it's a charmed life.

DBLDF

2007-04-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

The Priss
Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLDf)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

Your exact opposite:
The Playstation

Random Gentle Sex Master

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Playboy, The Loverboy

CONSIDER: The Manchild

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

work hard, party harder.

2007-03-22T01:34:00.001+08:00

and i swear im working my ass off, and it's not even about me reviewing for the finals.

yeap moping entry number two.

this time not moping anymore, freaking mad. i promised myself that this will be the last night that i'll be the consti digests slave. but no. a couple of cases weren't digested yet. i can't open marielle's flashdisk. why is God testing me.

im about to email shem my hinanakits about this; i do believe she should thank God because i haven't threatened our friendship yet because of this and the strain it's causing me physically and emotionally. oh and yes, the time i sacrificed for this instead of reviewing for the finals.

pet peeves, aside from the million ones i know already:

1. late submission, especially if i was able to pass it on time

2. fines and the fact that i have to run after people who are imposed with them

3. 300+ pages to print, dammit

4. doing it on my own [while typing that i thought of something that i wont kwento anymore, im no yvie pervie =p]

5. people who ask for help at the last minute

6. people who pretend their work's ok when it's effin not

7. people who are fucking lazy to try to look for the case for the second or third time. and wont ask me where to look for it.

when shem resurfaces from her early vacation, i shall ask her one thing.

why did she leave these all to me.

hup.

2007-03-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

huling hinga bago ang lahat.

although beda has decided to move the finals a week later than originally scheduled, alam ko. eto na ang huling gabing may karapatan akong matulog.

[actually kaninang 5 in the mawn i woke up out of nowhere and read shem's loooong text, and i was a bit excited about the two weeks to come. weirdo.]

shem's leaving on thur and has entrusted me with the tasks of compilation of, and compulsion of people to submit plus-two-points-in-the-finals-worthy consti digests.

oh and yes, the editing of eleven obli digests of section s, and also compilation of that.

o, i forgot. finals na rin pala. hahahaha hibang.

Lord help me. that's all i can say.

pero panalo to, nai: "hay, lahat na ata ng ganda ko napunta sayo nang ilabas kita sa sinapupunan ko". that made my day.

two weeks, at darating din ako sa boredom phase mo, nanai. apir.

multiply.

2007-03-07T00:45:00.001+08:00

yup, shem found a way to describe it: all of a sudden kiko and i keep on glowing about multiply. and so she was sorta forced outta boredom to check what the fuss was about.

nah we ain't addicts.

****

king dj logan is back on the radio. yeba.

i swear he is the equivalent of willie revillame of radio. when it comes to naughtiness and getting punished because of it, i mean. haha i sure missed brando. apir pare.

****

i took my first long quiz in law school today.

it was so long ulan actually required each student to provide for 5 sheets of yellow paper.

it was long. but if you read jurado, and yes, studied it, seriously, you'd think of it as a breeze.

i just cant believe he asked for requisites of simulation though. when it's found only in 1983 caguioa. tsktsk.

****

watched the advance screening of dreamgirls tonight.

magarbo siya. i kept on surprising myself whenever jennifer or beyonce sings.

let's put it this way: the songs are great that's for sure, and i swear I'm getting my hair afro-ed just like jennifer's towards the end of the movie, but the songs are that magarbo that they tend to repress the real emotion behind the scene. yeah i think am babbling.

check this out though. hmmm.

can't wait.

2007-03-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

i can sleep now. at eleven twenty four in the evening. that's way early considering ive learned to sleep at 3am because of my addiction to wasting my time. =p

whats weird about kanina at 3am's that although it's that late already, i was still alive and gising as hell. i swear, i tried hard to fall asleep. and then i woke up at 8, and failed to sleep in the afternoon.

when haha.

hay. at least i can sleep now. ive, well fine. i have less to worry about now. =)

~~~~

wala lang. heehee.

~~~~

texted with mel kanina. ang masasabi ko lang, i need shades.

