adik.
grabe.
dalawang linggo lang iyon ha. dalawang linggo ng walang blogging. bakit parang ilang taon na ang lumipas?
hmmm.
oo. hindi ko matatapos ang lahat-lahat ng dapat kong ikwento. maladyosang tao lang ako. but.
so.
1. adik
nakakatuwa ang wansi. o well, settled fact. i finally found the type of, uhm, clique that i've been looking for ever since: ang mga taong adik sa pag-aaral, at mas adik sa pagpaparty. gaya nga ng dati pang naikwento ng seniors ng duh perm, first time in my life that i had to attend to non-stop parties for christmas. lasing sa softdrinks at yellow cab. at oo, yung last party lang ang walang bahid ng magic sing. nakakatawa.
nakakatuwa ang mga taong eto, they know how to live life. kaya nahahawa na ako sa inyo eh. apir mga dears. =)
pero hanggang ngayon, nawawala pa rin ang regalo ko galing sa aking daddy. ilang linggo na lang, pwede na kitang ipakulam hehe. uubusin ko na ang chickboom firecrackers.
2. run forrest, run
street's christmas party last 24, in front of our house. i went out to give my gifts to nes and gly. when we were about to go to gly's na, biglang sumbigaw si nes:
"si chito!!!"
at biglang dumaan sa harap namin ang maliit na malafloor rug na batang baklang sa sobrang bilis ng takbo akala mo para siyang presong nakatakas sa kulungan.
ano ang aking instant reaction? tumakbo. at oo, kagagaling ko pa lang sa sakit.
the thing was, the whole time i was chasing him, i was shouting at him. it went from a firm and snobbish "chito, stop it!" to a pleading and half-crying "tama na chito!".
i was scared when we reached the end of the street kasi by then there were no more lights. the only lighted thing that i had that time was my phone.
how did we get him? he has this habit of peeing whenever he passes by the kanto of the street. at oo, nun ko lang nalaman yun.
that incident repeated a couple of days after that. but that time i was cool as ever; kung ayaw na niya sa atin, ayaw na niya.
right.
3. christmas
sabi ko sa inyo eh, ayaw ko ng christmas. well, i prefer new year over it. anyway.
when nes gly ivy rj and i attended the misa de gallo, we had to endure torture. torture in the sense that we were reminded that we have to get bored for a couple of dreadful minutes before finally getting it on with the mass. ang torture na eto ay tinatawag na play.
oo, bitter ako sa kanila. bitter ako kasi frustrated sila. lahat na ata ng special event, expect a play to be performed. what saddens me is, it never changes. it's about a family. somebody dies or gets sick. and we should learn something about it.
this year, the play about christmas featured a real baby. throughout the entire mass the so-called family had to stay in the manger na may nakatapat na electric fan sa baby. kamusta naman, pulmonya.
next year talga magpapasurvey na ako. kung gusto ba ng mga tao ang mga play na ito.
the following morning, christmas day. what i got for christmas from my parents?
teddy bear.
yes, i am 21.
when dad opened his gift from me, which was a cute leather puppy na card holder at may kasama pa talagang clip holder na parang lalagyan nga ng food ng dogs, he immediately gave it to my mom, tamang-tama daw sa kanyang office. great.
then a pldt guy came, ipapaayos daw ang other line. he was cranky and grumpy and old and impatient. we were just waiting for my parents' call to tell us what to have the guy fixed pero the guy left as if nothing happened.
then fafajo said he's arriving by ten. but then he woke up at ten. =)
fafajo's case i understand. well, he made me understand. loving the scent bebi. pero the other things that happened. kagimbalan.
