito si Joseph last week, nagpapacute siya e. Eh, partly at fault naman kasi si Joseph e. Damn that muscle shirt.

I really dunno why I'm so mad at her. I really don't. I know I'm a little bit of Ms. Minchin but honestly, I dunno why I'm so hars with her.

I hate her. I really do. She's wasting our money when we could give it to somebody more deserving, or at least, pretends to be deserving of it. I'm not asking naman for an almost mechanical maid, ang gusto ko lang ay at least polite at yung magpapasukob sa yo, after all you're the amo. Ambigat talaga sa loob, imagine, she went to sleep daw last night at two and yet she falls asleep while eating and ironing. Samantalang ako, kami. Mas madami pa kaming mabibigat na hinaharap araw-araw pero kahit antok, tuloy pa rin.

Sori rin siya. My parents thought about putting up a business while she is the maid. The fact that ako na ang naatasang magsupervise ng house plus the frustrating law school life made me this way. Mag – isa na nga, hindi ka na sanay magpatakbo ng bahay, pagod ka na galing sa school, tatanga-tanga at bastos pa ang kausap mong buong araw nakikipaglandian sa boypren niya sa text. Please understand my propensity to commit homicide.

I really want her out. I do. If you think about it, she should be thanking us, because we gave her a chance. But because of the fact that she just can't do what's expected of her, she just got to go.

jumping around by princess yves at 12:41 AM | Permalink | Comments

the day, to be described as interesting is but an understatement.

nakakatawa. this week was characterized as a rollercoaster of emotions. sobrang intense at heartfelt ng mga emotion na ito that honestly, i felt for more than a couple of times this week the possibility of having a cardiac arrest.

ok. as expected. parating mabigat ang loob ko kapag may recit. parate kong nararamdamang sooner or later hindi na ko makakahinga sa sobrang bigat ng loob.

hehe, let's not talk about the number of times i laughed this week, mapapagod lang tayo. i liked this week because even if i've felt all there is to feel by a human being, everything still is compensated for by the "laugh-like-there's-no-tomorrow" episodes i've had with the lovely people and my sister and chichi.

oo. i also got mad this week. mad because of my stupidity for doing another digest other than what really is mine, mad because the maid is eternally unreliable and inefficient, mad because of some person who i know, i shouldn't even be bitter of.

kilig. kinilig ako sa mga istorya ni ms. bungisngis, mukhang hindi na ako mag-iisa sa group na may official ha. bebe rin made me smile, as always, especially when he starts getting mushy & starts courting me.

frustrated. frustrated about the reports, this laptop hanging because i tried to download feeding frenzy, Consti [just thinking about it, nakakabigat na talaga ng loob], the fact that nobody did anything when i discovered that the maid matter-of-factly called shakey's and padelivered two flavors of pizza, and that bebe had to stay out that late wednesday when he knew very well that it was our monthsarry.

sad. vanni ended my and probably the entire class' favorite subject so far, crim. he almost made me cry. he should've been our adviser; napakafatherly. taking crim under him was worth it. i know he knows us & will remember us, kaya, salamat, salamat sa lahat.

nasabi ko na bang tawa ako nang tawa this week? i swear, anywhere i go, tawa ako to death. especially kanina, we didn't drink pero we were as roudy & noisy as drunk crazy women. nakakatawang ewan.

interesting ang usapan sa starbs ha, i really have to say. i promise, tsismisans like that, i won't be left out of anymore. cool e. it's not like my perception of my classmates have changed; pero definitely i saw a little bit of who they are.

jumping around by princess yves at 1:50 AM | Permalink | Comments