but I'm really happy for her. I'm glad the year's ending well for her.

~~~~

assuming i get tired of law school, some of the career paths ive thought about taking instead:

a. vacation critic [meron bang ganun? hahaha]

b. film/movie/softdrinks/shoes critic

c. chickflick artista hahahaha

d. dog walker

e. plant girl [tapos magiging magaling ako lyricist ni hugh grant!]

f. oo nga, wala ba dito nung you give to charitable institutions your old or unwanted things and they pay you for it? [meron bang ganun in the first place]

hay tinatamad na ako. cant wait for summer.

lighter.

2007-03-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

i keep on forgetting. i have to admit it, i am a stress smoker.

i have two boxes of j mix waiting to be stressed on. or whatever.

i've returned to adoring bruce. he's just sooo adorable. i thank him for giving us just one 50 for last week. yup that's still bad but at least, nahabag siya sa amin.

and his hypo to kiko, about invasion. the only six people who live in a certain island near the country decide to invade limasawa. they went there using a boat, and yes he said this habang nagsasagwan siya. after fifteen years they finally reached limasawa and one of the six got tired and bored with waiting that he gave up, decided to jump into the water and swim back home.

the question was can gma suspend the privilege of writ but the class was hysterical with his hypo. he is so adorable ive become speechless.

i didnt like how the results show of idol went this week. aj gave justice to the song earlier today, although he sang it well wednesday. and i swear if antonella reaches the top twelve ill stop watching idol this season. maganda lang siya.

i like pa naman the girls who were voted off earlier. and the guy who dedicated "let's get it on" to his parents, omygoodness. yes you're hot but the fact that i can't remember your name only proves that you have yet to prove yourself. hay life.

my lss, therefore.

Not Ready To Make Nice
Dixie Chicks

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

patay na.

2007-02-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

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You will die of Pride

You will die from the sin of Pride. You are the best and you know it. Unfortunately, everyone hates you for it and you're on many 'To Kill' lists.


Which Sin will be your Death? at QuizGalaxy.com

janet and sammy are Proud to Announce the Birth of their Child, yves, on September 22, 1984.



Unfortunately, yves is a fancy baby.

janet and sammy are in stunned silence.

What Did Your Birth Announcement Say? at QuizGalaxy.com

You should learn Russian

You should learn Russian. You like to be able to speak to people wherever you travel if even just a little bit. You are smart enough to learn this language and have the patience to follow through with it.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com


	I, yves, being of sound mind, hereby bequeath my entire estate to the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. I do this because I want to support their efforts to take over the world. My only regret in this life was that I didn't punch more people in the face.

'What will your Last Will and Testament say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Your Theme Song:

"Ain't No Mountain High Enough", Diana Ross

'What is your theme song?' at QuizGalaxy.com

You are 46% evil

You are not so evil. You are overall a nice person, although I wouldn’t want to get on your bad side. You have an extravagant imagination.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

What ridiculous surgery should yves get?

Get eyelash extensions

'What ridiculous surgery should you get?' at QuizGalaxy.com

You are not a geek

You are not into anything typically considered geeky. In fact, you probably make fun of every geek you see. Come to think of it, you're probably that serial killer who has been killing all of those nerds.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

lssjustwontstop

2007-02-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

after reading one of the goddesses' recent entry, i started having this as my lss.

tsk tsk.

Love is a Battlefield
Pat Benatar

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no on can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

You're beggin' me to go, you're makin' me stay
Why do you hurt me so bad
It would help me to know
Do I stand in your way, or am I the best thing you've had
Believe me, believe me, I can't tell you why
But I'm trapped by your love and I'm chained to your side

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demads
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no once can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefiled

We're losing control
Will you turn me away or touch me deep inside
And before this gets old, will it still feel the same
There's no way this will die
But if we get much closer, I could lose control
And if your heart surrenders, you'll need me to hold

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

We are young
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long
Both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

boredom

2007-02-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

relax.

one lined fyis

2007-02-26T00:24:00.001+08:00

i wana go to bora.

i laughed myself almost to death while i was listening as kris and james had a couple's counselling with korina last night.

three weeks to go and it's another battlefield.

i am scared to see bruce tomorrow.

chito has his own life now.

dad wants to go to mindoro on holy week.

ooow, the fountain is just a waste of effort.

we have yet to discuss novation, saan ka.

how do you size up pacquiao running for senator.

i was part of friday's boycott. shiet.

mom is pushing for vacation at hidden valley, laguna.

fr m should visit us one time.

im scared my world is too small.

aj the flowerhorn likes to stalk me.

my internet is back! nyehaha.

love autopsy.

2007-02-25T23:54:00.001+08:00

hahaha.

kiko was pitying me last night over this but it's only tonight that i've felt the effect.

[411, the couples' night out saturday night was unplanned. kiko and becky initially met us up just to say hi. when we found out becky hasnt seen music and lyrics yet, yun na. she was looking for shem, who was i assumed studying for her finals. when i told her about the unplanned thing, she said she shouldve been there with us, if victor is here. now the question is, who is victor? i swear i cant remember.]

my unidentical twin's churva [o btw, doesnt that make us fraternal twins? hahaha] was right. pang lss lang ang music and lyrics.

well i have to admit, all day long i had way back to your heart as my lss.

but that's a better song.

i like the songs so much im actually considering buying the movie's soundtrack.

maybe i should quit law school and do chick flicks for the rest of my life instead. chick flicks are so predictably box-office. you dont necessarily need an innovative storyline, just one that pulls the right strings [to your heart - and yes i just controlled myself from puking].

i dont know whats wrong with me, i seem to be searching for more with regard to the movies that i watch these days. parating kulang.

but dont get me wrong, i loved every minute of music and lyrics. i even thought it's better than the holiday. im just expecting for more, i guess.

hugh grant stop singing in my head!

i cant help this feeling.

hehehe.

i need some therapy.

2007-01-31T16:09:00.000+08:00

midterms ended monday, and it's ethics for them today.

im in alabang, buying food and "cashing" with my winning bet of caban not going to class later at 745. i mean, he does value his life.

look at ulan. he didnt have class yesterday. he truly wants to live longer.

yeap am hmmm, a bit blah about things lately. blah and addicted to my inhaler again. o well, i cant open shem's j mix kasi.

oh, watched night at the museum monday night and tuesday night. dont ask why. fun fun.

RIG it, dears!!! hahahaha.

oooh, missing the afterclass/aftertest/ afterwhatever inumans at good earth. good times.

oo, nag-oobli ako.

2007-01-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

last one, last one.

i just need to blog this.

one of my new friends, michael aka jim paredes [of the infamous apo of beda], while having a pang-inuman session tenor of discussion without the drink, or even the ice, and while waiting for the room to open thursday night for us to take the quite-loaded-with-bad-faith-questions consti, just had to say this:

kumbaga sa flashdisk, 30 mb lang ako.

i told shem my plan to blog that quotable line, and she really had to answer it herself.

ako? 2g, pero karamihan ng files corrupted.

napakagaling.

im planning on answering that after midterms pa. however, i have a hunch as to how much it would be. im thinking it's actually more of 1g [yes im already being humble on that] but i think it's just 256mb.

oh, didnt i tell you, i lack self-confidence. haha.

purging before the battle

2007-01-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

i dunno why lawphil's dead. it sucks though.

okay. two and a half days to go and it's the start of the battle again. i'm thankful though; i feel my mojo has started to come back. [should i be saying that in the first place? oh no spirits dont take my mojo away again, not now]

it's great to be in beda. i mean, five straight days of no class before the midterms?! huh, you dont get to see that in most lawschools.

but then again, that increases the pressure on us. hay life.

fine, i am not supposed to count thursday as among the rest slash cramming days. thursday was muffin's birthday, and since i lacked class and enough budget to get him a tangible gift i obligated myself to be his driva for the day.

oooh, i adored mel and the rest of the goddesses that day. i was planning on texting them to at least greet him on his day, but mel was sweet enough to ask me if there's a surprise planned for him. and when i saw them later in the afternoon they all hugged me. aaaw.

i'll be honest, but since the start of the day he was sort of being a bitch. and the bad part was, i sort of let myself get affected by it, when i shouldve rationalized it as him enjoying his day.

then i saw starbs. it's new. it feels new. i dont feel it. it is bright with the high ceiling and cramped up tables. it's not a coffee place anymore, where you should feel cozy and stuff. it has become a restaurant where everyone talks loudly. not me anymore. and the bad thing is, im indifferent to it.

and yes. i was dealing with the culture shock i was experiencing with the now impersonal starbs at the same time i was reading my philo stuff for wednesday. if you must know, i have a sickness whenever i read philosophy: i lose against myself in letting my mind wander off.

anyway. he must admit my excuse was way better than his when it was his turn to celebrate my birthday. he had to use his mom [i.e., "ang kulit ni mommy, tawag nang tawag, kung ano anung tinatanong sa akin."] i simply used my being a girl [i.e., my need to go to the washroom]. and he was freaking mad, he called me sannet. i really almost cried. total wtf moment. his class ended at 5 and i thought we had to be at moa at 630 pa, and the girls had to get pa the gift [shit that's cono.]. yun pala, we had to be there at 6, and the girls werent there when i very slowly passed by b1.

and i was hysterical when i got to them. maybe that's why they just hugged me. but i applaud them huh, marl lights? dikit dikit talaga bituka natin, huh.

oh yeah, nagkasalubong pa kami ni ebralinag. whattaday.

when he reached b1 though, mel handed him the box of krispy kremes and said "o, wag mong awayin si yves!" and explained that they had to get the box pa that's why i was stalling. and swear, hindi mapigilan ang ngiti. heehee.

and yes, we did reach moa at 6. ako pa. hehe.

we really shouldve watched happy feet, tsk tsk tsk.

oh and yes, aside from a serial swerver i am also now a red light beater. dont ask why.

but you know what, even if the day was generally frustrating, it ended on a nice note, fine at least for me. maybe He is telling him to get his own car. but then again, he runs away.

yes that's all the purging that i've gotta do. =p

friday. masasabunutan ko si nil, dahil closed pala ang lib. i ended up reading philo at starbs frank. that was a mistake, i should've listened when ulan said we shouldnt study there. there were several bedans who i swear are second years but still discussing about warrantless arrest. loudly may i add. dont they know me? porke i had my hair cut.

hehe, no really. twas a mistake to read philo for two straight days when you know at the bottom of your heart, there were more important stuff to cram.

like kanina. i feel i was productive because i was able to read [i.e., kain] half of consti. i love it. and he said he likes starbs better but i disagree. where we stayed kanina was nice. yup the prices are steep but i would like to look at it as paying for the fact that there were practically me and him and another student studying there. and yes the songs were nice.

and im here. looking for the other consti cases. and to no avail, more or less.

hayy. midterms na naman. heavens help me, help everybody.

it's so gay, it's so me.

2006-12-23T23:51:00.001+08:00

heehee. =)

this is what happens when dad leaves his laptop at home.

didnt go to tagaytay. i wanted to rest. and this is what happens.

this is a bit like mel's. i have another template actually, a lot gayer than this. but this is me, even if it closely resemble mel's. i hated that i feel safe with this template but that's true.

o well. and it's the eve already. ambilis ng panahon talaga.

happy holidays dears.

I WANNA SHOP!

2006-12-01T13:49:00.000+08:00

Your Personality Is Like Marijuana

You're laid back and easy going, so much so that taking a shower is often too much trouble for you!
Nevertheless, you're quite popular, and many people enjoy your company. You're rarely turned down.
You're prone to giggle fits, paranoia, and forgetting where you are exactly.

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Your Driving Is is: 53% Male, 47% Female

According to studies, you drive both like a guy and a girl.
This means you're a pretty average driver, with typical quirks.
Occasionally you're frustrated and or a little reckless, but that's the exception - not the norm.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your Birth Month is September

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.
You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.

Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love

Your gemstone: Sapphire

Your flower: Morning Glory

Your colors: Brown and deep blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

mas malakas pa kay milenyo ha? etong sayo.

2006-11-30T04:15:00.000+08:00

yvie is going to be reincarnated as...

A pop-princess

'What will you be reincarnated as?' at QuizGalaxy.com

yvie's Past Lives

1612 BC: A Peasant

958 AD: A cartographer

1985 AD: A nun

'What were you in your past lives?' at QuizGalaxy.com

The Picto-Personality Test

You are a person who is very calm and kind. You go out of your way to help people who need your help.

When alone, you appreciate being able to do nothing if you want to, and setting your own pace for things.

You are adventurous, always up to do the most extreme things. You have a certain recklessness that makes people very attracted to you.

In the future you will be happy and live richly.

Take this Test at QuizGalaxy.com

yves's synonym --

genius (... as in prowess!)

'What is your synonym?' at QuizGalaxy.com

You are 80% normal

You are shockingly normal... and since normal doesn't really exist, that is kinda scary. In fact, you are scarier than the most abnormal person. Go you!

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Your darkest secret is:	You cried during Finding Nemo

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give me due process.

2006-11-30T02:36:00.000+08:00

i swear. nafufrustrate ako sa mahahabang kaso. na walang kabuluhan masyado ha, o flowery words kung flowery words. nde sila nag legwrit, clearly. "good legal writing is good writing of a layman who is learned of the law."

naaaaaaks.

tama si paopao eh. pag batch na natin ang nakaupo we should make it a point to make every ponencia as short but concise as possible. tama na yung maarteng tagawaste lang ng papel.

*sleepy.*

dear diary

2006-11-26T12:53:00.000+08:00

written 11-26 3am

i found out i am dl [YES! I know! =)] Thursday. i was dropping hints but he didnt get it.

Friday when kiko and i got our certificates he was so gullible he believed what we told him.

Saturday, finally told him, after minutes of him sulking because he thought i went to Mendiola and cut my Consti class for no other reason but to look for cuties. [which turned out to be futile, dammit.]

and was he proud. he said he has never imagined the perfect girl could get even more perfect. bolero, tsktsk.

he glowed that much when we were talking over the phone that i felt my eyes burning already. haha. he's so happy. what caught my attention though was this: he said, "i feel as if i was the one who's the dl." and man, did that feel good. =)

sorry, is it too much unnecessary info to im write about him? o well. uve been forewarned i.e., the title =p

yeah, that's what i'll do:
1. study hard, and independently, and mean it
2. be peaceful and happy, and stay that way

so that i'll get my groove back and that i'll get back into the zone. yes i'm boxed in this reputation but i'm hoping it's gonna be a good kind of pressure.

oh, he said he knows why he's so happy with the news: dahil pwede ko na siyang buhayin after lawschool [because he predicted something that i wont tell yet para hindi maantala =p]. i said, i'll use my wage buying shoes. hail to sex and the city. =)

psycho xa.

2006-11-22T14:42:00.000+08:00



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	yves Pills: Will cause you to get a song stuck in your head for over a day
	'What" effect do you have on people?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Fun is most important in your life.

Having a high focus on fun indicates that you value your own enjoyment over anything else. And there is nothing wrong with that. Your motto is we're here for a good time - not a long time.

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What will happen on the first day of school?

• Shem will show how out of shape they are in gym class

• Mel will jam you in the eye with a pen when you ask to borrow one

• Jv will cry about summer being over

• Euns will try to make out with you because they are drunk

• Haze will challenge you to a hard boiled egg eating contest and make you throw up

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life and the way it jolts you.

2006-11-19T13:09:00.001+08:00

just when i was enjoying an unusually strong bubble with him by playing timezone's trivia game [and i was winning, btw.], i saw the ex.

his bestfriend called my attention and he was right beside him. he wasnt looking, it was more of a "hehe-let's-see-what-she'll-do-with-this" smirk. and i was hmmm. all i could say after that was oh my god.

o well. life.

btw.

2006-11-12T17:53:00.001+08:00

1. i now look like an 18 year old little girl.

yes im having the samson-without-his-magical-hair syndrome.

i miss my curly hair.

2. dad's department's xmas presentation will be high school musical. he is the bidang guy.

i am thinking about buying him a dirty blonde wig.

3. happy feet preview later at 8p, hbo. weeeee.

i swear im watching that on moa.

ooh, and casino royale. =)

break.

2006-11-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

if you think about it, my sembreak has been hmmm,productive. fine not as much as it should have but there. consider the following accomplishments:

i slept like half of my time off
spent my days in the bed talking to either him or shem [yup, still torn between two lovers]
i spent time with my family
got myself blockmates with shem and kiko [wink, wink]
i cut my hair [and yes, euns is now the only one who could sing bagay ba sa kin ang kulot.]
got the cuppycake mp3 [to which im addicted to]
went to the dentist
passed crim1, woohoo
bought some new things
helped him with the premiere, and met new people
showed nil the picture of the many colors of vodka cruiser
oooh, spontaneously went back to domicile yesterday evening to shop and sundo him
went to dinner with my former blockmates and only had beer
found out that two of my frenemies in school have decided to go loa this sem
resolved to stop alienating my dearest friends who i dont spend time with anymore
was the earlier than shem to decide on which block to be a part of this sem

see, see. i love it. maybe i now deserve a pat on the back.

****

may i just say this. britney and kevin federline breaking up: omg, finallllllly. i have waited for this one for so long. finally. finally.

i know this might be 50% a career move, but what the hell. she's finally found her brain.

and, i applaud you dj mo. too bad i didnt leave earlier enough to reach your interview with lolit solis, haha.

support

2006-11-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

to the people of duh perm, and the rest of 2b, luck luck later.

i left my heart in you guys. and in the perviest muffin in the world.

i've always been proud of you dears. u can do it. sama ako sa paghahawak-hawak ng kamay, ha. =)

im blaming it on the drought.

2006-11-06T01:09:00.001+08:00

the other night, shem, him and i went to the premiere of flags of our fathers at the meralco theatre. [yup, stop asking why.]

as expected, and actually what shem paid for, hehe, the theme for the night was cuties galore! the people who were hosting the event, God bless them, are the type who could really shut up the boys of Beda. wink, wink. =)

and while we were walking towards the theatre, i realized the place was decorated in a wall to floor red thing, and yes i was wearing my red jacket. out of nowhere my krung krung side woke up, and i went one fourth screaming, "yvie! yvie, where are you? yvie!"

i swear, jv was just laughing at me. he has never been in one of my krung krung moments. shem on the other hand, who has had seen numerous moments of such tenor she could easily blackmail me into doing anything just for her not to squeal them, just shook her head in embarassment. i loved their reactions.

