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while waiting for the lasagna

and ironically, the maid just brought it.

hmmm.

a friend surprised me earlier today while watching the sisterhood of the travelling pants. she texted a survey of whether or not she should dispose of remembrances from past relationships, to help her move on.

unintentionally i got into a survey of my own, this time a survey about people's answers to that question. the answers surprised me. maybe i'm really weird.

i remember i once watched a movie wherein a girl who had her heart broken decided to make a friend of hers keep everything that reminded her of him and of the relationship. for whatever reason i can't remember anymore.

that's what i suggested. make someone else do the keeping for her.

now, the question of why is a different story.

i've kept everything. blame it on the sentimental me, but i kept everything that was given to me by past, hmmm. i couldn't call them boyfriends because they weren't. they were past lovelives. i'd rather call them eras. anyway. the only thing that i know i made a friend of mine keep was a cd a suitor when i was a sophomore gave me, and it was because the songs were plain cheesy and that i didn't like the guy. a few years later, i got the cd back. i found no more reason to keep it away from me. didn't and don't matter anyway.

ngayon. i was surprised with the answers. most of them wanted her to dispose of it. the only answer that i heard that was near to mine was from fafajo, which pretty much suggests a compromise.

bakit ganun? was it really the sentimental me who made that decision? my reason for that suggestion was, for her to have memories to come back to when she's ready. but most of the answers i've heard were being practical: she wants to move on, but she can't because of lingering reminders. what to do? dispose of the reminders.

bakit ganun? was i being romantic when i suggested that option? that one day, when everything is fine, she will look at them and feel nothing, remember nothing except for the good memories that once tugged her heart?

bakit ganun? was i being naive when i offered that suggestion? that everything will be perfectly fine. that one can decide to move on. that there's such a thing as completely moving on.

kahit hindi ko kinailangang itapon ang mga reminders, nakatago sila. may choice at way para kunin ko sila pero pinili kong huwag kunin. ako ang reyna ng sulking. wala pa ang blogger pero madami nakong nagawang literature just to ease the pain. i just let it pass by, because i kept on believing that it will, and it did. i just let myself feel the pain, the love, the rejection, and everything else.

my dear temperamental friend, hope you find the method of letting go that perfectly suits you. we're all here to back you up.

belle, validus, sapiens

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