1. ang midterms ay tapos na, finally. pero hindi ako proud. andun pa rin ang sakit kong hirap magconcentrate at gustong manira ng sariling buhay at ambisyon. nakakabwiset.

surprisingly, i found logic's exam pleasurable. halata sa aking handwriting, napakalegible. nakakadiri.

2. nagpakulot na ako, finally. yup, it may seem as if everyday's my debut or wedding day, pero what the heck. i love it. padigiperm ka rin bala ka.

3. wala na ako makwento. morow na lang.

jumping around by princess yves at 1:55 PM | Permalink | Comments

Nobela
Join The Club


ngumiti kahit na napipilitan
kahit pa sinasadya
mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan
kahit sandali na lang
tulad mo ba akong nahihirapan
lalu't naiisip ka
di ko na kaya pang kalimutan
bawat sandali na lang

at aalis magbabalik
at uulitin sa muli
mamahalin ka't sambitin
kahit muli masaktan
sa pag-alis
ako'y magbabalik
sana naman

sa isang marikit na alaala'y
pangitaing kay ganda
sana nga'y pagbigyan
na ng tadhana
bawat sandali na lang
sumabay sa biglang pagkabahala't
lumabis sa pananadya
tunay na pagsilan alintana
bawat sandali na lang

at aalis magbabalik
at uulitin sa muli
mamahalin kasambitib
kahit muli masaktan
sa pag-alis
ako'y magbabalik
sana naman

ngumiti kahit na napipilitan
kahit pa sinasadya
mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan
bawat sandali

at aalis magbabalik
at uulitin sa muli
mamahalin kasambitib
kahit muli masaktan
sa pag-alis
ako'y magbabalik
sana naman

jumping around by princess yves at 1:25 PM | Permalink | Comments

para sayo, bungisngis. dahil nallss ako sa kanta ni pacquiao. digiperm day morow!

*Yves, in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Kiss the Prince

You don't need the pouffy dress, the fancy hair, or the 3-inch glass heels. A romantic soul like you just wants a guy who's a true companion, a good friend, a real prince. And if he's hot? All the better. But ultimately, you know that home is where the heart is. Which is probably why you surround yourself with good friends you can take care of and laugh with — friends who will do the same for you.

But that doesn't keep you from fantasizing about the perfect relationship. It's not that you don't have your feet firmly planted on the ground. It's just that you're not afraid to shoot high. Or wish upon a shooting star. So keep reaching for your goals, Cinderella. If you do, your happily ever after can't be far away. And you can seal that with a kiss.

**Yves, you're more sinful than the average person.

And it's affecting your life in ways you might not realize. For one thing, if you aren't careful, your drive to excel at all costs may ultimately be your downfall. Feeling good about your successes might be a gratifying way to acknowledge your work and position in life. Still, you, in particular, should beware of prioritizing your achievements above other things and using them as a way to feel superior to others.

If you continue to do so, you might find yourself jeopardizing the things that are most important to you.

**Yves, your Intelligence makes you a real beauty

There's nothing more beautiful than a good head on your shoulders. Witty and wise, you're never short on interesting conversation or an informed opinion. You like to stay on top of what's going on around you. From world events to local hot spots, you don't wanna miss a beat.

But all those smarts don't mean your nose is in a book all day. You're a friendly soul who knows how to have a good time and whoop it up. From grabbing a casual dinner with friends to checking out a hip, new art exhibit, you're not afraid to have a little fun. What could be smarter than that?

**Yves, your love story is Meant-to-Be

As luck would have it, your love life seems to be written in the heavens. Whether you fell in love at first sight or kept running into each other everywhere you went, it looks like you and your sweetie were meant for each other.

Romantic and starry-eyed, you believe in the clutch of love and the spell that's been cast on you and your amour. But more than that, it's your strong will and unwavering hopefulness that'll make sure you and your honey continue as a match made in heaven, no matter what twists and turns Lady Luck throws your way. And that's something we're willing to bet on!