natahimik lang ako when the short program started. and up until the first eeeewy scene. when they showed a guy whose tummy was burst open the intestines have come out. sorry, btw for gorily describing it. anyway, when we reached that scene, i said, with a tinge of disgust and disappointment: "ano ba yan, i thought this was a chick flick! i want my money back!"

ooh, that reminded me of my comment on The Fantastic Four. haha.

and because of this flick i've decided i'll buy an armalite that i shall use whenever somebody other than the people i like is noisy in the lib. and, that for the christmas party we should auction off bubble wraps, and im the only one insane enough to actually buy it.

anyway, on with the movie. i liked it. of course, on a regular basis, i wouldn't have chosen to watch it, first because it's a war movie, second, because ryan phillippe may be cute and all but not only is he a cheater in real life, but in reel life, he jumped into the sea with his pants on. mali yun. anyway. i loved it while it lasted. and i agree, we only create our heroes.

and i adore the standing still scene,while the soldiers were in the ships.

shem and i passed by the afterparty, literally. a bit de ja vous for her, a new thing for me. just sucked that i went home at one in the mawn without even tasting some booze. arrg.

grocerying

2006-11-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

yes, i shall be a dweeb now and blog about my day today grocerying.

i have always loved going to the grocery. to me it's sort of my stress reliever, my equivalent to a normal girl's spontaneous shopping for shoes or a new hairdo when depressed. i have just always loved it.

and yes, because it only means im getting more food.

this day's grocerying session was a bit different because i was actually proud of everything i bought. [fine, technically, daddy bought them but you know what i mean.] usually kasi i buy tons of stuff, mostly junk food, that dad gets frustrated because the price gets way way way too high, and im not exaggerating.anyway.

this paradigm shift happened earlier today while i was stuck inside the car with ivy doing the crossroad in the newspaper and chito barking his little heart out because his parents left him to check on the stores. i dunno from where did it start, but i just thought of... well. pinky amador doing surgery that's not invasive, the cutest little baby girl in the church who is crazy about chito and who i wish is my daughter, the little kids that im gonna bear, not anytime soon of course, and well, my ageing legs. then i said to myself, pinky amador is not really my idol or anything, but i fit well to her lifestyle before. eat drink smoke. but now she's doing the healthy living thing. and she's okay.

it just hit me now, that choosing to live healthily is another aspect of maturity. that you've accepted that you're not a kid anymore, bursting with energy and life. now more than ever, you need to invest in your own health, not just to enable you to work efficiently, but also because other people depend on you, to help them, work for them, care for them and love them.geez im so slow.

took me 22 years to realize that. omygaaaadtalaga.

yup, shifting again to my ditzy mode.

so we went to grocery and i had the mindset to change what i eat, well fine, little by little. and the Executive Secretary was very helpful in reminding me what to buy. without the little junkies that i still have to let go (ie, ruffles, eaji, mac and cheese, turones), my cart resembled that of a mom's, well sort of. blame me being taong tabon, i just cant upload the pic: somebody teach me!

i swear, i couldn't believe it. how clean it feels.

i just have to stick to this, and im on my way there.

and, yup, a picture of all the existing vodka cruisers [which i took but i couldnt post] reminded me of the pedophile of Beda, Nil. stop being taong tabon, dear.=)

i hate it.

2006-11-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

arrg. sana tumigil na rin ang pagiging taong tabon ko at matuto na ako uling magpost ng pictures.

dammit.

ugh

2006-10-29T20:11:00.000+08:00

arg. sembreak na!

first day of sembreak and guess what i did. talk to shem pretty much all day planning the batch's christmas party.

dangit, drought kung drought. sa cuties [not that i'd have anything to do with them now] sa parties, gimme some booze mon.

arrrg. so for this sembreak i shall:

-cut my hair
-pacheck my teeth
-shop galore
-plan the party
-go to derma
-be his nurse. haha

gutom na ko. bumming around, so we meet again. hahaha.

Warfreak

2006-10-29T17:28:00.000+08:00

written 10/26/2006 1056p

Ooh, as promised, I shall kwento first of something nice. Yesterday, while enjoying the unplanned bonding session with my block before the LegRes finals, it dawned on me that I should have made a survey as to the people’s answer to Question Eleven.

So far, it turns out that I answered the most common provision, Article 19 of Civil Code. Being the most common, therefore not memorable, I might be just a third or even a fourth placer, dammit.

A tie for second placer as to the most amusing answer is shared by Enzo’s answer, Article 3, Civil, and Amai’s provision on support [the latter one was rationalized as to the provision where the money is].

My most favorite so far, and which I think would’ve won the contest had this been real, is this…

Melki: Article 2 of the Civil Code. Because if it weren’t for that Article, Chi Ming Tsoi’s wife would still be married to him and his little _____.

Sorry, that’s all I could remember of his answer. But it was hilarious. Yes, I firmly believe he did use the word for it.

****
Just like what I told Shem, I have this feeling that I am intentionally and unintentionally collecting enemies. Enemies from all directions. Consider the following instances that I think will sooner or later cause me trouble:

a. The girl I blogged about the other time and how I acted became practically a legend in my block
b. Also the other guy who I swear is mapurol too. Mautak, pero mapurol.
c. The bitchy boy. The block just knew how much I am fond of him.
d. The crabbing with the past exams. I swear they’re spineless.
e. The lib closing at 5. During finals. Come on.

I once heard someone say that one who does not have enemies is one who does not have, or stand up for, his principles. But I swear these possible enemies of mine, hmm, I dunno. They tick me off. I think they have something in common, I just don’t know what.

Yeah they say something about my principles and who I am now. I usually am not bothered about brainless people. I don’t pity them. I just mind my business. But once a waste of mass called a brainless creature starts to mess up something which I know I have worked for, I won’t just watch it go to waste.

I know I have to change that. The Executive Secretary’s right, I should learn to save my ammunition. I still get mad eh. I lose poise. When something prejudicial happens to me I get ticked off. I’m learning though, humahaba patience ko. And it’s not as if I can’t do anything about it.

If only my Mom knew what I am doing in school. I never thought I’d do this, but I am actually trying to modify an age-old system. Well, kind of.

****
Shem and I are again in our party mode.

And the sad part is, well for her. She still has crim for Sataday.

We should do what she’s planning for Xmas. And I suggested what they did in Apocento, but she’s right, what is the incentive. Gaaaaad we really should’ve done this for this sem’s finals.

The Principle of Operative Fact.

2006-10-29T17:23:00.000+08:00

written10/23/2006 1139p

Lenny Kravitz’ Heaven Help is I swear, the goddesses of Duh Perm’s theme song.

Oooh, and I firmly believe that the Pussycat Dolls are our ates from a different set of mothers.

And they sang the other theme of the goddesses, I Don’t Need A Man.

Although having one isn’t bad at all. Look at the Executive Secretary.

Sorry, I just took my Persons finals a couple of hours ago.

Yeee ever after playing!!!! Wait gotta dance to this.

Flawless to the point of being godly, yet I fell for your imperfections. Haha this really is my song. Wait instrumental.

Real messy beautiful twisted sunshine.

Okay. Now that another song for me is playing, ie., Cry for help, I’ll explain the title. That basically was the million-dollar question for the day. Nobody knew the answer, even Bruce’s students. It was that hopeless that if the question was, “what is the principle of operative fact?” my answer would have been something like this, for real:

I do not know the principle of operative fact. Even your students do not know what that is. In fact, no one in the first year knows what the principle of operative fact is. What does it have to do with persons anyway. Isn’t it more in consonance with constitutional law or statutory construction? Why am I being asked of something I have only heard of now?

But then. A savior by the name of I think Rhea explained that it came from the very first case, Tanada v Tuvera, and it basically meant that a law and the acts done pursuant to it are considered valid until the law will later be declared unconstitutional.

I love her.

Oooh, the sole reason of my unplanned blogging:

11. What do you think is the most important provision in Persons and Family Relations? (5%) NOTE: Please answer this as if you’re in a beauty contest.

I swear, I looooove Bruce.

Get ready to stop and frisk now. Hehe.

pms-ing

2006-10-14T21:45:00.000+08:00

kapal ng mukha ko no. i still have 39 digests to go, which i have to finish by tomorrow. but no, i am like, 39 nalang. kapaaaal.

anyway.

whew. this month's pms moments have been just that, literally, pms-ing. i am pleased to declare that everyday this week i found at least one person whom i wanted to or actually picked a war against. and i am damn proud of it.

monday. persons. bruce sort of told us that ulan might give us a quiz on conjugal to family home. so when ulan had recits about filiation [which if you think about it is sooo freaking easy, just read the codal] the two people who were called couldnt answer, and defensively reasoned that bruce told us about him giving us a quiz on conjugal. so that he resorted to.

and bad part of that was, i didn't study conjugal.

the thing is, before i went to school, i computed the remaining time. we have three meetings to go and like 65% of the book covered pa lang. so i opted to study filiation.

i was swallowing my frustrations at the beginning of the quiz because really, twas my fault if i fail that.

the worse part of that was, i saw the two people, asking their seatmates for the answer.

aaaaaaaarg.

i was so pissed off that when i came back at the lib to squeal in the details to shem, i was literally, nagwawala. i was more mad at the second person to recit, the girl, who is a second year. i swear, ang tanga niya. a mother can disown a kid? gaaad. you dont have to be in lawschool to know that it's only if you're suffering from debility or that depression the brooke shields went through that you do that, but then again, that is a rare moment, something that women who actually have brains and use them would even think about. and yun nga. she is in second year. fine, let's assume she didnt have ulan next year, but at least she knows how it works in lawschool. you finish the book. regardless of what you've reached in class, sa finals, it is assumed you read the entire book. gaaaaaad.

tuesday i dont really like to discuss because it was more of a paranoia. na tipong since i am who i am that's why that person's like that towards me. but it's not proven. basta yun.

wednesday. ooh i love this. our prof in seminar, a priest, just came to class to tell us the coverage for the finals. two people opposed this: the beadle and a classmate from la salle. they thought the reaction paper we are to submit is the finals na. the prof corrected them, not only because he has already informed the other class about the finals, but he cannot think of any other way to gauge what we have learned in seminar. the beadle later on corrected himself, but the other guy just didnt give up easily. if i heard it right pa, he suggested to the prof to lie to the other class as to how he "forgot" that the paper's the finals na pala. but he gave up later on and said it's the prof's decision anyway.

oooh, and. he had to argue this: in la salle, in our theo classes, the finals is usually just a reaction paper. or something.

so when everything's settled na, i asked something. he answered it by writing something in the board but there was no chalk so somebody had to get some pa. while in that lull moment, the pari walked around the room to make kwento probably [shit that's so cono]. he asked the guy if he's working [dahil siya nga ang mareklamo] and the guy said he's going to, soon. the pari inquired as to where, and what the job will entail. the guy answered, rather defensively i might add, "sir is that relevant?"

ang galing di ba. if i continued in my plan of talking to him, my first line would be, "you don't get it no. you're no longer in college, boy."

thursday. this is his day. please dont make me elaborate.

friday. another highlight. i had to wait for practically the whole day for these.

1. consti. prof just gave the quiz questions. the answers to the quiz were say, sections one and two lang. after giving the questions, somebody from the back really had to ask, "sir yun ba yung section 1?"

i blurted out, "ay ang tanga." and i was sitting behind a blockmate who definitely heard it, and two second year students in my back who also are my blockmates in crim.

2. toll. i was happy lining up to get a card when suddenly some kakarag-karag na car recklessly tried to singit before me. i got mad, to say the least. i was using the horn in a rare continuous moment. nakikipaggitgitan pa ako. but when i realized my car's the later one which can incur greater visible dents if i try to stand my ground, i let him singit.

BUT. if the van before him moves and he doesn't, bubusenahan ko siya, nang matagal. kahit nung lumaon na alert na siyang gumalaw, binobosenahan ko pa rin.

meanie? not really.

so. he got his card, i got mine. one of those rare moments na tumabi ako sa isang kotse at inunahan siya. eat my dirt, moron.

tsktsk.

saturday. still his day.

o well. saya di ba. i liked this week. =)

fingers crossed.

2006-10-12T13:58:00.000+08:00

domicile's finals is on next week, ours the week after that.

and yep, am freaking feeling it already.

everyday this week i seem to find somebody whom i could start a war against. mwahaha.

gluck my dears! lets go tags after!

****ooh, ive just had one of those "what???-i-used-to-like-that-guy-and-now-look-what's-happened-to-him" moment. meanie.

i really am the eternal the one who got away.

ten four.

2006-10-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

pwede nang mamatay si jv.

giddiyap.

The Longest Weekend, Goodbye to

2006-10-04T15:10:00.000+08:00

written 10/3/2006 918a

I think we are again on the brink of experiencing another storm. Last night’s drive home was really scary. My pag-uwi coincided with the heavy raining. It was raining that hard that Shem really had to text me that SLEX was flooded. I dunno if that was her way of advising me out of concern but I just took it as a “yeah, I know” complaint.

Oooh, and I still loved tiptoe walking in Town even with the floor getting roughly washed up.

So. I never thought I would ever say this, but I have had it with free cuts, and no classes. Seriously. I am a couch potato and I can say the free time I had this past week, was tiring. Nakakapagod maging bum, nasettle na natin yun. Namamatayan ka ng neurons. Tumataba ka sa pagbubuhay baboy. Wala kang pera. At yung general feeling na hindi ka nagiging productive.

Lalo na at I know that I have a ton of cramming to do. Digests, and studying for the finals. Back to the real world, I see.

But of course, I have to give it up to Him. The past two weeks have been fun, and honestly, humbling. For the first week, dahil I got pretty much everything I asked for, and a couple of bonuses. For the second week, dahil damn. Even the thought of surviving four straight days of no electricity, no signal is sooo traumatizing.

I feel like my soul, my life’s renewed. Purified, shaken and energized by the past two weeks. And I am giving it up to Him. Salamat, salamat.

Full circle.

The Longest Weekend V: Milenyo

2006-10-04T15:09:00.000+08:00

written 9/28/2006 150p

Thursday. Leche siya. Lecheng bagyo. Sinuspend na nga ang klase ng LegRes day, tinanggal na nga ang kuryente, pinatay pa ang cellphone signals.

I’m so mad. While changing sheets kanina my nail chipped, I was so bitter. I was like, “fine cut my nails too. Tutal, you took away my signal. Take it all away from me.”

Bitchsesa talaga.

Because he’s right. Brother Dom at the retreat was right. When he said that our cellphones are our self’s extension. I have known that ever since I held my first phone in Third year high school.

Yup, because I was texting him that’s why I’m bitter. And yes, because there’s a him in my life. Hay. And yes because I have no wifi and Dad forgot to pay the phone bills. How primitive can you get.

Kanina in the first minutes after I realized the problem with the signal, all I kept on thinking was “[insert my favorite cuss word here] how am I supposed to talk to him now” and I hate it. This is one moment when I wish I had my own place and we’ll spend the whole lazy day there, talking and eating and playing jackstone. Haha.

Aggh I miss him already. Bagyo, just give me signal, and we’re okay. =/

11ish in the eve: Trying to stay awake to open the gate when Mom and Dad come home, I thought about what will the 8year old me say if I saw her now. She’ll be speechless as to how gorgeous I’ve become, worship me for my curls but get frustrated about how humble my breasts are, hehe [Was I supposed to warn you guys about that first?]. She will hear about lawschool and give an “o, well” reaction about everything. At least I’m on my way. She’ll anticipate the nicest people I’ve gathered so far to call my friends, and the crazy things I’ve done that made me who I am now. She won’t believe I found Chito. As for my lovelife, she won’t believe it at first that I chose him. He is not the cutest guy I’ve seen, you know. But when she hears from me how I feel about him and how much happiness he fills my soul, my being, she will probably glow for me, and say I have done good, so far. =)

Oh, I’ll tell her of my debut. And ask her why she wasn’t specific as to what will make us successful.

Friday. Finally saw the damage the bagyo brought, at grabe siya. Disaster’s an understatement. There’s a sense of quiet, of respect for the damage habang dumadaan kami sa mga natumbang trees.

But we went to Tagaytay. It was foggy, I loved it. Nagbuhay baboy din kami dahil we bought buko tart and pizza and goto.

All for the love of charging cellphones.

Saturday. Ulan declared that there were classes. I’d say, a wrong move. Even Town ran in generators. Starbs frank was closed. And the lib and the school ran in generators din.

Amurao cancelled at five, my prof never replied. We had to wait outside Kuya Jun’s office until 615. I hated it. I was a useless beadle.

But I got to do one thing. At the Town, Shem and I asked him to transfer the car while we wait for him. We waited for him by saving the parking space. We were standing in the empty space for how many minutes, and I swear that’s one of the things I’ve been wanting to do ever since. And the fact that it sounds and looks crazy makes it all the more worth it. That’s checked off my list then. =)

Sunday. As most of the people I know started getting kuryente back, I became restless and hopeless. The Meralco here in our place is sooo indio. I hate it.

I was on the brink of picking a fight in Jollibee. With an older man. In a pajero. Well, it’s his fault, antanga nya. Balak mauna sa drive thru line. Wag niya akong payabangan ng pajero niya. He saw my car and its bangga. I can always smash his car with the dented part of mine, it’s gonna get replaced anyway.

Oooh, Dad and his friends had a drinking session. They were drinking San Mig Light. I wanted to ask for at least one. Tunggera, haha.

And I realized, while I was moonbathing, that I love Chito. I do. And yes the moon was out Sunday night. I loved the glow. Pale platinum-ish. Twas nice. But there, I love Chito. He makes me and the family happy. I dunno what I’ll do if I lose him.

The Longest Weekend IV: Payback

2006-10-04T15:08:00.000+08:00

Okay, okay. I’ll put this in plain words: nagkasakit ako. I was feverish, I was on the brink of having an asthma attack. And I wanted to go to school Tuesday so that Dad won’t laugh at the thought that it’s payback time for the lakwatsas I’ve had last week.

It suddenly occurred to me that I am not getting younger. Yes I am in the peak of my youth but sooner or later my body’s gonna ask me to repay it with all the abusing I’ve done to it over the years. And though I still don’t get the sense in eating vegetables and other healthy stuff, I vowed, I will stop abusing my body.

I loved the doctor who checked me up. She automatically whipped up this printed excuse letter and started filling it with necessary details. That won’t work in lawschool but I keep it nonetheless, she’s such a sweet doctor.

And I gave it to my Mom. Her now rare chance of being a real mom to me, who takes care of me and gives me my sort of round the clock meds.

But no more sakit. I hate it. I feel powerless.

The Longest Weekend III: Sunday Salubong

2006-10-04T15:07:00.000+08:00

As if I wasn’t tired enough, I went to La Salle for the end of Bar festivities. I met him up and we picked up Shem and met up with Melo and Haze there. Oh, I was also wearing the pink racerback that he gave me. At according to him para akong hinuhubaran ng mga taong nakakasalubong naming, kamusta naman kasi, I was wearing my favorite Jag jeans and my “oo-senyorita-ako-now-get-me-coke” bubuyog shades.

But still. Kamusta pangbubugaw natin, muffin.

Kaya tuloy, yun. If holding hands can get you pregnant, I might be on my way.

ANYWAY, so tono ni Ereneta. I loved it. Andaming tao. Talo ang fiesta. I should’ve worn something dark colored and less skimpy, nagbabasaan pala ng tubig. But I didn’t like that somebody from Beda threw something that smelled like vinegar sa crowd. Eeerg.