4. new year
yan. ang preferred holiday ko. loved the fireworks, as always. kicked ass sabi nga ni ivy. have to give cheerios to my mom. this year, even if i wasn't able to buy with her the fireworks even if days before i specifically told her that i'm coming with her once she buys the fireworks, the paputok that she bought were fun. next year, tatalunin na natin sila tito teddy.
twas also the first time for me and my sister to attend an anticipated mass for new year without our parents. yup, adik sa business. the disturbing part of the whole thing is what nes' mom said after the mass. her mom, being the eternally delighted creature, said this when she saw me and ivy:
"ah, wala mommy and daddy nyo! [plus isang mapanglait na halakhak]"
oo. nakakapangliit yun.
will always remember what i texted my friends as my greeting for the new year. in the midst of greetings such as "cheers to the new year" and "may you have more blessings in the coming year", i proudly yet truthfully sent this:
"i just realized, i love the smell of firecrackers."
hmmm.
5. ang pagiging bloated ay hindi pagiging mataba
first day of class. early morning sa lib. i didn't have my glasses yet but i can already see ana looking intently at me, at mejo tumatawa eto. nung lumapit siya at tinanong ko bakit siya tumatawa, eto ang aking nakuha:
"pano, ang taba mo kasi."
ang masama dyan, ang sumunod na dalawang taong nagsabi sa kin noon ay ang kanyang mga kapatid, i.e., kiboy and pepe. doble na daw ang aking baba sabi ni kiboy; at wala na daw akong panga at pangboksingero na ang aking braso sabi ni pepe. kaya sa tingin ko bungisngis, kelangan mo pang magpasalamat. napakapolite at kind ng mga criticisms nila sa iyo.
ewan ko, hindi naman abnormal na buhay baboy ang ginawa ko nung break. pero inaamin kong gluttonous na ako. once after new year sinundo ako ng mom ko, pupunta sa sm dasma. had yet to eat lunch pero i wasn't sure if she was treating us. so i brought and ate lunch in the van. ten minutes later, we were in sm na, mom takes us to eat steak. kumain ako. t-bone. as if hindi ako naglunch ten minutes ago.
saya diba.
midterms lang ito. dagdagan pa ng new year's resolution ko na three times a week na lang ako magccoke [because i am scared of getting diabetes], kaya to.
6. panliligaw
parati kong naaalala sa mga susunod na ikkwento kong pangyayari ang line na parang ganito from sex and the city : in times like this, the catholic church is just like a 36 year old woman, willing to compromise just to invite some more members.
thursday night, dad picks me up from starbs. kakapasok pa lang atang edsa, he started asking me about ipod.
by the way, ipod. totoong nagtampo ako nung christmas dahil hindi ito ang nakuha ko. sabi ni dad, dapat daw sinabi sa kanya ni mom. but later on habang nasa dinner table with the whole family and fafajo, sinabi nya ang rason na dapat ay ginagamit lamang sa mga high school students and below:
"makakasira sa pag-aaral mo yun."
anyway.
he started asking me about ipod. ano ba itsura nun, how do you use it, blah blah. he then repeats that, "e kasi makakasira sa pag-aaral mo e", and i assured him he didn't have to rationalize it because it's ok. we even had to discuss the progress of my appeals, then when he knew how bad my situation is, he decided to buy ivy an ipod instead. galing.
when we got home ivy was still sick. isa sa mga rare moments na malambing ang aking dad ay lumabas nung gabing iyon:
d: oh, anung gusto mo para gumaling ka?
i: electric guitar.
d: electric guitar! pwede bang isa isa na lang?
d: gagaling ka ba kung bibilhan kita ng ipod?
i: hindi. electric guitar pwede.
sa sobrang katangahan ni ivy ay lumabas na ako at tumawag na kay fafajo. several minutes later, ivy knocks on my door and asks me,
"gusto mo ba ng ipod? kung gusto mo, lumabas ka."
at oo. paglabas ko, bumalaga ang kahon na black na may pangalang ipod.
marunong si ivy. pinaubaya sa akin ang paghawak. alam niya kasing mahilig siyang manira ng mamahalin at importante sa aking mga gadgets eh.
panliligaw number 2. that same night before reaching the house i managed to ask my dad whether or not he's looking for a driver for me. sabi nya oo, dahil kung ako ang magddrive mag-aalala lang sila. pero when he knew that the school offers parking spaces sa baba ng school, biglang nagbago ang ihip ng hangin. pinapakuha na niya ako ng sticker.
i'm now correcting myself. pinapakuha nya ako ng dalawang stickers.
apir, dada.