**Yves, you're a Bossy Brat

Large and in charge — that's what you hope to be. And while it's never a bad idea to have a little ambition, you'll do what it takes to get to the top. Unfortunately, it's not always the best way to make friends. Try to remember that life's all about give and take. And sometimes, you have to listen to other people's ideas, especially before you, uh, borrow them.

Being CEO of everything doesn't mean you've gotta step on other people's toes. So, slow down, cowboy. Take a big, long breath. Ahhhh. Doesn't that feel better?


**Yves, your self-esteem could use A Little Boost

Whatever. OK, so maybe you're not a total wastoid, but you might have a touch of slacker in you. While marching to the beat of your own drummer is great, being apathetic isn't going to get you anywhere.

Maybe you don't worry about consequences or maybe you just don't care. Either way, showing passion for your interests and taking care of yourself are two ways you can feel happier every day! When you find something you can put your energy toward — besides sleeping or being negative — you'll find that life is that much more interesting, and you will be, too! So take a more active interest in school, a hobby, a job, or some other activity that inspires you, and you'll see your self-esteem soar.

**Yves, you follow your heart when it comes to romance

Whether you planned it or not, you just can't help but follow your feelings when it comes to matters of l'amour. You're a passionate person who can't ignore things that fit you to a T — whether it's that perfect pair of jeans, a good cause, or the love of a lifetime.

Sure, things don't always go according to plan, but with an irrepressible drive like yours, you'd better get used to it! Living life as a fake just isn't in the cards for you. So open up your arms and embrace what life throws your way — especially if it happens to be the man of your dreams!

**Yves, you are most afraid of moving forward

Have you ever noticed that you're more concerned about making the "right" decisions than many people around you when it comes to your future? Or do you sometimes worry more than you should about committing to your personal or professional goals or feel anxious that you'll never really be successful? If so, you're not alone. There are many people who share your fear of moving forward.

It can be a real strength to recognize your fears. By being aware of the things that frighten you, you can assess whether fear is helping you or negatively impacting your life. For instance, a fear of moving forward may sometimes motivate you to take action in a positive way, like by experiencing a wider variety of things than others.

However, fear's negative aspects can sometimes be more damaging than you realize. Living with fear not only prevents you from living life to the fullest; it can also have a significant negative impact on your energy, health, and your close relationships if not kept in check.

**Yves, your Attitude makes you bewitching
You know what they say — attitude is everything. And in your case, it's certainly one of your finest and most alluring characteristics.

Leave the complications to other people. You know how to keep things lighthearted and upbeat. A free-spirit, you don't sweat the small stuff and prefer to take things in stride. Cheerful and laidback, you light up any room, party, or boring meeting with your dazzling personality — without even twinkling your nose. And that's bewitching. Keep it up!

**Yves, your Confidence makes you luminous

Being comfortable in your own skin isn't easy, but you're a natural. You prove that smart and sexy can come wrapped up in the same beautiful package.

Calm and collected, you've got your feet on the ground and a good head on your shoulders. And even in the craziest of times, people feel at ease around you. Whether you're heading up a board meeting or a bake sale, being a leader just comes easily to you. So go ahead and take charge. Everyone will be glad you did!

AT ANG PINAKADISTURBING SA LAHAT. AS IN.

**Yves, you're a Total Opening Very Soon!

CONGRATULATIONS, and make sure to put Tickle on the guest list! Start making your plans now. We have calculated your responses according to our scientific formula and harmonized the results to the Venutian lunar calendar. If you are not already attached, keep in mind that all men who cross your path may be grooms in disguise.

YOU WILL BE MARRIED BY: Saturday, September 6, 2008
A number of different factors influenced your result. Check out the details below.

Social Factors

On the social front, you are not looking at an immediate marriage prospect. Prince Charming, for now, is waiting in the wings. But keep in mind that he is slowly warming to the idea. Thankfully, now that you know your destiny, you can enjoy your single life to the fullest. Get out there and use it, girl.