We visited all that matters to us: Beda camp, UP camp, Ateneo camp, and Aquila camp. Somebody glowed, yun na yun. Ate Ceia really had to text about the abundance of cuties in that camp, and boy was she right. Then we met up Jaye who’s in the camp right next to Aquila, and she convinced him. SINAGOT NA NIYA AKO! =)

But it was fun. We cheered in Beda’s crowd and saw Kiko. We got scared of all the tapunans that we ended us in home, and cheered there.

And get this: Boss waived at us. And he was aboard U’s truck.

Shit, I want to upload the pics, dammit.

The real reason why you go to salubongs like that is hope. Hope that one day you’ll be the one cheered for by the younger students of law. Tsk. I am keeping my fingers crossed.

And then. The family went to UST Hospital, to visit his lola. His lola was already nagtatampo because her favorite apo hasn’t visited her yet since Wednesday. So we went with him.

His Mom and Dad were there! He sort of got me cornered there but I had Shem with me. His Tita and cousin and brother were introduced to us also.

Strangely though, I didn’t feel ahhm, pressured. I wasn’t introduced as to who I really am to him. And really. If it weren’t because I wasn’t feeling well and that I had to go home early, I would have stayed there longer. It was a nice place, I meant the atmosphere was nice. Parang wala lang. Ok lang.

In fact, his mom reminds me of mine, a thought that Shem found interesting.

The Longest Weekend II: No Raining On My Parade

2006-10-04T15:06:00.000+08:00

written 9/23/2006 1233p

Ayos. Takilyalistik.

Friday. Started the day with my Mom greeting me through my double-locked door, and Chito trying to open it so that he could wake me up.

And then I was not asking for breakfast but Net went up to me and brought this Tupperware. She made fettuccine for my birthday. And of course, Chito still had the idya that it’s HIS birthday, so he bullied me into giving him pasta.

Oh, this was happened while I was texting with Melodya, who has heard already of the nice things I’ve done so far in Beda. Chizmax does travel fast, especially when the one relaying the chisms is glowing with pride. Anyway, Melodya had Chico and Delamar greet me, oo parang close no. Haha.

So I went to Alabang. Had a nice breakfast with him at Pancake House. And I swear the woman sitting next to our table was Vida’s mom. Anyway, wala lang. Loved breakfast. I’ll make sure the morning room in my house [or whatever that’s called] gets really high ceiling. I amazed myself when I thought I couldn’t finish the 2piece cheese pancake with bacon on the side tapos nangunguha pa ako ng food niya. Buhay baboy, istatute.

Yea, I have a thing with nicely wrapped gifts. Yeap I just failed the marshmallow test for that last night. I was hesitant in opening the gifts lalo na nung perfect ang wrapping. Tsktsktsk.

We picked up Shem, and she greeted me na [kasi I was complaining that she hasn’t yet] and gave me little stampy thingie [haha] na Aurora. CUTENESS. Her face is a bit deformed and barely resembled the real thing but I’m happy with just the thought that she got it for me on my day and I don’t have to go to Market Market.

Araneta, our home for practically the whole week. We got second row seats in the middle of the upper A crowd and I loved it. Shem I think loved her seat also if not only for the paranoia that her stalkers might be having a swell time drooling over her from upper B. I still maintain that life would have been better had they provided more balloons. Kalbo ang crowd eh.

How will I describe the game. Hmmm. The team made the crowd’s cheers worth it. It was a close fight come second half, after achieving a twenty-ish “that’s-what-you-get-for-not-giving-us-the-crown-Wednesday” lead. Hindi ba, frustrating. Everybody was standing and raising a pointed hand everytime a player takes a shot. At ang kaclassic ng shots, in fairness. I saw a little of Ekwe’s signature palpal unlike Monday, but damn he really is the one who holds everyone together.

Fine. Ekwe and Almajar. Expect Mumiel or JV to correct me with the second guy’s name. Parati ko kasing inaaway yung guy na yun eh. Monday palang napaghahalataan na swak pero I proved it finally Wednesday. Swak sa kanya yung ganitong description:

A: Magaling bang basketball player si Almajar?
B: Cute siya.

Kasi cute naman talaga siya, in fairness. Gwapo, even. But I swear his game Monday and Wednesday, tsktsk. I only knew of his existence this week fine, but I knew from the beginning that he could’ve done better. That he’s not doing his best. Na pangdefense lang siya.

He proved me wrong yesterday. I think he got 23 points. Good job then. I have always held that I want to be proven wrong when it comes to things like that. He rose up to the challenge and we are all benefiting from it.

Yun nga. They basically wasted the 20 point advantage. They didn’t give it away easily fine, but they gave it away nonetheless. But just like what JV said, it’s already moot and academic to talk about it, because we won.

It was seriously, pure luck. Beda had only a point lead. Like ten seconds to go and it’s PCU’s ball. They took a shot, hindi shoot. Kinuha ng Beda. And people started jumping and cheering and really, thanking Him.

Adik di ba. Pure Luck. But it was worth it. I looked at all the crowd behind me and it felt good to be around all these people. Nagkakaroon na ng puso ang prinsesa para sa Beda.

Pero fine. I didn’t like some of the stuff they shout at PCU. Yung squatter, yung bulok at yung lahat ng klase ng maliit na isda. Just like what Shem said, Beda seemed to be the uneducated one because of the remarks. But fine, I laughed when we kidded about the PCU not having money to buy tickets, and yes when his friend was trying to give the PCU cheerleaders money because of their pang-bar na presentation. Meanie, I know.

Sige, pagbibigyan ko siya. It was his first time planning a party, one for ME. So even if I already knew of the plan after the game pa lang, I went along with it and tried to not say a word. Nakakatuwa e, let him make all these excuses as to why his Mom kept on bugging him. But I was surprised with Patty and dear Paopao and the little gifts.

Oh, a classic instance of how automatic rationalization is for me: somebody said something about Pepe not yet feeding Ana. And he said, “don’t worry, mamaya, sa cake.” The normally slouching me was alerted by that but then a thought came into my mind, tipong, o well, I should be sanay with that by now, so I let it go. While everybody else was killing him in their minds. And then, he realized his slip. Saya. Classic =_= huh.

Hahaha. It was a fun night. I thought Pepe’s cake was fun. Yeap I know this will come out as a surprise but I sort of wished my cake was naughty like his. A naughty sans rival cake. Or cheesecake. Hehe.

And they gave me precious gifts! I especially love the thing for the car. Wala bang ganun na ang nakasulat ay bitchsesa? Gusto ko nun, gusto ko nun. Tas yung frame, it’s so gay, it’s so me. I just have to look for the perfect picture for it.

I loved my day. It was a really fun one. I was constantly glowing, apir pumpkin. I know I am being selfish in saying this but gaaad I wish my days are always like this.

The Longest Weekend.

2006-10-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

15-17. BASICALLY, haha. Little did we know that the retreat’s the start of our pagbubuhay baboy. Hahaha.

So. I thought I was going to be left by the bus. I left at 745 when the bus leaves at 8. Saya. But I wasn’t the last to arrive. While waiting for the people who came later than me, Shem and I exhibited our incapacity to delay gratification by reading the retreat letters that the other goddesses [and yes I meant that to include him] wrote us. We were ditzy as hell, cooing over everything every single time.

Then we arrived in Batangas. The same retreat house. What’s the first thing that we did? Right. We had merienda. And got introduced to the retreat master who held the mahiwagang bell. And was sent to our rooms [which we chose. Shem and I were the last to be given a room, sadyang matira ang matibay ang labanan dun.]. Then we had lunch.

Turns out, the retreat was about that: pagbubuhay baboy and talks about guess what, love. I couldn’t believe it at first that that’s everything we had to discuss but well, if you think about it, that where everything springs from.

I liked their approach. I thought they’ll be strict and forbid even using cellphones. But no. I liked that they treated us like adults.

Ooh, and my birthday gift for myself: I confessed. Sobrang burden off talaga. Six years is more than enough, really.

And I liked Goal!. I want a copy of that.

It was not really a retreat, it was more of a time to take a break from everything. A time to be not law students.

Game Monday

Started the day quite early. Shem and I looked like die-hard fans of the basketball team because we were in Araneta at 7am. We were ashamed of that at first, but well, well.

We were the first in the line. And guess what, we got Patron seats! O di ba, dyosang- dyosa. Never in my three years’ stay in La Salle have I experienced sitting in patron.

Then we had a date in Gateway. It’s nice pala no, the ambiance reminds me of Plant. We went upstairs, sa floor ng cinemas, sat in the egg-shaped seats, and read. Consti for me, Persons for Shem. Adik, lawst students. Ooh, we had lunch at Pizza Hut Bistro. Ohh, reminds me of the other goddesses. =(

May I just say. At first the sight of 80% red shirts was scary. But it grows on you, it does.

While staying at Coffee Bean, fixing a personal problem of mine, Kuya Jun, his wife and the rest of the people in Alabang started arriving. Andun din stalker ko. Later on, Ulan himself arrived.

The worth-it moment of the day: while asking the usher where our seats were. Ulan poked me in the arm, and basically had this conversation with us:

Ulan: Sino kasama niyo?
Shem and I: Kami lang po.
Ulan: Ang sosyal nyo ha, samantalang ang mga kasama nyo nasa taas.

Oooh, in case I haven’t explained it yet, Ulan’s the Vice Dean but technically is the Dean of Alabang Law. And yes, he got lower box seats.

Bwahahah.

The game was fun. I loved Ekwe’s palpal. The guy whom most girls have a crush on was a bit bano. But I thought the game was worth the waking up early in the mawn.

And yeap. I adored, the little kids who cheered during half time, although Shem found that pedophilic. I really should learn that Oompa chant.

Later in the evening while talking to him we discovered something funny. See, Shem was seating at B1, me at B2 and some man at B3. AND. His family occupied B4-B7. and I didn’t know. Ayos. Indirect meet the parents huh.

Tuesday. I woke up with the thought at the back of my head that it’ll be just a quiz for Persons. And boy, was I right. By one in the afternoon people started texting me that the coverage would be acp. Was that freaky, or I just know Ulan that well.

And the atmosphere in the school just changed. Just like what I told Shem, nagiging tao na kami. People were actually talking to us notwithstanding the possibility of getting sucked in inside our bubble. And we especially me, we now talk to them. Hindi na ako takot sa karamihan sa kanila. I dunno why it’s like that; I’m betting on the combination of the effects of the retreat, the game yesterday, the little banderitas and the lechon they’ve hidden somewhere.

[But I am offering a little tip to my stalkers {haha, kapal talga.}: be a friend. Act as if I am a normal friend you don’t like. Because if I get the hunch that I am being eyed on, I get scared, I get aloof. This suggestion is good only in the presumption that one merely wants to admire from afar. Dahil kung mismong da moves na ang pinag-uusapan, ask Shem. She loves making announcements with her invisible portable microphone.]

Ten te ne nen.

But I love it. Of course. I feel like I am slowly getting in the zone [yup, sa tono ng song with the same title ni Britney.] and honestly, I feel like everything’s putting itself into place [arrrg grammar schammar alert]. Is it a good thing, then, to be giddy about Friday as early as after midterms that as the day gets nearer, everything is somehow always just how I like them to be?

I am honestly astounded. Just how right Coelho was when he wrote about the universe conspiring to give you what you want. So it pays to speak up and do your share.

And btw, I can party na. Wala lang.

Btw2. A blockmate of mine replied when I forwarded the text about the quiz, “thanks Madam.” Oha. Tinalbugan ang tawag saking Mam ng domicile. =p [But then again, he called our beadle who’s a guy the same thing. Hmmm.]

Btw3. A friend, after listening to my reason how come I highlight my books in a gay manner and tadtad them with little notes [sori, I just can’t think of the English word for that], gave up trying to understand me, actually described me as nakakadugo ng ilong, and left to try to breathe. Refreshing dava. Shem and I just couldn’t believe it. Antagal na tapos ako pa. Ako pa ha. Hindi niya lang alam, kaya ako maputla e.

Btw4. Shem and I sitting in Powerbooks’ carpeted floor, reading one astrology book that freaking hits the bulls eye, 80% of the time. And we were amazed at how accurate it is. How ditzy can we get huh.

Wednesday Twas a tiring day, physically and emotionally. Shem and I had to line up in Araneta, only to find out that what’s left were upper B tickets, and upper A’s standing room starts lining up at twelve.

The atmosphere got a bit heated, and Shem actually joined in the fun. I was like the girlfriend who stands beside the naghuhurumentadong tb-hing ‘boyfriend’. But it was their fault. Magulo ang sistema.

Mahirap kasi ang makalasap ng Patron seats. You’re given the best that’s why you only expect the best. That’s what failed us both. We loved, absolutely adored the thought that we were in Patron Monday, that being in Upper A isn’t even remotely fine.

The worst part of it all? Tinambakan pa sila. Twenty plus points. A lot of the audience, including us, sort of walked out the coliseum not out of pagkapikon, but because of lining up for the tickets, which turned out to be released at 9 in the mawn the following day. Hay, stress.

And my voice is starting to show my kapaguran. Namamalat ako.

Thursday. The family lined in Araneta at around 8 in the morning and there were people ahead of us already. Araneta was being bitchy, saying at first that the only tickets left are for Upper A, then later Upper B. People who lined up after us well fine, including us, were freaking mad. The woman who’s very first in the line was shouting and yes, nagwawala. I was starting to be scared, let’s just say La Salle’s system is much peaceful, organized than this.

Then they gave in. They said they’re selling twelve patrons and nineteen upper boxes.

But seriously. Leche yung babaeng umaangal. Walong tickets kinuha. When one person’s allowed to get just two tickets. Tapos may dalawang scalpers pang ahead of us. They looked suspicious and boy, were they quiet, with a secret smirk on their faces when the bona fide Bedans were loudly complaining.

Aaarg I hate them. I hate the system. It’s too political. When did the world start to be this messy. Gaguhan tayong lahat.

Then we went home, had lunch at Grams. Shem ordered cheese steak for take out. I can’t remember what he ordered, but I think there was soup. He got Mel onion rings. Oooh I am craving as I type. =p

Then we went to school. Nakakatawa, Shem and I acted like boarders. After settling in, instead of studying, the ditzy lesbian couple occupied two cubicles, na magkahiwalay naman, and slept. Well, Shem said she had a catnap lang but mine was longer, and really, quite needed. After that we ate the onion rings that she got. Then I bought fries. Then we walked around the school like superbisoras. Then Shem was asked by Kuya Jun if we lined up for tickets. Then we sold him the extra ticket we had. Then we realized we are Alabang’s scalpers, and our greatest regret for the day was not hoarding enough. Then we went outside the school. Then we ate the cheese steak that she bought. Then we went to “class”.

Well mine was more of that, “class”. Her prof’s the one who makes sure the class gets their moneys’ worth. Mine ahmm, hmmm. It’s like I didn’t leave.

So. My block went to the lib to do what the activity for the meeting was, making a legal opinion re sex changed individuals. Fun fun. Shem helped me with pretty much everything, even down to how the flow must be. I really had to tell her that that act of hers reminded me of someone, about a year ago.

And then I get a text, saying that I should be at Pancake Frank at 9 the following morning.

The celeb has began.

Oooh, and I started glowing.

I went home, and my parents were nowhere. Until like eleven. Then at eleven thirty they couldn’t wait any longer, because they had to sleep na, they lighted the candle in the cake and sang to me. And my Dad told Mom, “sige na Ma, bigay mo na gift niya. Tignan mo, ni hindi na nga makangiti o.” which if you’re living with them you won’t really know as to its verity. And even if it’s true, there’s an 80% chance it won’t be what you wished for. Maybe it’s a clothing material. A night gown. A perfume. A piece of jewelry. Ooh btw, I just remembered. For my 18th birthday my dad gave me this bracelet, with chains and little locks, as in gates’ locks, on it.

And she brings out a Smart paperbag. I was hesitant to open it. Half glowy and half disbelieving. I got an N70.

Tsktsktsk. And it’s just eleven thirty.

Then he calls me up, waits for twelve, sings to me, and texts his brother as to how to open an N70.

Shit, my birthday has arrived.

hmmm.

2006-09-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

You Are a Good Girl!

You're into fun - but it has to be your own brand of fun
Drinking? No thanks. You rather spend your time differently...
Whether it's talking with friends, taking up a hobby, or reading
You're not the type to socialize just for socializing's sake!

Are You a Party Girl?

knew it. mapapalit n nga si chito.

2006-09-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

You Should Own a Yorkshire Terrier

Lively, sweet, and easy to carry.

What Kind of Dog Should You Have?

omg. britney na britney.

2006-09-10T19:45:00.000+08:00

Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman

Inside you've got the passion and ideals of a teenager
And your intensity for life is what attracts most of the men you date
You also like to party - and quite often you're the life of the party
You've brought the best of your younger years with you... at least most of the time.

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

scary.

2006-09-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Marquise Diamond!

Like most Marquise diamond wearers, you are sexy and impulsive.
You're also good at getting what you want in life, no matter what it is.
You tend to be successful at love, your career, and anything else you desire.
Think Victoria Beckham and Catherine Zeta Jones: proud wearers of this ring!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

akong ako.

2006-09-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

How Do Men See You?

tsktsktsk.

2006-09-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

You Are Fun Sexy

You're funny, quirky, cute, and sassy.
Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy.
You've got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through.
Any guy would be crazy to turn you down!

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

magaling, magaling.

2006-09-10T19:35:00.000+08:00

You Are Not a Tease

You definitely know how to flirt, but you usually choose not to.
You're not the type of girl who leads guys on - and men appreciate that.
Your charms and sexiness are saved for the one guy you're into...
And for that, he digs you even more!

Are You a Tease?

hahaha. magkakaalamanan sa 22. =p

2006-09-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

You Need to Grow Up a Little

You're definitely not a kid anymore, though sometimes it's hard to tell.
Your life is somewhat adult, but chances are, you aren't really satisfied with it.
Whether this means getting a better job or dumping a loser boyfriend...
It's definitely time for you to start living a fully adult life.

Do You Need to Grow Up?

relief.

2006-09-10T19:26:00.000+08:00

mom just said: "parang napagod ako katutulog".

how i wish i could feel your pain, mom.

but then again, salamat sa vindication, blogthings.

You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor)

You're logical, driven, and ruthless.
You'd make a mighty fine lawyer.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

Sky’s the limit.

2006-09-08T14:33:00.000+08:00

written 9.7.2006 1041p

I had only one awwww moment today, and it came from my unidentical twin, [meron bang ganun? Bwahaha.] Melodya. I told her about my parinig a couple of entries ago and she asked me where my wish list is.

Cute di ba. The only time I was asked of that question was when I turned eighteen. And it’s touching, really. Wala lang.

So I am uploading my wish list. Sorry dears, if I make such a big fuss about this. I have already set my mind into this “it’s-my-party-and-I’ll-cry-if-I-want-to” mode ever since September started.

I love making wish lists. =)

*N series cellphone: N72, N73.
*an Aquilan boyfriend
*tamagochi, Polly Pocket
*calvin & hobbes
*Gilmore Girls, Sex and the City DVDs
*The Corrs' first ever album
*The Spa certificates
*Sokie. i want Sokie.
*yoga class
*John Mayer tickets for November
*an Aquilan boyfriend
*The Devil Wears Prada [book or DVD]
*a new car, i.e., Mazda 3
*Sex and the City trivia game
*Disney princesses puzzle, vcds
*constant glowing for an entire day
*an Aquilan boyfriend
*Albums: Bamboo, OnL, Apo Tribute, James Blunt. Just ask me.
*Beauty Bar gift certificates
*Olay Total Effects
*iDog, or a girlfriend for Chito
*a day of all-expense paid shopping
*Neutrogena body oil
*a good surprise from Duh Perm
*Wet N Wild lipstick, 517A
*an Aquilan boyfriend
*lifetime supply of the P150/pair black slippers that I adore
*party na ang food ay isaw, chocnut, fishballs, quecquec, coke, mang jimmy’s sisig, gummy bears, vodka ice, sbarro’s white, mac n cheese, orange swits, san mig
*P1000 worth of gas. =p
*a year’s subscription to Cosmo
*Ateneo Law jacket
*DVDs of the entire Full House series
*an Aquilan boyfriend
*condo unit in Rockwell
*his perfume.
*a weekend with Duh Perm on the beach
*guaranted weekly hot oil treatments for at least a year
*Eat Mangoes Naked by Spark
*moments that take my breath away
*an Aquilan boyfriend