7. double standard
sale this weekend sa plant. i wasn't planning to buy anything, because i don't have any money to waste.
masakit na ulo ko. payn payn.
giordano. shem finds this cute white shirt. ako rin nahanap ko rin ang tumpak na tumpak na shirt sa akin: may picture ni sleeping beauty tapos ang caption ay princess. saya di ba. tapos i showed it to shem, and guess what. she buys it for herself.
double standard. ayaw niyang pabilin ni pepe nung black na magandang jacket pero siya ay pwedeng bumili ng shirt na gusto ko. arrg.
pour vous, pastèque.
Much Has Been Said
Bamboo
Much has been said
Said you never leave
Why’d it have to be
Harder than it had to be
Don’t you throw blame
You were a part of this
Wasn’t suppose to end
With us just walking away
So many times we tried
Holding on to the pain but in my baby’s eyes I see my shame
Asking why you had to leave
Wasn’t I strong enough to make you see
That the biggest part of this
It’s not about you and me
But just be wrong if we held on
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We’ve left behind
This mirrors an open door
I can barely stand to see myself
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m crying out for help
Ohh lord
Much has been said
Will I never learn
Keeping my fingers crossed
Praying for my luck to turn
But I can’t complain
I’m living it easy
Job’s keeping me busy
Going crazy
Can’t describe the way it felt
When you left said your goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That I’ll find love a second time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
Ohhh lord…
What am I leaving behind
Sweet how we see the big picture when your life’s not on the line
I know the way out but do you see what I see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
Put money on the table thought that was all I had to do
Never came home
Never said a word to you
No one ever said it was going to be easy…
Easy start over again this time this time
Let’s do it right
Start over again this time this time
Let’s keep the fires burning
dalawang linggo lang iyon ha. dalawang linggo ng walang blogging. bakit parang ilang taon na ang lumipas?
hmmm.
oo. hindi ko matatapos ang lahat-lahat ng dapat kong ikwento. maladyosang tao lang ako. but.
so.
1. adik
nakakatuwa ang wansi. o well, settled fact. i finally found the type of, uhm, clique that i've been looking for ever since: ang mga taong adik sa pag-aaral, at mas adik sa pagpaparty. gaya nga ng dati pang naikwento ng seniors ng duh perm, first time in my life that i had to attend to non-stop parties for christmas. lasing sa softdrinks at yellow cab. at oo, yung last party lang ang walang bahid ng magic sing. nakakatawa.
nakakatuwa ang mga taong eto, they know how to live life. kaya nahahawa na ako sa inyo eh. apir mga dears. =)
pero hanggang ngayon, nawawala pa rin ang regalo ko galing sa aking daddy. ilang linggo na lang, pwede na kitang ipakulam hehe. uubusin ko na ang chickboom firecrackers.
2. run forrest, run
street's christmas party last 24, in front of our house. i went out to give my gifts to nes and gly. when we were about to go to gly's na, biglang sumbigaw si nes:
"si chito!!!"
at biglang dumaan sa harap namin ang maliit na malafloor rug na batang baklang sa sobrang bilis ng takbo akala mo para siyang presong nakatakas sa kulungan.
ano ang aking instant reaction? tumakbo. at oo, kagagaling ko pa lang sa sakit.
the thing was, the whole time i was chasing him, i was shouting at him. it went from a firm and snobbish "chito, stop it!" to a pleading and half-crying "tama na chito!".
i was scared when we reached the end of the street kasi by then there were no more lights. the only lighted thing that i had that time was my phone.
how did we get him? he has this habit of peeing whenever he passes by the kanto of the street. at oo, nun ko lang nalaman yun.
that incident repeated a couple of days after that. but that time i was cool as ever; kung ayaw na niya sa atin, ayaw na niya.
right.