Emotional Factors

Emotionally, you seem to be fairly ready for marriage. You show strong signs of being a contender, and you've got what it takes to make the plunge. Maybe any hesitation is just a small case of the "jitters." In any case, for Mr. Right, it's practically a done deal. He's just waiting for the right moment, so sit back and let it happen.

Sexual Factors

You have very few sexually motivated reasons for avoiding marriage. Of course, the carefree single life can pose a strong attraction, but you probably prefer the thought of devoting yourself to one person. It's true that there are a lot of unsolved mysteries out there, but once you've found the right person, it's time to close shop. Congratulations on having the strength and security to know what's right for you.

jumping around by princess yves at 7:21 PM | Permalink | Comments

swak.

huling bagsak bago magmidterms.

Bad Day
Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day

jumping around by princess yves at 6:36 PM | Permalink | Comments

1. hindi nakadepende sa iyo ang lahat.

2. binabasa dapat ang dissenting opinion ng case na nakaassign sa iyo for voluntary recit.

3. hindi na pinipilit ipark ang kotse kapag hindi ka naman talaga expected gawin iyon; at kapag hindi ka sanay.

kanina, habang nagdadrama ako sa harap Niya, eto ang naisip kong kanta.

para sa iyo to, yves. [hehe schizo alert]

Didn't We Almost Have It All
Whitney Houston

Remember when we held on in the rain
The night we almost lost it
Once again we can take the night into tomorrow
Living on feelings
Touching you I feel it all again

Chorus:
Didn’t we almost have it all
When love was all we had worth giving?
The ride with you was worth the fall my friend
Loving you makes life worth living
Didn’t we almost have it all
The night we held on till the morning
You know you’ll never love that way again
Didn’t we almost have it all

The way you used to touch me felt so fine
We kept our hearts together down the line
A moment in the soul can last forever
Comfort and keep us
Help me bring the feeling back again

Chorus

Didn’t we have the beat of times
When love was young and new?
Couldn’t we reach inside and find
The world of me and you?
We’ll never lose it again
Cause once you know what love is
You never let it end

Chorus

jumping around by princess yves at 10:15 AM | Permalink | Comments

grabe.

dalawang linggo lang iyon ha. dalawang linggo ng walang blogging. bakit parang ilang taon na ang lumipas?

hmmm.

oo. hindi ko matatapos ang lahat-lahat ng dapat kong ikwento. maladyosang tao lang ako. but.

so.

1. adik
nakakatuwa ang wansi. o well, settled fact. i finally found the type of, uhm, clique that i've been looking for ever since: ang mga taong adik sa pag-aaral, at mas adik sa pagpaparty. gaya nga ng dati pang naikwento ng seniors ng duh perm, first time in my life that i had to attend to non-stop parties for christmas. lasing sa softdrinks at yellow cab. at oo, yung last party lang ang walang bahid ng magic sing. nakakatawa.

nakakatuwa ang mga taong eto, they know how to live life. kaya nahahawa na ako sa inyo eh. apir mga dears. =)

pero hanggang ngayon, nawawala pa rin ang regalo ko galing sa aking daddy. ilang linggo na lang, pwede na kitang ipakulam hehe. uubusin ko na ang chickboom firecrackers.

2. run forrest, run
street's christmas party last 24, in front of our house. i went out to give my gifts to nes and gly. when we were about to go to gly's na, biglang sumbigaw si nes:

"si chito!!!"

at biglang dumaan sa harap namin ang maliit na malafloor rug na batang baklang sa sobrang bilis ng takbo akala mo para siyang presong nakatakas sa kulungan.

ano ang aking instant reaction? tumakbo. at oo, kagagaling ko pa lang sa sakit.

the thing was, the whole time i was chasing him, i was shouting at him. it went from a firm and snobbish "chito, stop it!" to a pleading and half-crying "tama na chito!".

i was scared when we reached the end of the street kasi by then there were no more lights. the only lighted thing that i had that time was my phone.

how did we get him? he has this habit of peeing whenever he passes by the kanto of the street. at oo, nun ko lang nalaman yun.

that incident repeated a couple of days after that. but that time i was cool as ever; kung ayaw na niya sa atin, ayaw na niya.

right.