*Breakfast buffet at Mactan Shangri La
*The Body Shop concealer, 01 ata

OMG. I just realized, I did actually envision this year’s birthday of mine to be as close as that in Uptown Girls. Yung she wakes up at ten in the eve to go to her surprise party prepared by 30 of her bestest friends and the corridor and even the lobby of her condo leading to her unit were packed with flowers and gifts. Malaki ngang challenge yon.

Pero hanggang Plan C? adik ka talaga. =)

rebel

2006-09-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

alas tres na ng hapon, hindi pa ako nagbabasa ng legres [yup. recit e.] at hanggang alas singko lang ang pictorial para sa i.d., pero andito pa rin ako, tinatamad gumalaw.

sinubukan ko na naman pala magsmoke kanina, at hanggang kalahati lang ako. buti na lang hindi ako kaliwete, magssmoke ako habang nagddrive kung ganun.

isa lang naman ang tanong ko: madali naman akong pasayahin hindi ba.

The Countdown

2006-09-07T14:48:00.000+08:00

written 9/7/2006 1235a

I want to thank my parents. I know they didn’t plan it this far but I adore the fact that I was born this month. The busiest month in a law student’s life. The busiest, and unless you’re a barrister, the most fun-filled month. Aba, may libreng party at the end of the month. Saan ka pa. =)

I love the thought of it eh: Friday I go to my two-hour class. Then it’s off to my celeb. Then the following night’s the batch party. Then on Sunday is the salabong. That is practically three parties for me. Fun right.

Hmmm, I guess I’ll have one of those four-day weddings.

Early this morning I was surprised. The maid said my Dad left a gift for me. Guess what, a freaking stun gun, that doubles as a flashlight and I should keep in car to be used only against hold uppers. Hmmm, that is how much he loves me huh.

And the literature that came with it said that its other model resembles a celphone. Ayos talaga.

Oh, I remember. Kanina I went to starbs to fetch the other princess. One of the child beggars said, “ate mamaya pagbalik mo ha [bili ka], maganda ka naman e, ligawan kita.” And it came from a girl. I, swear to God, was freaked out I rushed walking.

And my sister, I doubt it if she will give me my 1000 bucks worth of gas. She does not even want to pay her P50 utang. Ibaon na lang daw sa limot. Kamusta.

O, I want to know how did my Consti exam go. After that, I can party.

And the new party planner. He has to fix my schedule, kamusta ang pagiging sekretarya nating lahat. =p But he has to do good ha, it’s me we’re talking about [ang saya ng birthday, you can pressure anyone into doing anything and you’ll end up disclaiming it with, it’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to.=D]. I remember the kwento about Shem’s birthday, when Mel got fed up talking to him that he ended up talking to Haze and complained to her about how frustrating party… actually, executing the plan could be. Fun di ba. =p

He really does have to do good, magaling magplan sila Melodya eh. Well, he knows naman what I really want. No need for a tangible gift, really. I want something that had made me glow ever since I entertained the idea of it. And it still does, mapatollgate man or a well-lighted lib. =p

Sarap mangpressure. =)

Visiting the Domicile keeps your heart young.

2006-09-07T14:45:00.000+08:00

written 8/27/2006 1237a

It’s been long overdue. I went there a couple of weeks ago yet it still felt like I haven’t been there in ages. Actually. It felt like I didn’t spend an entire life - altering year there. Yet, for some reason, I didn’t feel alienated. I was treated as if I never left. Hmmm, my dearies are good hosts, apir, apir.

The good thing is, I found a better perspective to all of these: law school is just that, school. Four years. After that we can regroup and be the crazy noisy strong – willed and – hearted kids at heart that we have always been. A group of ten or more being like that is better and way understandable than just two people kasi, right Shem. =p

Honestly, whose reaction did I like the best? Pepe’s. Isa pa kasing long overdue, hindi kasi nagpapakita. It started when we saw Ana alone in Starbs that’s again converting into a giant freezer [awww I miss it, and my Tuesday croissant mornings.]. She was surprised and happy to see us, and get this, she asked us to sit down. Nakakatawa, para kaming bisita. She said Pepe and the rest of the people went to Fort to buy GoNuts. Awww. I miss that spontaneity, arrg. And honestly, I have never seen Pepe that genuinely happy, o baka lang dahil namiss niya kami.

I guess it’s a blessing in disguise to be where Shem and I are right now and we can only get to visit them every now and them. We can only see the nice parts of their days and well, despite our complaints about the drought in Beda, we are floating.

And as expected, what I like about them: there may be lull moments [kasi naman mali mga hirit ni Ralph =p] but those are always outdone by the immense moments of freaking good laughs elicited by the ever-classic lines of my dearies especially euns [not really a surprise there, huh.] Minsan na lang sumakit panga ko sa kakatawa, I just realized.

And yes, I also miss it. Tipsiness and yet driving home right before my Dad does. Only in Rockwell, people. Only in Rockwell.

To my dearies, fellow gangstas. Naiwan talaga sa inyo ang puso ko. Apir.

Loved every minute I spent there. Tonight, and the past year.

***BTW. I may seem like a feelingera but, but. I’m turning 22 on the 22nd, isn’t that enough reason to fuss and be expectant at the same time about my birthday this year?
Anyway. I understand how hard this year will be, I know that we’ve done pretty much everything when it comes to birthdays. Therefore I shall only ask for two things:
a. I want a good surprise.
b. I want to feel loved.
Give me those two, and I will be fine.

Over My Head.

2006-08-29T16:36:00.000+08:00

written 8/24/2006 743p

I love that song, I dunno why. Ang hilig ko sa panglasing na kanta no.

Random thoughts, people. =)

-May kasalanan na naman ako kay Peklat. Nabangga ko na naman siya nung Tuesday. Kamusta naman kasi, I was not paying enough attention. And I think the handbrake’s still up. But the Ford that I hit, with its rubber thingie which kept it from getting a dent because of my negligence, is something that I hate and love at the same time.
Ironically the night before that while the family was praying, my Mom blurted out, “Ano ba yan Ate, andami mo nang peklat, ginagaya mo na ang kotse mo.” Mothers with such unconditional love. Ayos.

-While I was on my way home last night, I heard a poll over the radio: if you were given the choice, which would you rather have, food or gas. I laughed like hell and without thinking answered, “[insert my favorite swear word here], food!”
I just got frustrated about how gluttonous I have become when the answers to that poll flooded with dreams of lower price of gas. Guess I can’t blame myself; after all I have had my share of pagpapagas.

Sheeeet. Did I just type that. Mali, mali.

I’m blaming it on Chi Ming Tsoi week.

-A ticket worth 200 bucks to Bohol. Hmmm, sounds too good to be true. Had it been to Bora I would have been going, “Is it Christmas? Is it my birthday?” mode already.

-I realized, I have yet to ahm, taste BTS. Wala lang.

-My wish list for my birthday. I have already updated it but well, just like every time I keep a wish list [of course Christmas last year was the exemption] I’ll keep it to myself. Haha, weirdo.

-The kid at Kfc kanina was so adorable, he really could have been mistaken to be my son. Well, minus the curly hair. But seriously, he will turn out to be a gorgeous boy. Maybe he’s my lost son, hmmm.
Hinde pa rin. Hindi talaga bagay.

-The Prince of Monaco is here! The cute one! Oooh, I was even willing to go to Payatas where he is to visit, according to Mom, just to see him. Cute talaga siya, I swear. Hindi yung tipong kailangan mo ng dram [ask Shem]. Siya yung tipong, “Tsk, tsk, tsk. Hot.” at mapapanganga ka na lang.

On The Break Up.

2006-08-29T16:34:00.000+08:00

written 8/20/2006 736p

Before anything else, I just had to share this. I loved The Break Up. Yeah, that is one of the sacrifices a movie fan slash law student must endure, not getting to watch movies on time. I mean, I was supposed to watch My Super Ex-Girlfriend last night but well, curling up in my bed resting my aching head after a degrading Crim midterms just seemed sweeter.

Anyway, thanks to Ninoy we don’t have tests tomorrow so I was given the opportunity to be laidback today, just like any other Sunday. Insert evil laugh here.

Hehe. Ivy just came over and complained how she didn’t like the ending of The Break Up. They didn’t even get back together, she complains. How fun.

But that’s the beauty of it, I think. An open-ended uhm, ending.

I loved it. I loved how it was presented, straightforward, and simple. Anyway, seeing these two people who obviously still cared for each other hurt each other is too much to handle. You just see how little by little the relationship deteriorated because of lack of communication. I can’t blame either of them, though: at their age it’s sort of a common knowledge to well, air out what ticks them, as soon as possible. And that’s what happened: he’s a guy who does everything that he wants all the time, she’s a girl who loves him she does everything that he wants, and everything was just left hanging.

I was scared for a couple of times, when he finally realized what to do, that she would give the relationship another try. But spending merely an hour with them ruining the relationship is enough for anyone to stop her from giving in. Everything that just happened has been that heavy in the heart. There is just no way for a sane person to say yes to another try to something like that.

That is why I liked the ending. Evidently they still have a bubble, and maybe they really just needed the time off to grow up and purge themselves of every little bad thing that went with their break up. There’s nothing wrong with recharging, right.

I liked the movie. That is the closest that one can get to real life and everything in it.

I’m happy though; it is fiction.

damn you, traffic.

2006-08-24T10:48:00.000+08:00

and Mel, since you put it that way, no more bedtime stories from now on. gaaad you guys just don't know how grave the chi ming tsoi week has become. =p

and yes, i adored the freshman's blog. just can't believe she likes jess.

You are a shy flirt

You are more inclined to leave anonymous love notes for your crush then go up and ask them out. You prefer to leave the ball in their court and see where it takes you. A lot of people find this style romantic, but sometimes you are going to have to work up the nerve and ask your crush out, because if your crush is shy too, you may both like each other and never know.

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	WHAT PISSES YOU OFF?
Bats constantly attacking me

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You are Amelia Earhart

Adventurous and boundary breaking. You believe that you can do anything, and do not hesitate to take risks to achieve a big goal. You like to problem solve, when a problem comes up.

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Your most appealing feature is:
Your Hair

Your best feature is your hair. You spend a lot of time on it to ensure that it always looks its best. Or maybe you don't and it just looks awesome anyway.

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Your Social Dysfunction:
Schizotypal

You display social deficits and oddities of thinking. Your perception and communication are similar to those of a schizophrenic.

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Your arch-nemesis is:	Joan of Arc

Why?	Because they took your iPod without asking
The winner will be...	You
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You'll become a millionaire on:	Sunday January 8th, 2043

What's the first thing that you'll buy?	A tarot card reading
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What crazy thing will be your demise?
A box of macaroni and cheese
... (why?)
Because you gave it to your friend who is allergic to it

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What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

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Fun, fun fun.

2006-08-19T13:34:00.000+08:00

written 8/16/2006 11:19 P

Yes. I am supposed to be studying right now, for my midterms on Saturday. Don’t get me wrong, it was not a deliberate decision for me to be indolent tonight. Something just happened tonight, that would have been a major factor (AGAIN.) in me feeling apprehensive, if it weren’t for the salvaging that was done right on time.

But something just had to pay for it. Hence, this entry in exchange for my time reviewing.

I’m happy though, and grateful. I still haven’t lost the fire. I am still on a roll. Just had to get these off my mind.

****
More than a dozen moons ago I had an entry about my resolutions for me to survive law school. Since I am seeing it and yes, experiencing it from the other side of things (oh, do I really have to have a disclaimer? BEAR WITH ME TONIGHT, DEARS. THIS ENTRY IS JUST A STREAM-OF-CONSCIOUSNESS MOMENT.) I feel I have learned quite a lot that most law students would find to be of great help. Ah shit, am babbling.

Oy, I’m not being a know-it-all here. Truth be told, I am posting this merely in the guise of being a guide for other would-be alipin ng batas but really, I am posting this for myself. Yon, self-serving.

Unsolicited advice (from me and my profs both in school and in life), coming up:
- First impressions last.
- Unity. Very important.
- Bonding moments. Orsem is such a brilliant idya.
- This is not college. Can’t be absent just for the heck of it. It’s frustrating, not just for the prof, but for your blockmates as well. Sorry, at the end of the day you’re still a competitor in the school’s bets for the Bar.
- Basis, basis, basis. And never forget your common sense.
- No crabbing. Forget about competing for the highest grade.
- Be brief and concise in answering exams. (I had a vindicating moment about this just this Monday, and I was floating on cloud 9 because of that.)
- Never come to class unprepared. Apostasy yon.
- A charming, organized, mildly OC beadle helps a lot. (awww I miss patty =s)
- Adjust your body clock starting today. Being an insomniac won’t help you pass the Bar. (Yes, it came from someone who sleeps at 3am)
- Never ever debate with a prof. Don’t believe everything that he says either.
- Crankiness is never an excuse. Lahat tayo puyat, ineng.
- Ang katapat lang ng isang bad day ay isang mild na serye ng moments ng rebelyon. After non, aral ulit.
- A high I.Q. doesn’t guarantee you passing the Bar. (I agree with what they say, law students are either smart or maabilidad.)
- Extra-curriculars matter.
- Just don’t stop.
- You need a strong heart in law school.
- And a strong will.
- Karma does exist.
- Just do your best, you don’t have to prove anything to anyone. Just to yourself.

See, told you. More for me siya. Anyway.

****
Monday, that vindicating day. That was the day I realized I have quite a lot of pet peeves. Pet peeves that I never thought I had. Nakakapikon.

The sadder part of that is, the people whom I’ve talked to about it, all gave “yeah-I-thought-that’s-settled-already” yeses.

Yeah, probably because of the situation. I am already estopped, I know. I have already declared that I will never get over it. But at least I have already accepted it. Not fully, of course, because little things that shouldn’t bother me still do, but I hope I’m getting there.

The other day though I attributed it to the fact that I’m getting older. Remember, in a month’s time I will renew my license. That I am starting to lose the littlest inch of patience I have within. O gaaad no. I’m being Molly Gunn of Uptown Girls when she saw an old woman when she looked in the mirror on her 22nd birthday. Whoah, how apt huh.

I am more on the fact that really, I am not happy. Well fine, not as happy as I used to be. Don’t get me wrong, I love the company of the people I see everyday, but let’s put it this way. I have experienced for myself the fact that there’s more to life than this. And I am here not just because I have to finish what I started, or because I have to prove myself to myself, but because I know if I finish this right I can be with the people and the circumstances that make me the happiest.

So this is me huh. Not smoking or drinking. Just secretly angry about almost everything. Saya.

****
A couple of minutes ago I was talking to a fellow law student and I was telling him about the walk out that happened today in the Congress while in the middle of discussions about the impeachment. I was telling it with the usual tone that law students have when narrating the facts of a case, i.e., the tone one uses when gossiping. And well, let us just say he was apathetic about it.

I get it. It’s just politics. I even ended up questioning my reaction to it. I just concluded that it was interesting because that’s the learned men’s soap opera. But really, really. Why be interested in it.

And to think that I have long resigned from caring about the politics in the country. I find it funny, actually; law students having no care about current events. It is so current eh, masyadong intermittent. To preserve my sanity, or the littlest semblance of it that I have, I have decided to be apathetic about politics like a year ago.

Guess I’m not used to it. That the last few times I have heard of chizmax like that a President was in the brink of getting ousted. And it’s fun and traumatizing at the same time, I guess. How could old men act so f*cking immature.

****
I learn a lot from movies. I love the smell of freshly dried laundry. Wala lang.
Hmmm, I believe I got a text that resembled that a couple of nights ago. Haha. =p

I just realized tonight. I take a lot from the movies that I like. Yes that selection is not really impressive, it being jam-packed with chick flicks, but hey. I feel like I am a combination of my favorite movies. And yes my education and the people around me and my experience, but you get my point right?

I base it on the fact (takte, parang wala akong natutunan kay Chu ha. Operative word, parang. =p) that I don’t have an ate, an older sibling. These movies were the first cases that I had to absorb the doctrines of. (Ayos ang grammar schmammar alert.) It seems like I learn the little lessons in every movie by heart and make it rules in leading my life. So to know me is to watch my movies? Hahaha.

Yes. Sleepy at 1230. Believe me, that’s an accomplishment.

Back to studying tomorrow then. And midterms. Then I’ll write here like hell.

Go codal. Btw, I found an effective though geeky version of bedtime stories: reviewing for nego by explaining it to a layman. The layman being, someone who has yet to take up nego. Hahaha.

sa tono ng dying inside.

2006-08-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

dang, euns. nahahawa na naman ako sa quiz addiction mo. =p

You most resemble Marlon Brando

You are very smart, and very talented, although you don’t really enjoy social company. You prefer to live alone, go to movies alone, cry alone in the corner...

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In the dark ages, how would yves die?

You would run off of a poorly-lit cliff while in pursuit of your secret lover. Cliffs were even more of a hazard back in the day, you know.

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You are 28% messed up.

You are not messed up, which is odd because practically everyone else is. Maybe that makes you even more messed up than the others.

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Your life most resembles:
General Hospital

Your life mostly resembles those of the characters on General Hospital. Although you can be melodramatic at times, you lead a fairly normal life. You love to hear gossip, but you are not much of a spreader. Your friends love you because you are reliable and extra fun to be around.

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Death through drugs/alcohol

You are going to die drowning after drinking too much/doing too many drugs. Dying like all of the greatest rockers – because you live like one. You like to party and experiment with perception. Rock on hippie.

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oooh, i love this. =p

yvie --

[noun]:

A dance involving little to no clothing

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*compare the last two. hindi na lang talga pagbigyan eh.

how dp are you?

2006-08-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

in lieu of the upcoming midterms of everbody and as a sort of tribute to the very successful istatute, finally, finally. i shall be posting the application form of Duh Perm.

Shem and I agreed to require a 75% passing mark for it, but i dunno what's happening to me, i want it raised to 80%. bwahahaha.

so to my lovely people, and me and shem and kiko, luck luck. see you after midterms!

Duh Perm Application Form

1. Who is Junjun?
2. Who is Buknoy?
3. Are you a Blogger? (If yes, blog site: )
4. Nasaan ang bahay ng Duh Perm?
5. Name all the seniors.
6. Who is Perv/ Mean? What is his universal sign?
7. Do you have three-way?
8. What is Hazel’s nickname?
9. Sinong grupo ang katensyon ng Duh Perm?
10. Whose brainchild is the main plot of Duh Perm’s presentation for Theo?
11. Who is Kamahalan? Where is Kamahalan’s hacienda?
12. Who are the great dissenters?
13. Are you fond of pictorials?
14. Where do most of Duh Perm’s members’ birthdays celebrated?
15. Who discovered Maita’s fondness for glittery tops?
16. Name Duh Perm’s Magkakapatid.
17. Who usually computes everybody’s share for the bill?
18. Can you drive, or are you a Salud?
19. Whose line is “strawberry fields forever”?
20. Where do the seniors usually have pictorials?
21. Do you like planning parties?
22. Who is the original kulot na salot?
23. What was Kiboy’s speed when Duh Perm went home from Batangas?
24. Who is Miss Consti?
25. Who is the queen of shorts-ka-pa shorts?

sucking the poison out of my life.

2006-07-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

i will never be the same again.

too long nails hurt.

2006-07-01T19:53:00.000+08:00

A couple of hours ago I came home from school and as usual, I went straight to my parents’ room to talk to them about my day. My mom was there with Chito, and well, the usual usap. Suddenly she said that she kept on forgetting on telling me something and that I’m the only one left who’s clueless about it.