3. christmas
sabi ko sa inyo eh, ayaw ko ng christmas. well, i prefer new year over it. anyway.
when nes gly ivy rj and i attended the misa de gallo, we had to endure torture. torture in the sense that we were reminded that we have to get bored for a couple of dreadful minutes before finally getting it on with the mass. ang torture na eto ay tinatawag na play.
oo, bitter ako sa kanila. bitter ako kasi frustrated sila. lahat na ata ng special event, expect a play to be performed. what saddens me is, it never changes. it's about a family. somebody dies or gets sick. and we should learn something about it.
this year, the play about christmas featured a real baby. throughout the entire mass the so-called family had to stay in the manger na may nakatapat na electric fan sa baby. kamusta naman, pulmonya.
next year talga magpapasurvey na ako. kung gusto ba ng mga tao ang mga play na ito.
the following morning, christmas day. what i got for christmas from my parents?
teddy bear.
yes, i am 21.
when dad opened his gift from me, which was a cute leather puppy na card holder at may kasama pa talagang clip holder na parang lalagyan nga ng food ng dogs, he immediately gave it to my mom, tamang-tama daw sa kanyang office. great.
then a pldt guy came, ipapaayos daw ang other line. he was cranky and grumpy and old and impatient. we were just waiting for my parents' call to tell us what to have the guy fixed pero the guy left as if nothing happened.
then fafajo said he's arriving by ten. but then he woke up at ten. =)
fafajo's case i understand. well, he made me understand. loving the scent bebi. pero the other things that happened. kagimbalan.
4. new year
yan. ang preferred holiday ko. loved the fireworks, as always. kicked ass sabi nga ni ivy. have to give cheerios to my mom. this year, even if i wasn't able to buy with her the fireworks even if days before i specifically told her that i'm coming with her once she buys the fireworks, the paputok that she bought were fun. next year, tatalunin na natin sila tito teddy.
twas also the first time for me and my sister to attend an anticipated mass for new year without our parents. yup, adik sa business. the disturbing part of the whole thing is what nes' mom said after the mass. her mom, being the eternally delighted creature, said this when she saw me and ivy:
"ah, wala mommy and daddy nyo! [plus isang mapanglait na halakhak]"
oo. nakakapangliit yun.
will always remember what i texted my friends as my greeting for the new year. in the midst of greetings such as "cheers to the new year" and "may you have more blessings in the coming year", i proudly yet truthfully sent this:
"i just realized, i love the smell of firecrackers."
hmmm.
5. ang pagiging bloated ay hindi pagiging mataba
first day of class. early morning sa lib. i didn't have my glasses yet but i can already see ana looking intently at me, at mejo tumatawa eto. nung lumapit siya at tinanong ko bakit siya tumatawa, eto ang aking nakuha:
"pano, ang taba mo kasi."
ang masama dyan, ang sumunod na dalawang taong nagsabi sa kin noon ay ang kanyang mga kapatid, i.e., kiboy and pepe. doble na daw ang aking baba sabi ni kiboy; at wala na daw akong panga at pangboksingero na ang aking braso sabi ni pepe. kaya sa tingin ko bungisngis, kelangan mo pang magpasalamat. napakapolite at kind ng mga criticisms nila sa iyo.
ewan ko, hindi naman abnormal na buhay baboy ang ginawa ko nung break. pero inaamin kong gluttonous na ako. once after new year sinundo ako ng mom ko, pupunta sa sm dasma. had yet to eat lunch pero i wasn't sure if she was treating us. so i brought and ate lunch in the van. ten minutes later, we were in sm na, mom takes us to eat steak. kumain ako. t-bone. as if hindi ako naglunch ten minutes ago.
saya diba.
midterms lang ito. dagdagan pa ng new year's resolution ko na three times a week na lang ako magccoke [because i am scared of getting diabetes], kaya to.