3. christmas
sabi ko sa inyo eh, ayaw ko ng christmas. well, i prefer new year over it. anyway.

when nes gly ivy rj and i attended the misa de gallo, we had to endure torture. torture in the sense that we were reminded that we have to get bored for a couple of dreadful minutes before finally getting it on with the mass. ang torture na eto ay tinatawag na play.

oo, bitter ako sa kanila. bitter ako kasi frustrated sila. lahat na ata ng special event, expect a play to be performed. what saddens me is, it never changes. it's about a family. somebody dies or gets sick. and we should learn something about it.

this year, the play about christmas featured a real baby. throughout the entire mass the so-called family had to stay in the manger na may nakatapat na electric fan sa baby. kamusta naman, pulmonya.

next year talga magpapasurvey na ako. kung gusto ba ng mga tao ang mga play na ito.

the following morning, christmas day. what i got for christmas from my parents?

teddy bear.

yes, i am 21.

when dad opened his gift from me, which was a cute leather puppy na card holder at may kasama pa talagang clip holder na parang lalagyan nga ng food ng dogs, he immediately gave it to my mom, tamang-tama daw sa kanyang office. great.

then a pldt guy came, ipapaayos daw ang other line. he was cranky and grumpy and old and impatient. we were just waiting for my parents' call to tell us what to have the guy fixed pero the guy left as if nothing happened.

then fafajo said he's arriving by ten. but then he woke up at ten. =)

fafajo's case i understand. well, he made me understand. loving the scent bebi. pero the other things that happened. kagimbalan.

4. new year
yan. ang preferred holiday ko. loved the fireworks, as always. kicked ass sabi nga ni ivy. have to give cheerios to my mom. this year, even if i wasn't able to buy with her the fireworks even if days before i specifically told her that i'm coming with her once she buys the fireworks, the paputok that she bought were fun. next year, tatalunin na natin sila tito teddy.

twas also the first time for me and my sister to attend an anticipated mass for new year without our parents. yup, adik sa business. the disturbing part of the whole thing is what nes' mom said after the mass. her mom, being the eternally delighted creature, said this when she saw me and ivy:

"ah, wala mommy and daddy nyo! [plus isang mapanglait na halakhak]"

oo. nakakapangliit yun.

will always remember what i texted my friends as my greeting for the new year. in the midst of greetings such as "cheers to the new year" and "may you have more blessings in the coming year", i proudly yet truthfully sent this:

"i just realized, i love the smell of firecrackers."

hmmm.

5. ang pagiging bloated ay hindi pagiging mataba
first day of class. early morning sa lib. i didn't have my glasses yet but i can already see ana looking intently at me, at mejo tumatawa eto. nung lumapit siya at tinanong ko bakit siya tumatawa, eto ang aking nakuha:

"pano, ang taba mo kasi."

ang masama dyan, ang sumunod na dalawang taong nagsabi sa kin noon ay ang kanyang mga kapatid, i.e., kiboy and pepe. doble na daw ang aking baba sabi ni kiboy; at wala na daw akong panga at pangboksingero na ang aking braso sabi ni pepe. kaya sa tingin ko bungisngis, kelangan mo pang magpasalamat. napakapolite at kind ng mga criticisms nila sa iyo.

ewan ko, hindi naman abnormal na buhay baboy ang ginawa ko nung break. pero inaamin kong gluttonous na ako. once after new year sinundo ako ng mom ko, pupunta sa sm dasma. had yet to eat lunch pero i wasn't sure if she was treating us. so i brought and ate lunch in the van. ten minutes later, we were in sm na, mom takes us to eat steak. kumain ako. t-bone. as if hindi ako naglunch ten minutes ago.

saya diba.

midterms lang ito. dagdagan pa ng new year's resolution ko na three times a week na lang ako magccoke [because i am scared of getting diabetes], kaya to.