It’s about my parents’ ex-friends. Ex-friends, because lately it’s starting to become apparent that they don’t share with my parents [and the rest of their friends] the same goals, same principles, and yes. The same way of thinking. It has become that destructive that these ex-friends of theirs actually left the group [and you thought teens and yuppies are the only ones who suffer from TGIS moments huh.] because well, they are two entirely different groups of people who would just end up killing each other had they tried to patch things up.

Anyway. Their group’s summer outing in Batangas last May. These ex-friends didn’t bring their own vehicle. My Dad fetched them from Laguna at around ten in the eve [because he came from the office] and went straight to Batangas, despite everyone’s concern that it’s late already. ANYWAY. When it was time to leave the following day, they somehow managed to ride in my car [because I was riding the Pajero, malamang, and the two drivers were there – prinsesang prinsesa ang dating, hehe] despite some people’s complaints that there were other people who were much more deserving to ride there than them [i.e., napangakuan na, madaling mahilo, may high blood, etc].

A ninang of mine [who is also my Mom’s best friend in the bunch] were riding my car also. According to her, there was a conversation like this inside my car:

Guy ex-friend: Ang galing na ni Yves no, nagdadrive na ng sarili niyang kotse.
Girl ex-friend: Hmmp, malay mo. Nakakapagmaneho na siya. Tapos may boyfriend pa. Kahit saan pwede na siyang pumunta.

Must I still continue with the dialogue?

That convo came from parents of a friend of mine. People whom I actually considered as my second parents. And yet, they, fine, she thinks I’ll get pregnant nang di oras.

My ninang daw kept on insisting that I’m not like other girls; that I know what’s right and what would embarrass my family and myself. My Mom’s take on that is, if that’s gonna happen, that’s gonna happen, but she prays all the time for me to know the right thing to do.

God bless them. Sobra. It was a real “kamusta-ka-naman” moment, but really, it hurt me. I know the issue’s not that; the issue actually is the fact that everybody thought that the gulo’s within their group lang; it’s such a foul thing to think that way about one of the members’ child. But it did hurt, because it came from them.

Mom sees it as a challenge for me. Great, now I’m challenged. Why, do I really look that naive? I know she didn’t tell it for me to assure her, but I still did. I told her that I’m not like that. Yes, that’s a big possibility right now because I have a boyfriend and I’m at the age range when the hormones are well, busy. But I know what’s expected of me, and I know I’d only want to get pregnant when the time is right. Because my parents did a great job raising me; I may seem childish at times but I know I’m a strong, smart, independent woman whose life is just starting.

And yes. I really had to tell her. That because of what she told me my decision of not having a child of my own was bolstered. And that I have several friends [Nes included] who think the same way. Her only answer? “E paano beauty mo?”

I reminded her of Oprah, and the case was closed.

the last hurrah.

2006-06-14T18:12:00.000+08:00

didn't expect today to be that dreaded day. when i have no choice but to break down.
i know im strong, but well. nagsabi na rin naman talga ako beforehand: occassionally, out of nowhere, expect me to break down.

nothing to lose, gaya nga ng motto ko yesterday. but then i just had to say bye to this. sobrang fitting ng song kay ate pearl kanina. "goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one for me.."

my little new york. ill be visiting often, count on that, but... but. you just broke my heart.

si eunice ay isang loser. =D

2006-06-05T11:24:00.001+08:00

seryoso. magpapagupit na talaga ako. yung bangs lang buong ulo. yung tipong kahit si chito mahihiyang lumapit sa kin. =D

btw. si chito ay pinatakbo ako nang length ng halos street namin. nauna si dad, nag give up, kinuha ang pajero at hinabol. si ivy naunahan ko eventually dahil maxado xang magaan at hindi siya hinihingal at hindi masakit ang manipis nyang legs. i was the one who got him back, at oo. mejo hinihika pa ko nun. kamusta naman.

o, i hope my shem in college [i.e., that person whom you're with all the time pwede kayong hanapin ng mga tao sa isa't isa - but this one didn't get suspicions of brokebackish tendencies], thea is reading my blog. hindi lang sa additional visits na marrecord [=D] pero dahil sadyang tamad akong magkwento ng aking buhay. but im glad she liked the design, kaibigan ko nga talaga siya. isa ka ring bakla thea b.

pi, i really was looking forward to seeing you last sataday. wala lang. ill miss you. =)

disclaimer: hindi brokebackish yun. wala lang. naalala ko yung text ni mel last week:

first screen: dun sya....

second screen: wish your girlfriend was hot like me. dun sya...

at kinailangan ko xang takuting magsusumbong kay mumiel. hahaha.

at miss bungisngis, na ngayon ay naghohost ng orsem. siguro nga't mitigated ang loser status mo nung birthday ni shem, pero hindi ba dapat na offset ang mitigation na yon sa fact na wala ka na naman nung sabado [i.e. celeb ni shem]? at bakit ka ganyan, mahal din ako ni paopao. [insert bitarnes here.] gusto ko sa birthday ko kasama xa sa surprise. =D

sayang cute pa naman ng cake. disney princesses. ako si sleeping beauty. =p

stream of consciousness

2006-05-28T17:42:00.000+08:00

ill never get over it.

bigla na lang akong magbbreakdown isang araw, itatanong sa unang bituin na makikita ko, na kung bakit hindi niya ako pinagbigyan.

bigla na lang akong iiyak for no reason at all.

pero buhay pa ako. ngumingiti. at oo, gaya ng fave song of the moment ko, i must be invincible.

****
it will still remain, my dears. ironically kami ni mumiel lang ang nagsalo sa isang indepth na usapan tungkol sa buhay sa teneo. napagkasunduan namin na whatever happens, we'll still be here for you guys, because we are hoping that favor would be returned to us as well.

kaya nga ako nffrustrate. gustong kong tumulong sa orsem pero alam kong may hanganan ang maibibigay ko. bakit ba kasi eh. damn you lack of focus.

pero settled fact na yon. nasa teneo ang puso ko.

****
salamat sa wedding ni dorts, naging babae akong muli.

madami akong natutunan about myself [i.e., i want a 7am wedding, ang registry ko ay sa rustans din, i want my wedding to be personal] na hindi ko naman inaasahang malaman.

at, minsan mo lang makita ang law students na maOBSESS sa usapang shoes dresses make up. moments like that, we treasure.

****
[tinatamad na ko. nffrustrate pk sa ktb k d2.] hay. naninibago ako, walang update si euns. hay.

hay.

2006-05-11T11:19:00.000+08:00

hindi pwede sa orsem ang hindi mag-eenroll next sem.

do you know how heartbreaking that is?

dammit. isa pa naman yun sa mga pangarap ko. ang mag advice sa frosh ng als na mahirap na masaya ang buhay sa teneo. na first impression ng buong klase ang key kay cande, na first impression sa iyo ang key kay fr b, na si vannie ay nagpapala salle day, na si fr lito ang coolest guidance counselor ever, na useless mag-aral kay fr ferrer, na small but terrible si manong father hwwaaaks obieta, na natuto akong makipagbet sa als dahil kay chu, na si maita ay isang bitch na mabait na magsasave sa iyo sa delibs habang nakaglittery top.

aaaargg.

drama, drama, drama.

2006-05-04T11:30:00.001+08:00

p*tangna. hindi ko pa binubuksan ang email, nawawala na ang puso ko. hindi na ko humihinga, p*tangna.

kanina pinigil ko lang. muntik na kong umiyak. nung nabasa kong secretly nagnovena for her ang parents ni euns. bakit kasi i keep things to myself until such time when it gets fucked up tsaka lang malalaman ng mga dapat makaalam.

p*tangna. ayokong umasa. pero napaasa lang ako kagabi. not your fault, dears. just hearing that people that i care about got good grades sort of gave me hope that i might be lucky also. pero ayoko. ayoko.

in a few moments as i open that email my life will change. oo nga, hindi naman siguro kalubusan yung humingi sa langit ng himala.

judgment day.

2006-05-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

shit.

i dunno why im here, blogging, and reading yahoo mails.

but like what i promised myself, ill be opening it tomorrow. kapag dumaan at lumipas na ang bagyo.

please.

nobody text me about anything about it. nagpapakamanhid ako. sooner or later, bibigay ako at magbbreakdown.

kung magkikita tayo sa 15, good. kung hindi, wish me the best.

luck everyone.

the hardest week.

2006-05-01T18:12:00.000+08:00

im actually relieved right now. relieved because in a way im assured that im human.

im actually teary eyed. yep, here in the mall.

finally. for weeks i went on living my life as if everything's ok. that i dont have to face my worst fear ever on may 3. actually. even during the finals ive openly admitted to the fact that i didnt feel anything --- wasnt scared, nervous, anxious at all about the finals. twas only after consti finals that i finally showed emotions of regret, of despair, of giving up.

that was successfully drowned by the sighs of relief and feeling of temporary freedom from school i and my friends shared. the seawater in batangas and a couple of lights helped a hell lot too.

then i came back to my bumming around mode. twas hard, im telling you: holy wednesday, the third official day of summer, was when i finally cracked and admitted that i cant be a bum no more. for a year i was trained to deal with stress and now i just dont want to stop. i even actually considered starting to cross stitch again.

the communication between me and duh perm is still constant, awa ng diyos. all we kept talking about are dorts' wedding and some matters of the heart. we just purposely avoid the topic of may 3.

why am i recapping the days of summer? because we're now here: the hardest week. i am unsure whether after wednesday i can still go on living like this. heck, i havent even talked to them about this yet. i just hope they know it already, with me dragging my sister around for my novena and all. i cant bear tell them that horrible, horrible possibility: that i wont, cant. go back to my little new york.

i can still smile. but i feel my tears lined up and ready to fall come wednesday. God please make them tears of joy. i beg of you.

it's like knowing the exact date of your death, yet you consciously, purposely opted not to prepare yourself and the people around you for it. and now, here you are, two days to go, with nothing but despair in your heart.

pour le muffin.
The Hardest Day
The Corrs feat Alejandro Sanz

One more day, one last look
Before I leave it all behind
And play the role that's meant for us
That said we'd say goodbye

One more night (one more night) by your side (by your side)
Where our dreams collide
And all we have is everything
And there's no pain there's no hurt
There's no wrong it's all right

If I promise to believe will you believe
That there's nowhere that we'd rather be
Nowhere describes where we are
Ive no choice, I love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye

And all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
And nothing in this worlds gonna change, change

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life
The hardest day of my life

I still breathe (I still breathe), I still eat (I still eat)
And the sun it shines the same as it did yesterday
But there's no warmth, no light
I feel empty inside

But I never will regret a single day
I know it isn't going to go away
What I'm feeling (I'm feeling) for you
I will always love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye (love you wave goodbye)

And all, and all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
Nothing (nothing) in this world's gonna change...

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
I never knew I'd ever feel this way
I feel for you...

a lonely sap.

2006-04-24T13:08:00.000+08:00

im here in alabang, i was volunteered to be ivy's driver for the day. i didnt have the right to reklamo because i was back to my old self [i.e. bumming around and staying late with the lovely people of duh perm] last thur and friday.

i loved friday. we were incomplete, yes, but meeting once in a while is a good idea. pepe, sana lang talaga hindi kami ipagpalit sa kotse sa rekto. at hazel, maswerte ka. nagkatamarang iambush visit ka nung thur. dahil sa iyo nappeer pressure tuloy kaming lahat na magpaderma para sa wedding.

that's why i loved friday. for the first and hopefully not the last time we girls talked about our strategy for dorts' wedding. hindi lang talaga ako pwedeng magpink dahil sasayaw na naman kaming seniors kung ganun.

mumiel's the cutest ever [yeee brokebackish]. we were still in starbs pero nagtatanung na next gimik. hay mumskipaps, sana lang may right pa akong magpaalam for another gimik. sana lang.

***
sataday. nung dumating si dad, eto ang bungad: ano daw ba ang opinyon ko, kung ang kotseng pagamit kay ivy for her driving lessons ay pajero. kung pajero ang pagagamit sa kanya sa driving school, yun ay dahil pajero ang iddrive nya.

anu ang ginawa ng batang hindi na masyado kulot?

sininghalan ang kanyang ama.

ayon sa mga nakasaksi [i.e. ivy and cici] para daw akong nagpapractice as if nasa korte kami [i wish.]. saya di ba.

ang mga rason ko: nope, hierarchy ang dapat sistema sa bahay, si shem lancer ang dinadrive so anung difference nun kung city ang idrive ni beng, at ang mga ate talaga ang dapat taga break in ng mga bagong kotse.

apparently my dad admitted na natalo ko siya. nakakatakot pero inamin niya.

at inaway [i.e. tinapatan ang panininghal ko] ako ni mom dahil dahil sa kin, malungkot ang labidabs niya.

****
sunday. wala akong jeans, so i wore a skirt to mass. at, guess what.

pinagdrive ako ng pajero.

yeeee.

i swear. diyes lang tlga speed ko. nakakadiri.

but twas fun. my mom and tita myrna who i think never trusted me whenever im driving her couldn't smile properly, but twas fun.

****
monday. as in today. earlier today. as i went inside the parking my car was yet again, almost hit. this time left side mirror naman ang muntik nang mawala. pano?

gago kasi yung crv. alternate nga ang pagpasok e. dapat pinagbigyan na nya ko. pero hindi, gago pa rin. pinauna ko na rin naman, eventually. kasi naman, sinigawan ko siya i think in front of his family. he kept on saying "may pila kasi e, di ba". ah b.s.. hindi ako moron. may pila but there's such a thing as alternate na pagpasok. wag niya kong subukang lecturan sa pagiging masunuring mamamayan dahil im sure, if he was in my position, ipapasok niya rin yun.

ssssh.

dammit, bumming around makes me a ditz.

2006-04-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

mahal ko na ang aking gym. dahil may net na.(!!!!!) hahahaha.

down nga lang ang yahoo at nde makapagfriendster, but it still rocks y'all. [hindi bagay aaarg.]

ditzy moment of the day: papunta kay ivy sa treadmill. the one beside her was empty so i stepped on it. at huwala, nabalik ako sa ulirat. UMAANDAR SIYA!

apparently the guy beside ivy wanted to save that machine. pero seryoso ang stupid to leave the damn machine on without him using it. naiintindihan kong he needed to save it, madaming tao talga, pero pwede namang iwan ang towel or pitsel dun. e pano kung natuluyan akong maaksidente dun? seryoso ang kinatakutan ko talaga ay kung pano kung matamaan ang face ko. vain, superficial i know. but there. he's so stupid i hope he slips also.

hehehe. sori. wasnt able to warn you abt the ranting.

nakakapikon yung isang girl. nakaupo lang siya sa parang bike at... nanunuod ng american idol. [p.s. dreamy si ace!!!! aaaah. kaso meron siyang bun. nakabun ang buhok. sadyang mali yun, iho.] as in, sa buong stay ko sa treadmill isa o dalawang beses lang siyang nagpedal. at pagkatapos ng ai, umalis na.

so sad.

gtg. im starving.

pagbula ng bibig.

2006-04-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

gaaaaad.

yun lang.

nakakapikon ang walang net sa bahay. andami ko nang kwento, pramis.

1. finals
2. after finals party at anton's
3. batangas w duh perm
4. ang pagbigay ng aking fanbelt
5. pinakapaborito kong legwrit
6. meeting the clan
7. ang ambush visit ng duh perm
8. cross stitching
9. tagaytay
10. gluttony
11. batangas part 2
12. psych session w nes

ayan. ililista ko na muna, dahil wala akong time to kwento all of them.

basta:
fafajo, kelangan natin ng qt.
nes and gly, may utang pa kayo sa aking movie.
sha, rhes and tin, may utang pa kayong coffee.
college people, dinner tayo one time.
duh perm, kelangan natin ng gd. at oo, kelangan icoordinate ang gowns para sa wedding ni dorts.

yeee.

kung saan ako masaya.

2006-04-08T11:52:00.000+08:00

nagtatype si shemia para sa blog nya for the first time in how many months. galit na naman ang red nails sa pagpush ng mga keys. nakakatakot.

this is the last day. yes i'm in denial but this is the last day.

i want to take a stroll around the school. four floors lang naman. just to have closure. just to say goodbye.

gusto ko talaga eh, gusto ko. hindi ko lang alam kung pwede pa.

pero ansaya. dati ko pa naman sinasabi pero totoo, ansaya. adik adik ang buhay mo dito; sobrang bipolarish: work hard party hard. iiyak tatawa pagkatapos. babagsak ang puso mo tapos bigla kang mabubuhayan ng loob. ito yung gusto ko eh, nararamdaman ko dito kung gano kaimportante ang buhay ko. dahil araw-araw nabubuhay ako.

duh perm. salamat. mga nanay ko talaga kayo. a crazy girl like me wouldn't have the chance to know how to live life without crazy, beautiful friends like you.

sa lahat ng nakapagpasaya sa akin this sem, kung mamamatay na ako ngayon, maswerte ako. dahil ngayon, nakangiti ako.

cheerios.

yes. i'm so sick of love songs too.

2006-04-06T10:51:00.000+08:00

kanina paggising ko akala ko sabado na. nakakatamad eh. hindi pa nga ako sigurado kung babangon ako.

pero hindi. andito na ko sa school. salamat sa magaling na prof na yan, andito ako at nagbibilang ng mga maaari.

i really feel incomplete. kulang lahat. ang batangas, ang time spent with them, ang kotse, ang lahat. aaarg.

pwede bang dito na lang ako forever.

aaarg.

2006-03-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

wrong decisions.

i'm a fan of making 'em.

i wore my palest maong, and guess what. it rained. now 1/4 of my pants [have lesion. haha.] is officially disgustingly soaked.

and i saw an old batchmate's friendster profile. gaaad she looks rested and glamorous and happy. well. they've always been like that anyway. i just, unconsciously compare myself to them. and i hate it, i hate it.

apparently i still have the ugly little duckling inside me.

blah.

i don't know na how to study.

2006-03-23T14:36:00.000+08:00

oo. dumudugo ang ilong ko.

isang malaking kompetisyon ang makipag-agawan ng seats [operative word yan - kilala na ata ako ditong nangsasave ng as many as six cubicles in a given day] at makipagtalastasan sa mga tao sa library. gaya ng babaeng nagsambit ng title ng entry ko.

bibigay muna ako sa temptasyon.

kahit ilang minuto lang.

ngayon ko lang narealize. gustung gusto ko ang sem na ito. definitely mas relaxed at fun-filled.

wala talaga akong rason para bumigay ngayon. napakadali ng buhay ko these past six months.

ngayon. habang dumadaan ang jowa ni bungisngis, sige na. go cramming. =)

cheerios, my dears.

ang puso ni shem ay nagLOA.

2006-03-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

nakakapagod. wala palang dj mix chocolate. borriinngg.

gusto ko ulit panuorin ang brokeback mountain. at oo, wala yung tinge ng pagiging perv. feeling ko kasi nasslow na ako i have to watch movies twice just to get all there is to get.

dito sa brokeback. i wanna watch it again. make them remove the texas accent. i wanna get it. feeling ko maganda talga eh. i feel i would've been crying because of the movie had i understood all there is to understand.

loved it too. i wish i know how to quit you. and, sometimes i miss you so much i can't take it anymore, or something.

i will lay down my heart, and i will feel the power, but you won't.

waterbed.

2006-03-09T13:41:00.000+08:00

i just want to float in the sea, think while looking at the noon sky, listen to music, while smoking dj mix chocolate.

take a stand.

2006-03-02T11:39:00.000+08:00

sa tingin ko kelangan magpasalamat ng buong law school community sa mga promotor ng kaguluhan nung friday, dahil kung hindi dahil sa kanila, hindi mabuburyo si father b.

he now has his own blog. and he updates it pretty much every day since.... hmmm. tuesday.

so i'm taking what i said back. hindi kaburyuhan. he just knows he can reach more people by having his own blog.

naalala ko pa, i watched the phone-patch or something interview that he gave mike enriquez nung friday. as always his voice would be fit and swak [haha] for the radio. at the end of the interview he told mike,

o, don't get arrested now ha.

and guess what. mike enriquez let out a laugh that's so embarassing. para siyang batang babaeng kinilig.

*bowing, while saying "im not worthy, im not worthy."*

at ang nirefer ni father-slash-manong-slash-sir obieta na article ni teodoro locsin. hindi ko pa siya nababasa nang buo dahil gutom na ako pero so far, so good.

fathers.

2006-03-02T11:15:00.000+08:00

i watched the passion of the christ last night. despite the trauma i went through the first time i saw it, i still watched it.

hindi ako nagpapaipokrita; but something inside me told me that even if i'm not a devout catholic i should do my obligations to the church.

and it felt good ha. doing what you're supposed to do. it's for you rin naman at the end of the day.

there. so. i watched it. i thought i'd be numb about it already; fine, desensitized. but no. i changed the channel nung scourging na [it still breaks me into pieces just remembering kung panu muntik nang marip off ng hook ng weapon yung flesh Niya], and i was crying when He was nailed to the cross. i don't think the movie will ever lose its power to wake people up from apathy.

it was still there: i was still praying that He won't look at the camera dun sa last scene. his unique brown-yellowy eyes are nangungusap. [great, now i type like a cono - is the acp tuloy on friday? =p] mga ilang beses din akong nagwonder throughout the film, if i can just look at those eyes, maybe i can get a glimpse of what he's thinking at that very moment.