6. panliligaw
parati kong naaalala sa mga susunod na ikkwento kong pangyayari ang line na parang ganito from sex and the city : in times like this, the catholic church is just like a 36 year old woman, willing to compromise just to invite some more members.
thursday night, dad picks me up from starbs. kakapasok pa lang atang edsa, he started asking me about ipod.
by the way, ipod. totoong nagtampo ako nung christmas dahil hindi ito ang nakuha ko. sabi ni dad, dapat daw sinabi sa kanya ni mom. but later on habang nasa dinner table with the whole family and fafajo, sinabi nya ang rason na dapat ay ginagamit lamang sa mga high school students and below:
"makakasira sa pag-aaral mo yun."
anyway.
he started asking me about ipod. ano ba itsura nun, how do you use it, blah blah. he then repeats that, "e kasi makakasira sa pag-aaral mo e", and i assured him he didn't have to rationalize it because it's ok. we even had to discuss the progress of my appeals, then when he knew how bad my situation is, he decided to buy ivy an ipod instead. galing.
when we got home ivy was still sick. isa sa mga rare moments na malambing ang aking dad ay lumabas nung gabing iyon:
d: oh, anung gusto mo para gumaling ka?
i: electric guitar.
d: electric guitar! pwede bang isa isa na lang?
d: gagaling ka ba kung bibilhan kita ng ipod?
i: hindi. electric guitar pwede.
sa sobrang katangahan ni ivy ay lumabas na ako at tumawag na kay fafajo. several minutes later, ivy knocks on my door and asks me,
"gusto mo ba ng ipod? kung gusto mo, lumabas ka."
at oo. paglabas ko, bumalaga ang kahon na black na may pangalang ipod.
marunong si ivy. pinaubaya sa akin ang paghawak. alam niya kasing mahilig siyang manira ng mamahalin at importante sa aking mga gadgets eh.
panliligaw number 2. that same night before reaching the house i managed to ask my dad whether or not he's looking for a driver for me. sabi nya oo, dahil kung ako ang magddrive mag-aalala lang sila. pero when he knew that the school offers parking spaces sa baba ng school, biglang nagbago ang ihip ng hangin. pinapakuha na niya ako ng sticker.
i'm now correcting myself. pinapakuha nya ako ng dalawang stickers.
apir, dada.
7. double standard
sale this weekend sa plant. i wasn't planning to buy anything, because i don't have any money to waste.
masakit na ulo ko. payn payn.
giordano. shem finds this cute white shirt. ako rin nahanap ko rin ang tumpak na tumpak na shirt sa akin: may picture ni sleeping beauty tapos ang caption ay princess. saya di ba. tapos i showed it to shem, and guess what. she buys it for herself.
double standard. ayaw niyang pabilin ni pepe nung black na magandang jacket pero siya ay pwedeng bumili ng shirt na gusto ko. arrg.
pour vous, pastèque.
Much Has Been Said
Bamboo
Much has been said
Said you never leave
Why’d it have to be
Harder than it had to be
Don’t you throw blame
You were a part of this
Wasn’t suppose to end
With us just walking away
So many times we tried
Holding on to the pain but in my baby’s eyes I see my shame
Asking why you had to leave
Wasn’t I strong enough to make you see
That the biggest part of this
It’s not about you and me
But just be wrong if we held on
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We’ve left behind
This mirrors an open door
I can barely stand to see myself
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m crying out for help
Ohh lord
Much has been said
Will I never learn
Keeping my fingers crossed
Praying for my luck to turn
But I can’t complain
I’m living it easy
Job’s keeping me busy
Going crazy
Can’t describe the way it felt
When you left said your goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That I’ll find love a second time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
Ohhh lord…
What am I leaving behind
Sweet how we see the big picture when your life’s not on the line
I know the way out but do you see what I see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
Put money on the table thought that was all I had to do
Never came home
Never said a word to you
No one ever said it was going to be easy…
Easy start over again this time this time
Let’s do it right
Start over again this time this time
Let’s keep the fires burning
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