6. panliligaw
parati kong naaalala sa mga susunod na ikkwento kong pangyayari ang line na parang ganito from sex and the city : in times like this, the catholic church is just like a 36 year old woman, willing to compromise just to invite some more members.

thursday night, dad picks me up from starbs. kakapasok pa lang atang edsa, he started asking me about ipod.

by the way, ipod. totoong nagtampo ako nung christmas dahil hindi ito ang nakuha ko. sabi ni dad, dapat daw sinabi sa kanya ni mom. but later on habang nasa dinner table with the whole family and fafajo, sinabi nya ang rason na dapat ay ginagamit lamang sa mga high school students and below:

"makakasira sa pag-aaral mo yun."

anyway.

he started asking me about ipod. ano ba itsura nun, how do you use it, blah blah. he then repeats that, "e kasi makakasira sa pag-aaral mo e", and i assured him he didn't have to rationalize it because it's ok. we even had to discuss the progress of my appeals, then when he knew how bad my situation is, he decided to buy ivy an ipod instead. galing.

when we got home ivy was still sick. isa sa mga rare moments na malambing ang aking dad ay lumabas nung gabing iyon:

d: oh, anung gusto mo para gumaling ka?
i: electric guitar.
d: electric guitar! pwede bang isa isa na lang?
d: gagaling ka ba kung bibilhan kita ng ipod?
i: hindi. electric guitar pwede.

sa sobrang katangahan ni ivy ay lumabas na ako at tumawag na kay fafajo. several minutes later, ivy knocks on my door and asks me,

"gusto mo ba ng ipod? kung gusto mo, lumabas ka."

at oo. paglabas ko, bumalaga ang kahon na black na may pangalang ipod.

marunong si ivy. pinaubaya sa akin ang paghawak. alam niya kasing mahilig siyang manira ng mamahalin at importante sa aking mga gadgets eh.

panliligaw number 2. that same night before reaching the house i managed to ask my dad whether or not he's looking for a driver for me. sabi nya oo, dahil kung ako ang magddrive mag-aalala lang sila. pero when he knew that the school offers parking spaces sa baba ng school, biglang nagbago ang ihip ng hangin. pinapakuha na niya ako ng sticker.

i'm now correcting myself. pinapakuha nya ako ng dalawang stickers.

apir, dada.

7. double standard
sale this weekend sa plant. i wasn't planning to buy anything, because i don't have any money to waste.

masakit na ulo ko. payn payn.

giordano. shem finds this cute white shirt. ako rin nahanap ko rin ang tumpak na tumpak na shirt sa akin: may picture ni sleeping beauty tapos ang caption ay princess. saya di ba. tapos i showed it to shem, and guess what. she buys it for herself.

double standard. ayaw niyang pabilin ni pepe nung black na magandang jacket pero siya ay pwedeng bumili ng shirt na gusto ko. arrg.

pour vous, pastèque.

Much Has Been Said
Bamboo

Much has been said
Said you never leave
Why’d it have to be
Harder than it had to be
Don’t you throw blame
You were a part of this
Wasn’t suppose to end
With us just walking away
So many times we tried
Holding on to the pain but in my baby’s eyes I see my shame
Asking why you had to leave
Wasn’t I strong enough to make you see
That the biggest part of this
It’s not about you and me
But just be wrong if we held on
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We’ve left behind
This mirrors an open door
I can barely stand to see myself
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m crying out for help
Ohh lord
Much has been said
Will I never learn
Keeping my fingers crossed
Praying for my luck to turn
But I can’t complain
I’m living it easy
Job’s keeping me busy
Going crazy
Can’t describe the way it felt
When you left said your goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That I’ll find love a second time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
Ohhh lord…
What am I leaving behind
Sweet how we see the big picture when your life’s not on the line
I know the way out but do you see what I see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
Put money on the table thought that was all I had to do
Never came home
Never said a word to you
No one ever said it was going to be easy…
Easy start over again this time this time
Let’s do it right
Start over again this time this time
Let’s keep the fires burning

jumping around by princess yves at 3:23 PM | Permalink | Comments