~~~~
daddy and mommy went to mindoro yesterday to attend some event in the school in front of lola's house. they left at 3am, noticed the pajero's machine was maingay, so borrowed my car and parked it in batangas port. by 4 in the afternoon they're back na in laguna, checking up on the businesses. ang galing di ba, parang pumunta lang sa makati ang mag-asawa.

the mekaniko said the fanbelt's the problem in his car, but it'd take him only two hours at most to have it fixed. so until this morning we weren't sure if i can bring my car to school.

but then tuesday night, upon waiving for the first time since i officially brought the car to school my choice to drive myself to school, this was what i said [which i couldn't even remember, kamusta naman ang pagdedeliryo]:

sige Ma, hindi ako magddrive bukas. pero kailangan sa thursday magdrive na ako.

fine, not that takilyalistik, i know. but when i woke up this morning i heard mom's voice and i was expecting that i'll be dropped off by the van. but no.

Mom: you can bring the car. nahiya daw si dad sa iyo eh.

tsktsktsk.
it would freak me out more had they full-tanked the car. [hehe. yeah right.]
gaaad. why are they so nice.

ang galing ni shem!

2006-03-02T11:06:00.000+08:00

current cd in my car: duh perm's "what's-your-favorite-song-tell-me-now-or-else-you'll-get-hurt" cd made lovingly by shemumiel.

may kasama pang vcd ng theo report, complete with behind the scenes! [hingi na kayo bago niya pa maisipang lagyan ng price =p]

magagaling pala tayong pumili mga dears. [taps each member's shoulder]

dahil eto ang last song nung nagpark ako, hala. enjoy.

Trouble Sleeping
The Perishers

I'm having trouble sleeping
You're jumping in my bed
Twisting in my head
Leave me

I'm having trouble breathing
You'e sitting on my chest
I sure could use the rest
Leave me

It's you
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never dared to let
my feelings free
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never cared
too much about honesty

I'm having trouble sleeping
I'm thinking of what you said
About the tears been shed
Leave me

It's you
Now and always you
but never me
I've never dared to
let my feelings free
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never cared
too much about honesty

ehem, ehem. mumiel?

kamusta naman.

2006-03-01T15:56:00.000+08:00

1. i have the ugliest pasa ever in the back of my right knee. nalimutan ko na ang tawag dun ni fafajo. anyway. monday night i slept while trying to numb the pain [and the paranoia] because my right knee started to cramp. baka hindi ako makapagdrive. or worse, baka bigla akong magcramp while driving [which, incidentally, is another great fear of mine.]

2. woke up ok, so i drove myself to school. normal. come after lunch i started not feeling well, i.e., mabigat ang katawan at head aches.

3. fafajo cancelled our anniv celeb. hay buhay.

4. oblicon. feverish na ako. i made mom fetch me to have the ugliest pasa ever checked. i was almost about to cut logic, pero wala lang.

5. went to the emergency. lied down in one of their beds. took a blood test [while thinking, kelangan ba nila ng consent ko to get a sample of my blood? hindi ba violation of human rights yun?]

yon. after the four day long weekend, after four days of pagbubuhay baboy [at paghahanap ng regalo for fafajo], nagkasakit ako. i had to pay just for a doctor to tell me i have trangkaso. i had to give samples of my blood just to get a "don't worry, you're normal" result.

whoah.

sige.

2006-02-14T10:52:00.000+08:00

dapat natutulog na ako ngayon e.

pero hindi. kelangang maging mahirap maghanap ng examples ng fallacies of ambiguity.

nanai just texted me, greeting me for today's uhm, occassion. she said she made chocolate truffles for her ahm, lovey dovey. hehe =p she also asked me what are my plans for today.

all i said was, im gonna pretend to be nerd.

nothing wrong with fafajo or today. ako'y sadyang tinatamad.

at napupurga sa ambiguity.

nakakaisa pa lang kami ni ana ha, btw. isang babae pa lang na may dalang bouquet.

where is the love people. where is it.

hoop.

2006-02-09T13:27:00.000+08:00

played badminton yesterday with some of the lovely people of duh perm.

missed it.

i think i twisted my left ankle though. i can imagine how i looked like when that happened: nag aayyy habang nalalaglag. ang tanging sinasabi ko lang, hindi ako pwede masprain ngayon, magddrive ako.

sadyang nakakadiri.

and i think nabugbug ko ang something sa right hand ko, at may pabaon pang pasa sa right leg.

kewl.

i believe in fairies. i do, i do.

2006-02-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

my current last phrase syndrome torturer.

finally. for the first time, i was allowed to bring the car to school.

di ba, di ba. buhay pa naman ako di ba.

nagsimula last week. wednesday ata, dad fetched me. paglagpas ng tollgate, may nakita kaming nahuli ng mmda ng laguna =p several seconds after that,
upon reaching the intersection, naputol ang lull moment:

Dad: anong gagawin mo kung nahuli ka ng pulis?

kahit na dapat blow siya sa ego [dahil he's assuming that i'll get caught] i considered it a good sign. hindi pa pala nasisira ang confidence niya sa akin.

yeeeeeeeeeee.

so lesson in getting caught by dad:
a. makipagdebate about the violation. convince him that you didn't commit the violation. kelangang magaling umarte at magsinungaling sa stage na to.
b. magbanggit ng relative na may connection.
c. if all else fails, ask for the ticket, instead of giving him lagay. this one's my personal fave. if only i can remember the name of that case.

then saturday, kuya nas fetched me. tatanungin ko sana kung magandang sign yun na nilecturan ako ni dad sa getting caught nang bigla niya cinonfirm, pagdadalhin na ako ng car.

yeeeeeeeeeee.

ansaya. tuesday night when mom was fixing everybody's scheds nahiritan ako ng isa sa mga cherished hirits ko of all time:

Dad[nung nalamang sa kanya pa rin ako sasabay]: e bakit hindi ka na lang magkotse?

yeeeeeeeeeee. =D

tapos last night i was half excited, half pissed off because mom sort of tried to stop me from driving today. masyado daw mahal ang bayad sa mga drivers. magpadrive na lang ako. i was bitchy at her, may i just say.

pero nagwagi ang confidence ni dad. last night when he got home mom told him about me planning to bring the car today. he didn't say a thing. tapos kanina, one of the reasons why i woke up so damn early was because i was sort of expecting to hear him refuse to let me bring the car.

pero hindi.

Mom: dad, dadalhin niya daw ang kotse.
Dad: so, kung magdadala siya.

isa pang yeeeeeeeeeee. [nakakadiri na ito.]

i almost brought the car yesterday, but mom stopped me from doing so, apparently because nangangamoy pintura pa rin ang kotse. my rationalization for that was,

i smashed the car on a wednesday.

and yes, yesterday was another wednesday.

but i'm telling you, my drive kanina wasn't a breeze. ilalabas ko pa lang ang kotse when i realized, dang, totoo na to. i was freaking scared that i might hit again the gates with my side mirror, i had to be reminded by the maid to breathe and take things seriously. it also freaked me out a little upon realizing that dammit, i just called myself darling.

valuable lesson in life that i've learned from driving, number one: stop taking the easy way out.

parking na lang. haha.

~~~~
upon arriving earlier today, i went to the washroom to try to wake myself up. may kasabay akong isang girl, wala lang. suddenly she talks to me.

G:ahm, excuse me, anung year mo na?
Y:first year.
G:ah. kamukha mo si kitchie nadal.
Y:huh? [half laugh]
G:oo. oy, favorite ko yun ha. sabi ko kung makakasabay ko yung girl na yun sa washroom sasabihin kong kamukha niya si kitchie.

turned out she's a senior. until the time she left i was still contemplaining on whether,

a. that was a compliment, which i should say thank you for, and
b. i really look like a lesbian.

hay.

hindi ako bakla. babae ako.

to end this na [because i want to go to the washroom and look for my fan, hehe] one of my current faves.

lagi mo na lang akong dinededma
rocksteddy

Mahal kita pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabihin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw

Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalita wala

Pero hindi ako torpe
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita titgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan

Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan oo o hindi

Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa

Mahal kita, pero di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit lagi mo na lang akong dinededma

a moment of procrastination, and i ain't proud of it.

2006-01-27T13:55:00.000+08:00

1. ang midterms ay tapos na, finally. pero hindi ako proud. andun pa rin ang sakit kong hirap magconcentrate at gustong manira ng sariling buhay at ambisyon. nakakabwiset.

surprisingly, i found logic's exam pleasurable. halata sa aking handwriting, napakalegible. nakakadiri.

2. nagpakulot na ako, finally. yup, it may seem as if everyday's my debut or wedding day, pero what the heck. i love it. padigiperm ka rin bala ka.

3. wala na ako makwento. morow na lang.

sana naman.

2006-01-26T13:25:00.000+08:00

Nobela
Join The Club

ngumiti kahit na napipilitan
kahit pa sinasadya
mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan
kahit sandali na lang
tulad mo ba akong nahihirapan
lalu't naiisip ka
di ko na kaya pang kalimutan
bawat sandali na lang

at aalis magbabalik
at uulitin sa muli
mamahalin ka't sambitin
kahit muli masaktan
sa pag-alis
ako'y magbabalik
sana naman

sa isang marikit na alaala'y
pangitaing kay ganda
sana nga'y pagbigyan
na ng tadhana
bawat sandali na lang
sumabay sa biglang pagkabahala't
lumabis sa pananadya
tunay na pagsilan alintana
bawat sandali na lang

at aalis magbabalik
at uulitin sa muli
mamahalin kasambitib
kahit muli masaktan
sa pag-alis
ako'y magbabalik
sana naman

ngumiti kahit na napipilitan
kahit pa sinasadya
mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan
bawat sandali

at aalis magbabalik
at uulitin sa muli
mamahalin kasambitib
kahit muli masaktan
sa pag-alis
ako'y magbabalik
sana naman

ako ay nagbalik. [sadly, sa tono ni la lopez]

2006-01-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

para sayo, bungisngis. dahil nallss ako sa kanta ni pacquiao. digiperm day morow!

*Yves, in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Kiss the Prince

You don't need the pouffy dress, the fancy hair, or the 3-inch glass heels. A romantic soul like you just wants a guy who's a true companion, a good friend, a real prince. And if he's hot? All the better. But ultimately, you know that home is where the heart is. Which is probably why you surround yourself with good friends you can take care of and laugh with — friends who will do the same for you.

But that doesn't keep you from fantasizing about the perfect relationship. It's not that you don't have your feet firmly planted on the ground. It's just that you're not afraid to shoot high. Or wish upon a shooting star. So keep reaching for your goals, Cinderella. If you do, your happily ever after can't be far away. And you can seal that with a kiss.

**Yves, you're more sinful than the average person.

And it's affecting your life in ways you might not realize. For one thing, if you aren't careful, your drive to excel at all costs may ultimately be your downfall. Feeling good about your successes might be a gratifying way to acknowledge your work and position in life. Still, you, in particular, should beware of prioritizing your achievements above other things and using them as a way to feel superior to others.

If you continue to do so, you might find yourself jeopardizing the things that are most important to you.

**Yves, your Intelligence makes you a real beauty

There's nothing more beautiful than a good head on your shoulders. Witty and wise, you're never short on interesting conversation or an informed opinion. You like to stay on top of what's going on around you. From world events to local hot spots, you don't wanna miss a beat.

But all those smarts don't mean your nose is in a book all day. You're a friendly soul who knows how to have a good time and whoop it up. From grabbing a casual dinner with friends to checking out a hip, new art exhibit, you're not afraid to have a little fun. What could be smarter than that?

**Yves, your love story is Meant-to-Be

As luck would have it, your love life seems to be written in the heavens. Whether you fell in love at first sight or kept running into each other everywhere you went, it looks like you and your sweetie were meant for each other.

Romantic and starry-eyed, you believe in the clutch of love and the spell that's been cast on you and your amour. But more than that, it's your strong will and unwavering hopefulness that'll make sure you and your honey continue as a match made in heaven, no matter what twists and turns Lady Luck throws your way. And that's something we're willing to bet on!

**Yves, you're a Bossy Brat

Large and in charge — that's what you hope to be. And while it's never a bad idea to have a little ambition, you'll do what it takes to get to the top. Unfortunately, it's not always the best way to make friends. Try to remember that life's all about give and take. And sometimes, you have to listen to other people's ideas, especially before you, uh, borrow them.

Being CEO of everything doesn't mean you've gotta step on other people's toes. So, slow down, cowboy. Take a big, long breath. Ahhhh. Doesn't that feel better?

**Yves, your self-esteem could use A Little Boost

Whatever. OK, so maybe you're not a total wastoid, but you might have a touch of slacker in you. While marching to the beat of your own drummer is great, being apathetic isn't going to get you anywhere.

Maybe you don't worry about consequences or maybe you just don't care. Either way, showing passion for your interests and taking care of yourself are two ways you can feel happier every day! When you find something you can put your energy toward — besides sleeping or being negative — you'll find that life is that much more interesting, and you will be, too! So take a more active interest in school, a hobby, a job, or some other activity that inspires you, and you'll see your self-esteem soar.

**Yves, you follow your heart when it comes to romance

Whether you planned it or not, you just can't help but follow your feelings when it comes to matters of l'amour. You're a passionate person who can't ignore things that fit you to a T — whether it's that perfect pair of jeans, a good cause, or the love of a lifetime.

Sure, things don't always go according to plan, but with an irrepressible drive like yours, you'd better get used to it! Living life as a fake just isn't in the cards for you. So open up your arms and embrace what life throws your way — especially if it happens to be the man of your dreams!

**Yves, you are most afraid of moving forward

Have you ever noticed that you're more concerned about making the "right" decisions than many people around you when it comes to your future? Or do you sometimes worry more than you should about committing to your personal or professional goals or feel anxious that you'll never really be successful? If so, you're not alone. There are many people who share your fear of moving forward.

It can be a real strength to recognize your fears. By being aware of the things that frighten you, you can assess whether fear is helping you or negatively impacting your life. For instance, a fear of moving forward may sometimes motivate you to take action in a positive way, like by experiencing a wider variety of things than others.

However, fear's negative aspects can sometimes be more damaging than you realize. Living with fear not only prevents you from living life to the fullest; it can also have a significant negative impact on your energy, health, and your close relationships if not kept in check.

**Yves, your Attitude makes you bewitching
You know what they say — attitude is everything. And in your case, it's certainly one of your finest and most alluring characteristics.

Leave the complications to other people. You know how to keep things lighthearted and upbeat. A free-spirit, you don't sweat the small stuff and prefer to take things in stride. Cheerful and laidback, you light up any room, party, or boring meeting with your dazzling personality — without even twinkling your nose. And that's bewitching. Keep it up!

**Yves, your Confidence makes you luminous

Being comfortable in your own skin isn't easy, but you're a natural. You prove that smart and sexy can come wrapped up in the same beautiful package.

Calm and collected, you've got your feet on the ground and a good head on your shoulders. And even in the craziest of times, people feel at ease around you. Whether you're heading up a board meeting or a bake sale, being a leader just comes easily to you. So go ahead and take charge. Everyone will be glad you did!

AT ANG PINAKADISTURBING SA LAHAT. AS IN.

**Yves, you're a Total Opening Very Soon!

CONGRATULATIONS, and make sure to put Tickle on the guest list! Start making your plans now. We have calculated your responses according to our scientific formula and harmonized the results to the Venutian lunar calendar. If you are not already attached, keep in mind that all men who cross your path may be grooms in disguise.

YOU WILL BE MARRIED BY: Saturday, September 6, 2008
A number of different factors influenced your result. Check out the details below.

Social Factors

On the social front, you are not looking at an immediate marriage prospect. Prince Charming, for now, is waiting in the wings. But keep in mind that he is slowly warming to the idea. Thankfully, now that you know your destiny, you can enjoy your single life to the fullest. Get out there and use it, girl.

Emotional Factors

Emotionally, you seem to be fairly ready for marriage. You show strong signs of being a contender, and you've got what it takes to make the plunge. Maybe any hesitation is just a small case of the "jitters." In any case, for Mr. Right, it's practically a done deal. He's just waiting for the right moment, so sit back and let it happen.

Sexual Factors

You have very few sexually motivated reasons for avoiding marriage. Of course, the carefree single life can pose a strong attraction, but you probably prefer the thought of devoting yourself to one person. It's true that there are a lot of unsolved mysteries out there, but once you've found the right person, it's time to close shop. Congratulations on having the strength and security to know what's right for you.

isa ka pa.

2006-01-12T18:36:00.000+08:00

swak.

huling bagsak bago magmidterms.

Bad Day
Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day

feelingera ka kasi.

2006-01-12T10:15:00.000+08:00

1. hindi nakadepende sa iyo ang lahat.

2. binabasa dapat ang dissenting opinion ng case na nakaassign sa iyo for voluntary recit.

3. hindi na pinipilit ipark ang kotse kapag hindi ka naman talaga expected gawin iyon; at kapag hindi ka sanay.

kanina, habang nagdadrama ako sa harap Niya, eto ang naisip kong kanta.

para sa iyo to, yves. [hehe schizo alert]

Didn't We Almost Have It All
Whitney Houston

Remember when we held on in the rain
The night we almost lost it
Once again we can take the night into tomorrow
Living on feelings
Touching you I feel it all again

Chorus:
Didn’t we almost have it all
When love was all we had worth giving?
The ride with you was worth the fall my friend
Loving you makes life worth living
Didn’t we almost have it all
The night we held on till the morning
You know you’ll never love that way again
Didn’t we almost have it all

The way you used to touch me felt so fine
We kept our hearts together down the line
A moment in the soul can last forever
Comfort and keep us
Help me bring the feeling back again

Chorus

Didn’t we have the beat of times
When love was young and new?
Couldn’t we reach inside and find
The world of me and you?
We’ll never lose it again
Cause once you know what love is
You never let it end

Chorus

adik.

2006-01-07T15:23:00.000+08:00

grabe.

dalawang linggo lang iyon ha. dalawang linggo ng walang blogging. bakit parang ilang taon na ang lumipas?

hmmm.

oo. hindi ko matatapos ang lahat-lahat ng dapat kong ikwento. maladyosang tao lang ako. but.

so.

1. adik
nakakatuwa ang wansi. o well, settled fact. i finally found the type of, uhm, clique that i've been looking for ever since: ang mga taong adik sa pag-aaral, at mas adik sa pagpaparty. gaya nga ng dati pang naikwento ng seniors ng duh perm, first time in my life that i had to attend to non-stop parties for christmas. lasing sa softdrinks at yellow cab. at oo, yung last party lang ang walang bahid ng magic sing. nakakatawa.

nakakatuwa ang mga taong eto, they know how to live life. kaya nahahawa na ako sa inyo eh. apir mga dears. =)

pero hanggang ngayon, nawawala pa rin ang regalo ko galing sa aking daddy. ilang linggo na lang, pwede na kitang ipakulam hehe. uubusin ko na ang chickboom firecrackers.

2. run forrest, run
street's christmas party last 24, in front of our house. i went out to give my gifts to nes and gly. when we were about to go to gly's na, biglang sumbigaw si nes:

"si chito!!!"

at biglang dumaan sa harap namin ang maliit na malafloor rug na batang baklang sa sobrang bilis ng takbo akala mo para siyang presong nakatakas sa kulungan.

ano ang aking instant reaction? tumakbo. at oo, kagagaling ko pa lang sa sakit.

the thing was, the whole time i was chasing him, i was shouting at him. it went from a firm and snobbish "chito, stop it!" to a pleading and half-crying "tama na chito!".

i was scared when we reached the end of the street kasi by then there were no more lights. the only lighted thing that i had that time was my phone.

how did we get him? he has this habit of peeing whenever he passes by the kanto of the street. at oo, nun ko lang nalaman yun.

that incident repeated a couple of days after that. but that time i was cool as ever; kung ayaw na niya sa atin, ayaw na niya.

right.

3. christmas
sabi ko sa inyo eh, ayaw ko ng christmas. well, i prefer new year over it. anyway.

when nes gly ivy rj and i attended the misa de gallo, we had to endure torture. torture in the sense that we were reminded that we have to get bored for a couple of dreadful minutes before finally getting it on with the mass. ang torture na eto ay tinatawag na play.

oo, bitter ako sa kanila. bitter ako kasi frustrated sila. lahat na ata ng special event, expect a play to be performed. what saddens me is, it never changes. it's about a family. somebody dies or gets sick. and we should learn something about it.

this year, the play about christmas featured a real baby. throughout the entire mass the so-called family had to stay in the manger na may nakatapat na electric fan sa baby. kamusta naman, pulmonya.

next year talga magpapasurvey na ako. kung gusto ba ng mga tao ang mga play na ito.

the following morning, christmas day. what i got for christmas from my parents?

teddy bear.

yes, i am 21.

when dad opened his gift from me, which was a cute leather puppy na card holder at may kasama pa talagang clip holder na parang lalagyan nga ng food ng dogs, he immediately gave it to my mom, tamang-tama daw sa kanyang office. great.

then a pldt guy came, ipapaayos daw ang other line. he was cranky and grumpy and old and impatient. we were just waiting for my parents' call to tell us what to have the guy fixed pero the guy left as if nothing happened.

then fafajo said he's arriving by ten. but then he woke up at ten. =)

fafajo's case i understand. well, he made me understand. loving the scent bebi. pero the other things that happened. kagimbalan.

4. new year
yan. ang preferred holiday ko. loved the fireworks, as always. kicked ass sabi nga ni ivy. have to give cheerios to my mom. this year, even if i wasn't able to buy with her the fireworks even if days before i specifically told her that i'm coming with her once she buys the fireworks, the paputok that she bought were fun. next year, tatalunin na natin sila tito teddy.

twas also the first time for me and my sister to attend an anticipated mass for new year without our parents. yup, adik sa business. the disturbing part of the whole thing is what nes' mom said after the mass. her mom, being the eternally delighted creature, said this when she saw me and ivy:

"ah, wala mommy and daddy nyo! [plus isang mapanglait na halakhak]"

oo. nakakapangliit yun.

will always remember what i texted my friends as my greeting for the new year. in the midst of greetings such as "cheers to the new year" and "may you have more blessings in the coming year", i proudly yet truthfully sent this:

"i just realized, i love the smell of firecrackers."

hmmm.

5. ang pagiging bloated ay hindi pagiging mataba
first day of class. early morning sa lib. i didn't have my glasses yet but i can already see ana looking intently at me, at mejo tumatawa eto. nung lumapit siya at tinanong ko bakit siya tumatawa, eto ang aking nakuha:

"pano, ang taba mo kasi."

ang masama dyan, ang sumunod na dalawang taong nagsabi sa kin noon ay ang kanyang mga kapatid, i.e., kiboy and pepe. doble na daw ang aking baba sabi ni kiboy; at wala na daw akong panga at pangboksingero na ang aking braso sabi ni pepe. kaya sa tingin ko bungisngis, kelangan mo pang magpasalamat. napakapolite at kind ng mga criticisms nila sa iyo.

ewan ko, hindi naman abnormal na buhay baboy ang ginawa ko nung break. pero inaamin kong gluttonous na ako. once after new year sinundo ako ng mom ko, pupunta sa sm dasma. had yet to eat lunch pero i wasn't sure if she was treating us. so i brought and ate lunch in the van. ten minutes later, we were in sm na, mom takes us to eat steak. kumain ako. t-bone. as if hindi ako naglunch ten minutes ago.

saya diba.

midterms lang ito. dagdagan pa ng new year's resolution ko na three times a week na lang ako magccoke [because i am scared of getting diabetes], kaya to.

6. panliligaw
parati kong naaalala sa mga susunod na ikkwento kong pangyayari ang line na parang ganito from sex and the city : in times like this, the catholic church is just like a 36 year old woman, willing to compromise just to invite some more members.

thursday night, dad picks me up from starbs. kakapasok pa lang atang edsa, he started asking me about ipod.

by the way, ipod. totoong nagtampo ako nung christmas dahil hindi ito ang nakuha ko. sabi ni dad, dapat daw sinabi sa kanya ni mom. but later on habang nasa dinner table with the whole family and fafajo, sinabi nya ang rason na dapat ay ginagamit lamang sa mga high school students and below:

"makakasira sa pag-aaral mo yun."

anyway.

he started asking me about ipod. ano ba itsura nun, how do you use it, blah blah. he then repeats that, "e kasi makakasira sa pag-aaral mo e", and i assured him he didn't have to rationalize it because it's ok. we even had to discuss the progress of my appeals, then when he knew how bad my situation is, he decided to buy ivy an ipod instead. galing.

when we got home ivy was still sick. isa sa mga rare moments na malambing ang aking dad ay lumabas nung gabing iyon:

d: oh, anung gusto mo para gumaling ka?
i: electric guitar.
d: electric guitar! pwede bang isa isa na lang?
d: gagaling ka ba kung bibilhan kita ng ipod?
i: hindi. electric guitar pwede.

sa sobrang katangahan ni ivy ay lumabas na ako at tumawag na kay fafajo. several minutes later, ivy knocks on my door and asks me,

"gusto mo ba ng ipod? kung gusto mo, lumabas ka."

at oo. paglabas ko, bumalaga ang kahon na black na may pangalang ipod.

marunong si ivy. pinaubaya sa akin ang paghawak. alam niya kasing mahilig siyang manira ng mamahalin at importante sa aking mga gadgets eh.

panliligaw number 2. that same night before reaching the house i managed to ask my dad whether or not he's looking for a driver for me. sabi nya oo, dahil kung ako ang magddrive mag-aalala lang sila. pero when he knew that the school offers parking spaces sa baba ng school, biglang nagbago ang ihip ng hangin. pinapakuha na niya ako ng sticker.

i'm now correcting myself. pinapakuha nya ako ng dalawang stickers.

apir, dada.

7. double standard
sale this weekend sa plant. i wasn't planning to buy anything, because i don't have any money to waste.

masakit na ulo ko. payn payn.

giordano. shem finds this cute white shirt. ako rin nahanap ko rin ang tumpak na tumpak na shirt sa akin: may picture ni sleeping beauty tapos ang caption ay princess. saya di ba. tapos i showed it to shem, and guess what. she buys it for herself.

double standard. ayaw niyang pabilin ni pepe nung black na magandang jacket pero siya ay pwedeng bumili ng shirt na gusto ko. arrg.

pour vous, pastèque.

Much Has Been Said
Bamboo

Much has been said
Said you never leave
Why’d it have to be
Harder than it had to be
Don’t you throw blame
You were a part of this
Wasn’t suppose to end
With us just walking away
So many times we tried
Holding on to the pain but in my baby’s eyes I see my shame
Asking why you had to leave
Wasn’t I strong enough to make you see
That the biggest part of this
It’s not about you and me
But just be wrong if we held on
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We’ve left behind
This mirrors an open door
I can barely stand to see myself
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m crying out for help
Ohh lord
Much has been said
Will I never learn
Keeping my fingers crossed
Praying for my luck to turn
But I can’t complain
I’m living it easy
Job’s keeping me busy
Going crazy
Can’t describe the way it felt
When you left said your goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That I’ll find love a second time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
Ohhh lord…
What am I leaving behind
Sweet how we see the big picture when your life’s not on the line
I know the way out but do you see what I see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
Put money on the table thought that was all I had to do
Never came home
Never said a word to you
No one ever said it was going to be easy…
Easy start over again this time this time
Let’s do it right
Start over again this time this time
Let’s keep the fires burning

hay.

2005-12-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

bad trip talga. hindi ko talaga alam kung paano ako magssurvive ng xmas break nang walang intarnet.

fafajo, babawi ako.
aking "daddy", kelangan mong bumawi. akina gifts ko nyaha
nes, gly, isaw session lang ito.
1c, bilib talga ako sa inyo. hindi kayo galit sa parties.
duh perm, kaya ko kayo mahal e. iupload na ang pictures.

mwah dears. cheerios. =)

patayan na.

2005-12-21T15:58:00.000+08:00

hahaha. nga pala.

lagot si...

a. pepe sa kanyang mommy
b. jv sa kanyang baby
c. raul sa kanyang baby
d. koko sa buong duh perm.

hahaha.

seryoso.

2005-12-21T15:31:00.000+08:00

what's worse?

a. seeing a bunch of high school girls, all dressed in pathetic gypsy skirts, who obviously came from their school's christmas party, and now strolling in the mall, pretending to be in a gimmick?
b. the guy beside me in this internet cafe, sporting a creepy dom-ish slash gay-ish accent, teaching his little brother how to play tantra [or something]?
c. a grown man who's all tanned, and is wearing disturbingly, dangerously short shorts?
d. christmas being soooo near and yet i've no idea what to give my dad?
e. christmas being soooo near and yet i am on the brink of getting sick?
f. christmas break and i suddenly realize my laptop is so stupid to admit it has virus?

hay...

bad trip.

i realized one thing about myself lately: madali akong mabad trip whenever im not feeling well. the ordinary things piss me off.

hindi, hindi. nakakabad trip talga. a group of grown people who may be speaking fluent english still doesn't, sound good. imagine a couple of people all jologs-y and stuff, speaking in english and making fun of lester.
aarg.

nakakamiss.

2005-12-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

watermelon, where are you?

kelan tayo lalabas?

kelan ka magiging hindi bakla?

kelan uulitin to?

***sa aking grade school, high school, college friends. sori. wala akong mahanap na pictures natin. pero pahug pa rin.

penge cream puff.

kala mo masayang walang crim? masaya.

2005-12-10T14:47:00.000+08:00

1. bitarnes

payn, payn. wala na akong karapatang maging bitter.

nung bigayan last wednesday para akong batang maganda ang gising ng christmas day. panu naman, dalawa ang aking nakuhang gift. everyone kept saying, "aba, bumawi", especially nung nakitang the best of The Corrs yung isa kong regalo.

ang magaling kong kiridang si mumiel, nung sinabi kong nahihiya ako dahil cd pa lang, 400 na kaagad ay ito ang sinagot:

"pahiya ka noh! beh!"

stage zero.

payn, payn. medyo nagdadalawang isip na ako regarding the penalty. nagvevent lang naman ng frustrations at pagkastage zero eh. pero yon. ok na sa kin ang isang matinong rason. matino, as in balidong rason na talgang nung gabing iyon, wala siyang choice kundi ang hindi maibigay ang gift ko. bratinella pa ba iyon?

2. mich
nung thursday, the block went to an orphanage sa may un ave. ewan ko ba, that wasn't the block's xmas party pero hmmm. ewan. anyway, so. mich is the name of the kid i was "assigned" to.

"assigned" dahil i was not really meaning to pick her. ganito yan e. i was only walking towards koko, na nakaupo sa second row of seats, to borrow the key to his car dahil andun ang balloons para sa birthday girl mel. the little girl in peach was frantic about getting an ate or kuya of her own, at nagkataong ako ang naglalakad malapit sa kanya.

totoo. hinaltak nya ako. at sabay tanong ng, "ikaw ba ate ko?" hindi siya aggressive ha.

but she was sweet. she has the makings of a bratinella, sure, but she was sweet. when it was time to say goodbye kinailangan nya pa talagang tumalon pakalga sa akin. ok sana ang moment eh, hindi lang sana ako tinamaan sa panga. =)

nakakatawa ang moments na yon. regresyon kung regresyon. proofs?
a. wansi ang may hawak ng mga balloons.
b. nagtatamaan ng balloons sa ulo.
c. ako, feeling ko espada ni voltes 5 na nagiging lighter ang balloon ko.
d. wansi ang may suot ng mga animal party hats
e. nung dumating si jollibee, wansi ang umakyat sa stage. at may photo-ops eto.

i rest my case.

3. melo
hmmm. how shall i describe that event.
hectic.
madrama.
may pagkasabog.
pero in the end, it went well. =)

apir mumiel. may future tayo sa pagiging party planners. o hindi kaya ay yung mga gwardya ng presidente.

apir din sa mga natirang lovely people of da perm. ang saya nating mangdistract.

sadyang natatawa ako kapag naaalala kong to keep mel from going out of the orphanage and spoiling our gift for her ay kinailangan kong maging mas stage zero pa [subzero, according to me-an] at iask si mel na samahan ako sa washroom dahil kunwari ay i had to go talaga. nakakadiri. ganito ang aking linya: "ate mel, samahan mo ko sa washroom..." at may kasama pang hatak sa kanyang kamay. hehehe.

bummer lang si jv. nauna kasi sila sa starbs at dala nila ang balloons. nilagay lang sa tabi ng sofa. at nang dumating na ang birthday girl...

jv: [talking about something i can't remember anymore] ay oo nga pala, bago natin makalimutan, happy birthday mel! [at pinakita ang balloons habang nagsimula nang magkantahan nang happy birthday ang mga tao]

galing mo talaga salud. gaya ng sabi ko sayo, wala ka talagang style. =D [so pwede na nya akong kasuhan ng libel? hindi pa naman siya namamatay ha.]

sayang, hindi namin nagawa ang pink cake.

happy bday dear mel! =)

4. sataday driving
wala si kuya nar today, facilitating some church seminar i never was allowed to be a part of. yesterday was one of those rare moments when i was confident that dad would give me what i ask of him. so, last night, when he fetched me, ganito agad ang discussion. take note, kasasakay ko pa lang ng car sa may starbs.

y: dad panu yan, wala si kuya nash bukas.
d: e di si kuya santi mo.
y: hindi ba sila aalis ni mami?
d [habang paliko sa may brothers burger]: hindi, magpapacheck up si mom eh. siyempre baka ako kasama non.
y: ah ganun ba. kasi balak ko sana, kung may lakad si mom kasama si tito santi, e ako na lang sana mag drive for myself.
d [habang naghihintay mag-green yung stoplight sa may bridge dyan sa may loft]: NAKSS.

nag-green na ang stoplight.
d: kaya mo na ba magdrive?
y: eh, ipapark ko naman sa tapat ng ateneo eh. tsaka kung mahirapan akong magpark, may mga guards namang tutulong magpark. kung walang guards, may mga friends din naman akong pumapasok ng maaga e, papatulong na lang akong magpark.

katahimikan. [sshhh chito.]
d [habang nasa may gitna na kami ng bridge]: si kuya santi, pwede siya bukas.

=__= moment istatute.

nakakatuwa si dad. he called up mom when we were in edsa at nagkwentuhan sila about the business until sucat. kahit kanina, nakikipagtalastasan with his supplier. tsinitsika about the supplier's kids.

sori ha, sa sobrang minsan ko lang sila makasama nagugulat na ako everytime i see them having a good day.

tapos, a couple of lull moments after talking to the supplier, ganito ang diskusyon:

d: wag kayong masyadong pumunta sa stores.
y: huh?
d: for security reasons. kung pupunta kayo sandali lang. ako nga hindi na magpapajero pag punta don.
y: ah. si chito, pwedeng regularly pumunta don.
d: bakit naman.
y: e kasi ok lang naman siyang makidnap e.

sa toll gate, katabi namin ang isang cool na cool na sports car.
d: ang ganda ng kotse o. ang liit.
y: yup.
d: pwede kay jazz yan. [jazz ang tawag ng aking parents kay chito. as if he's not gay enough]
y: ano? kay chito, sports car? andaya naman.
d: masyado ka namang inggitera.
y: aba, aso lang sports car ang ibibigay mo? talagang pakikidnap ko yang si chito.

nung iddrop na nya ako sa tapat ng school. nasa labas ang ilan sa aking blockmates.
d: may mga classmates ka dyan?
y: oo, yan o. [pointing to the people who were smoking then]
d: alin, yang naninigarilyo?
y: oo [sabay baba ng car]
d: baka matulad ka dyan ha.
y: hindi ah. [sabay sara ng pinto.]

hahahaha. apir dada. =)

5. future
ganito. kung si kiboy ang magiging ombudsman, at si mumiel ang magiging presidente,

ako ang magiging executive secretary na ang sideline ay pagiging press secretary.

harhar.

nalimutan ko na ang roles ng iba e. sori.

basta. ang pinakainaalagaan kong fantasy ay ito. may press con akong ginaganap, at may isang makulit na reporter na nagtanong ng isang tanong na hindi ko masagot. tatahimik na lang ako, baba sa podium. kukunin ang official seal of the president, at ihahambalang iyon sa ulo ng makulit na tagatanong na iyon.

[insert evil grin here]

****
hay. ayoko na.

para matapos na ang aking lss, eto na. mean and mumiel, here we go. DISCLAIMER, kanta lang ito.

akin ka na lang
itchyworms

‘Wag kang maniwala d’yan. ‘Di ka n’ya mahal talaga
Sayang lang ang buhay mo kung mapupunta ka lang sa kanya
Iiwanan ka lang n’yan, mag-ingat ka
Dagdag ka lamang sa milyun-milyong babae n’ya

Chorus
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Iingatan ko ang puso mo
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo

Verse 2
‘Di naman ako bolero katulad ng ibang tao
Ang totoo’y pag nandyan ka medyo nabubulol pa nga ako
Malangis lang ang dila n’yan, ‘wag kang madala
Dahan-dahan ka lang, baka pati ika’y mabiktima (’Wag naman sana)

Repeat Chorus

Refrain
‘Di naman sa sinisiraan ko ang pangit na ‘yan
‘Wag ka dapat sa’kin magduda, hinding-hindi kita pababayaan!

Repeat Chorus

Akin ka na lang
Liligaya ka sa pag-ibig ko
Akin ka na lang
At wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo
Wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo (akin ka na lang)

heehee.

2005-12-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

You will be a Notorious Criminal

Your fame will be gained through your unlawful deeds. You are very smart and will probably get away with it for a long time – if not forever. You are not evil, necessarily, but when you don’t agree with a law, you just ignore it.

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You are 26% evil

You are not so evil. You are overall a nice person, although I wouldn’t want to get on your bad side. You have an extravagant imagination.

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You fit in with:
Taoism

Your ideals mostly resemble those of the Taoist faith. Spirituality is the most important thing in your life. You strive to live by all of your ideals, and live a very intellectually focused life.

40% spiritual.
0% reason-oriented.

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You should learn French

You should learn French. You are smart and knowledgeable. You are also very practical and would like to learn a language which you could use while traveling.

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Your primary vice is drinking

You can always escape your troubles in a drunken stupor. Plus everyone knows your name at that little pub down the street.

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Death through extreme sports

You are going to die in an extreme sports accident. You like to live life fast and hard. What’s the point if you don’t? Live fast, Die young, Leave a good looking corpse. Right?

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omg mumiel. tadhana.

2005-12-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

Yves's Reason for Travelling Back in Time:

To invent post-its (so it won’t be a lie anymore)

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temptasyon to the nth degree. [so rockwellized huh]

2005-12-09T10:37:00.000+08:00

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nakakatamad.

2005-12-03T16:30:00.000+08:00

isang oras pa lang ang lumilipas. nakakabagot.

btw, may bago na naman pala akong palayaw. bagong-bago.

Mitch.

ewan ko dito sa katabi ko. akala nya kilala nya ko. iho, bilang ang kasama sa 'cliques' ko.

[insert eun's evil laugh here.]

****
oo nga ano. gusto ko rin ng gameboy. magaling ka, miss bungisngis. *pats you on the back... meri krismas! =D*

sa tingin ko, hmmm. lemme rephrase that. alam kong isa akong batang sanay sa regression. payn, payn. ewan ko pero sa tingin ko simula nang pumasok ako sa lawschool naging madalas ang atake ng regression ko. shit. is that how i deal with stress?

moving on. i know i've been a victim of regression since God knows when. can't blame me, dears. repress ako nung bata ako. sabi ko nga before, i know i lost my youth. but if you think about it, did i have it in the first place?

background music: Because of You, Kelly Clarkson

shit. i'm talking to myself again. and i rationalize by saying that it's the weekend; i have reasons to be lost and insane. pero tono ni mumiel, "it's not fair."

anyway. i still remember how it felt when me and my sister were still young, mga tipong 6 years old, and we were just behind the gates of the house, oggling like hell and being envious because the other kids in the neighborhood were outside the streets, playing and having the time of their lives.

how it felt. hmmm. heartbreaking.

masama bang magdrama sa equitable? anyway.

and how embarassing it was to be allowed to play only in the front of the house.

how come i was so bano with pretty much all the games that we used to play? hmmm.

tapos i remember i was allowed to drive somebody's sidecar once. i was that bano slash fragile that i wasn't able to handle it, that i smashed the damn sidecar sa isa sa mga gardens ng mga bahay sa kabilang street. shet. ang tanga ko minsan.

bakit hindi nila kami binilhan ng playstation. hmmm. at every weekends lang kami pwede mag brickgame. bakit, may nagbago ba? hindi naman kami nerds ngayon ha. i in fact am in danger of getting kicked out before the midterms. ivy has in it inside her, masyado lang maboka at madaming kaibigan. pero parehas kaming hindi nerds. we want to pass every damn sem that we enter, but we don't envision ourselves being like the genuises that they are.

bakit ganun. bakit pinalaki nila akong madaling maggive up kapag stressful o mahirap na ang sitwasyon?

bakit ako bano. yun ang tanong.

nakakatamad magdrama. andito na sila lahat.

get the white one, mean.

mahal kita wifi eh, wala ka nga lang port.

2005-12-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

hindi ba masaklap yon? tatlong oras na ata ako dito sa library pero sadyang wala pa akong naaaccomplish.

eto ang balakin sa araw na ito:
1. gumising, kumain, makipaglandian kay Cici at hopefully, kung magaling na siya, kay fafajo [check, except for the last one =D]
2. type the duhperm wishlists [check]
3. drive [check, bwaha]
4. buy gifts for my kris kringle baby [check. may nadagdag pang pagbili ng shirt para sa next week "gimmick"]
5. fetch ivy [hindi check, dahil hinatid ko na ang sarili ko dito sa school sa sobrang kagutuman. kay saya.]
6. mangulit ng tao re their wishlists [sa pamamagitan ni mumiel, check]
7. kunin sa blog ng mga tao ang kani-kanilang wishlists [check]
8. ayusin ang format ng mga accumulated wishlists [YAN. diyan tayo hindi check. pero hindi ko kasalanan. walang shared networking o kung anuman ang tawag dun sa equitable, at wala namang port para sa flash disk ang wifi dito]
9. magbasa ng consti [again. hindi tayo check dito. salamat temptasyon.]
10. maghanap ng iglesia case [hindi pa rin. ambagal magreply ng bestfriend ni pepe e]

ewan ko ba.

mental note: gusto ko rin ng brick game, ang penalty ko na pagsayaw sa medley ng ever after never gonna give you up she bangs at ragamuffin girl ay gagawin sa starbucks, at kailangan ko ng plan b.

arrg. tama na. prior restraint has three exceptions.

payn, payn.

2005-12-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

hapi beerday nanaiers! time to shine! =p

ang continuation ng aking wishlist. [insert evil grin here]

*orange swits
*dog training lessons for Cici and Rav
*AKING "MOMMY/DADDY" na sumasayaw nang walang kahiya-hiya sa tono ng medley ng Ever After, Never Gonna Give You Up at Blue
*isang kahon ng mountain dew
*Wet N Wild lipstick, 517A [thanks koji]
*pugad baboy series
*party na ang food ay isaw, fishballs, quecquec at coke
*charm bracelet. pero, hinihingi ba yun?
*mang jimmy's isaw
*walking doll [thanks eunice]
*cute couch dun sa mala-home depot sa plant. ask mel. the light blue one.
*book about yoga
*guaranted weekly hot oil treatments for at least a year
*james blunt cd [salamat koji]
*security of tenure in the ateneo. really, i wanna be a TNT for the next batch.
*dj mix strawberry, orange
*The Body Shop concealer, 01 ata yun
*play doh haha
*vds ng snow white, beauty and the beast, little mermaid, pocahontas... vcds ng disney princesses
*gaya ni mumiel, JV SALUD DRIVING A CAR AND NOT KILLING ANYBODY!!! =D
*Emancipation of Mimi
*at least a year's subscription of cosmopolitan
*mcafee anti-virus haha
*direksyon sa buhay
*gratitude for all that i have

sa tingin ko, nahanap ko na ang aking penalty para sa aking MOMMY/DADDY. ang ikatlong hiling po. [insert a bigger evil grin here]

all i want for christmas is.... blue.
nyek.